Not His Fault But Mine

December 16,2011

7:35pm

Lawrenceville, GA

Dear Mom,

I'm pretty sure you what today is

The day of her 16th birthday

You were trying to make me girly

But I was to boyish at only 13

You left me with the boys

Gave me a dress to put on

Told me to put this on for the day

I did as you said and then it began

I put on the dress he helped me

Then started to touch me

Touching me inappropriately

I told his kids they didn't believe

When I told you we went there and there you told me

Told it was not his fault but mine

Mine because I was too friendly

And I hated you for that I still do

Do you regret letting him walk

Walking around the world

Ruining someone else's kid

Kids that young grow up fast

Fast because they have to

I never wanted to but I had to

Because you didn't give me a choice

When I told the school about it

They went to do something for me

Because they knew it was better

But you cursed me for trying to ruin a family that was already broken

I kept asking myself if I was wrong and I hated myself for it

But now I know that I can't tell you what I need to tell you because you made me broken beyond repair.

Hope you're happy,

Your second child