Help From Within

GAIL POV

"It is your turn to do the cleaning Gail, no negotiations!"

"But I really am not feeling well. The doctor said I should rest for a whole week, it has only been five days since I left the hospital and today for some unknown reason my head hurts. I can't even see you properly because of just how painful my head is." I say to Kadija, the woman who is supposed to be my mother holding in my tears that were burning my eyes, urging me to let them out but I bite my lip and try to air them away , hoping she doesn't see my glistening eyes. I won't let her see me cry. She will never get that satisfaction.

"No Gail, the kitchen needs to be cleaned today and it will.I am sure your headache will disappear soon, you are a wolf after all. When I get back I better find that Kitchen clean or no allowance for you for the next three months!". She says before leaving me laying on my bed hoping that the earth would just open up and swallow me. That day I had woken up feeling a little nauseous and slightly dizzy. It eventually got worse and then my vision started to blur. I stayed in my room and had had nothing to eat. Kadija had a meeting with some clients that evening and being the queen bitch she was, she was not going to clean up after herself. Dad wasn't home and even that pig brained Ray was already at the training camp and thus I had to take the heat head on. If Father was home he would have at least helped me, but the moon goddess had to make sure that the day I really need him he was attending a pack meeting with the beta, probably discussing housing issues for the new rouges who joined our pack. I really hate my life. I wish I could disappear .

"I CAN HELP YOU"

"What do you mean you can help me Terra? We are both obviously not feeling well" I say to my wolf while trying to find my water bottle that I had left by my bed side table the night before.

"I CAN TAKE OVER AND YOU CAN REST. WE WILL BOTH BE FIFTY PERCENT CONSCIOUS AND WORKING TOGETHER.PARTS OF MY PHYSICAL FORM WILL MERGE WITH YOUR PHYSICAL BODY AND THAT WAY I CAN DO MOST WORK. IT IS BETTER THAN YOU TAKING ON THE LOAD BY YOURSELF." Terra says , trying to convince me that his ludicrous idea is something common between us. I wonder just how far the side effects of whatever this is can go? My wolf has finally lost it? Is this even Terra talking?.

"Terra, I do not mean to bust your bubble and yes I appreciate that you want to share the load with me but if I shifted I would just literally be a wild dog. No hands, no feet..just snots and paws. I know you have a cool voice now and you sound a lot cooler than before and you are also a little , well a lot faster than before but that does not mean we get to defy all laws of nature ."

"GAIL JUST LET ME HELP US. YOU ARE MY VESSEL AND I WOULD LIKE TO BE USEFUL TO YOU IN TIMES OF NEED WHEN NO ONE IS ABLE TO. I CAN HELP YOU. IT IS THE LEAST I CAN DO"

"Okay.. you just keep getting weirder by the day. " I reply back to Terra sarcastically.

"I KNOW IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE BUT IF YOU WILL NOT FREAK OUT I CAN TELL YOU HOW TO DO IT" Terra says assuringly.

"Are you perhaps a villain trying to fool me into letting you take over my body and then using me to destroy the whole world? Like I would not mind you killing the woman who just left but I would be the culprit since the physical appearance belongs to me so that plan already sucks or are you-"

"GAIL! I DID NOT CHANGE AND I AM NOT AN EVIL VILLAIN OR WHICHEVER OTHER DEMON YOU HAVE IN YOUR HEAD. I AM TERRA. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY. I WAS NEVER FROM HERE AND IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO FINALLY GROW OUT OF MY COCOON BUT I CAN DO A LOT MORE THAN JUST RUN FAST. WHEN I REACH MY FULL GROWTH EVEN YOU WILL FEAR YOURSELF AND EVERYTHING WE WILL BE CAPABLE OF." Terra replies earnestly. I take a moment to properly think of everything that he has just said, none of it make sense but I am sure he won't hurt me. I think he did call me a vessel a while back, which might mean I am some kind of host so I guess since I am an important part of him then he won't ?. . .Wait what am I even saying!?..but whatever I need help now.

"Oh. Okay. Well, how do I do it? Do I just focus on your presence like when we are shifting or is there some voodoo shakalaka words I should say? " I ask Terra teasingly .I can feel him roll his eyes but that seems to be our most done action this past few days.

"ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CALL MY NAME. " He says monotonously.

"That's all? "

"YES. WHEN YOU SHIFT , YOU CONNECT WITH MY WHOLE FORM BUT WHEN WE STAY CONSCIOUS AND SHARE THE SAME PHYSICAL STRUCTURE THEN YOU OUTWARDLY CALL MY NAME." He once again says with a serious tone.

" Oh- okay, cool...I can do this. Wait..do I have to shout?"

"NOT TOO LOUD BUT AUDIBLE ENOUGH " He responds simply.Almost as if I have an idea of what that means. What if I whispered? No Gail, shout..so maybe just call out the name Terra?

"Okay.Well.. Here goes nothing"

I move from my laying position on bed and sit by the edge.My head still feels uncomfortable and I try hard to focus the little strength I have to open my mouth so hopefully Terra can come out and help me?. If it was a month ago and Terra was telling me that we could share a transformation I would have laughed at him and not believed a word coming from his mouth but I have seen enough to know that this might somewhat be true. I have nothing to loose anyway, even if this was a trick, I would be happy with whatever Terra destroyed. I have nothing in this world that I hold dear, no one. I take in a deep breathe and wet my dry lips with my tongue hoping to moisten them so that they won't refuse to part before I start speaking.

"Terra."