Perhaps

Where are You?

O Krsna!

Where are You?

Perhaps I did some impious deeds,

Or maybe,

In my heart,

I carry abundant greed.

Perhaps I'm more fallen than those demons!

For they at least could behold Your eternal world,

Could hear Your transcendental words,

Could see Your eternal divine beautiful associates:

For whose association I forever yearn.

Perhaps I never deserved Your beauty and love,

That is why now I'm bereft of Your eternal world.

Perhaps I'm blind enough to see,

That in this dark deep muddy sea:

Your devotees are so rare to see!

Alas! Sometimes I feel so alone,

Being around everyone;

I still feel so mourn.

For if you're not around,

This fallen soul can at least

Take shelter of Your beloveds.

But when both are not around,

Where can this conditioned soul go?

Perhaps I'm not worth it all

That's why I still yearn for Your divine attention,

For the shelter,

To be under protection:

Of Your divine beloveds.

Perhaps this is my fate,

That I should sadly accept!

But don't You worry my Lord,

I won't ever turn towards darkness

For You're the light,

You're my life,

Where will I go?

Leaving You behind!

Perhaps that's the only hope I have,

To dream of Your and devotees' divine association,

To yearn for what I lack,

Because I'm never going to give it all up.

Perhaps that's the beauty of this separation,

Perhaps this is some kind of association.