Fallen

World is like a spider's net

I'm surrounded by it

It is ultimate threat!

And I keep falling for it!

I keep making offenses

I tend to forget His loving glances!

I used to be frustrated

I thought I deserved to feel devoted

I used to be depressed

I thought I had already reached the ultimate level

I thought I was a devotee

I thought I deserved His love

I thought I deserved to feel loved!

What I fool I was!

I'm a fallen soul

It was my choice to be here

It was my choice to be a fallen soul

I have been attracted towards negation

Since millions of lifetimes

In this material manifestation!

For is it possible to get the love I had forgotten?

For is it possible to let go of negation?

Is it possible to let go of the burden

With which I was attached to

Since so many lifetimes!

Its definitely not

That's why I'm here

That's why I'm fallen

That's why I do offenses

That's why I don't deserve it all!

But do you know?

The Lord doesn't want me to be here!

He thinks that I deserve it all!

He says, "do not fear"

He says, "come to me",

For I have this attachment,

Fallen desires,

Illusion is my friend,

How did I think I deserved it all?

It will take time

I'll do offenses

I'll keep tumbling down

I'll break many bones

But you know what?

He will keep holding me up!

Every time I fall down

Everytime I do offenses

He will be there through His devotees!

Even if it doesn't seem so,

Even if I'm not getting time

Its all Him asking me to realize

That I should give Him first priority,

Its all His wonder

For I'm still bound in time

I'm still committing many crimes.

For I should be depressed

I shouldn't be frustrated

For I should become humble

For I should feel I'm fallen,

That's how devotees feel, right?

Mistakes should make one see the light

Make one see the original position

Of oneself and the Supreme Lord

In this wonderful manifestation

I'm actually so fallen

That I thought I'm not!