Taking a step back

December 17th

It was approximated 2:37am, The lovely couple sat in front of the chimney,making s'mores, because after the peaceful party they had just finished having,with Greyson and his twin brother, also lets not forget, the closest friends, they weren't sleepy. Out of no where they started remembering the first Christmas they spent together.

"No! That was you!" Estella childishly yelled and giggled. "You were the one who fell into the pool."

"No. I'm positive it was Eric." Greyson corrected her once again. "Plus I wasn't outside that Christmas."

"Lair. Don't forget that by that time I easily could tell the difference between you two." She laid her head on her charming husband. " So stop lying. You still embarrassed by it?. " she asked while bringing her s'more into her mouth.

He laughed remembering how red his face was,once he clumsy fell into Estella's pool. "Your mom made fun of me that day, of course I was embarrassed."

"You had fun?" Estella asked her husband.

"Are we still talking about Christmas?" The husband asked, a bit confused.

"The birthday" She giggled "you silly goose"

"who still says that?" He asked. Greyson leans in and kisses the pouting lips of his wife. "I had lots of fun.." He smiled.

"I'm glad, lets go to sleep it's too late" The wife said after looking that the time read 3:02am.

They bounce to their feet and Greyson turned off the fire while Estella left the blanket on the couch as she waited for Greyson to turn off the light,before heading up stairs. They both told their 'I love yous' and fell asleep cuddling one another.

They were currently sitting in front of the fire once again. They had just finished decorating the Christmas tree.

"Babe... don't mean to change the subject or anything. But I've had talk with Amy." Grayson spoke. She had a confused look on her face.

"about what?" She asked now concerned. " Is it because she's dating Eric?"

Greyson cut her off"No...". There was a small pause before he continued. "About seeing if there was a possibility of her being a... our surrogate mother." he nervously told Estella.

Estella had a straight face,with no emotion. Greyson couldn't tell if she was mad or not, he kept nervously staring at his wife while thinking 'Fuck.. I shouldn't have brought this up'. The girl in black jeans, got up from the floor and left to the apartment's balcony, to breath in the fresh but pretty cold air.

On the other hand. Greyson sat there while debating with himself whether he goes after her or lets her calm down on her own,before speaking with her.

Minutes gone by and Estella finally decided it was to damn cold to be out side with only a jacket. She walked into their home and went into the kitchen to make herself some nice hot chocolate milk.

'Why?..Why the hell did he go ask Amy something like that?' she kept asking herself. 'Like I know she's my friend and all but.. for crying out loud. I hate this. He went behind my back. He didn't even asked me first if I wanted this or not.' She angrily kept thinking. "Fuck.." She shouted,noticing she missed the mug and poured the very hot chocolate milk that was in the small cooking pot onto her hand and saw how her right hand had a very large,red mark.

Her husband ran into the kitchen, concernedly asked"What happened?!". He watch as his wife turn the cold tab on,placing her hand under the kitchen sink, letting the cold water calm the burning sensation,her hand had felt a few minutes ago. Greyson understood what happened and went to the freezer to get some ice for his wife's hand. Once he gave her the ice, he cleaned up the mess that Estella had made. He also decided to make her the hot coco,she was once making. Esteany kept staring at her hand that still had that mark. She sigh. She was once again mad with herself. "Honey, Look I'm sorry for bringing up that topic." Greyson broke the silence by apologizing to his wife.

Estella looked up from her hand, into Greyson's eyes. She saw that he was truly sorry for what he said. She nodded her head yes. "I'm just disappointed."She mumbled. Greyson stared at her with a confused look as Estella gazed at him. " You went behind my back." She coughed and swallowed the now warm liquid. "Thats what bothered me. If maybe you asked first." She looked at the kitchen's clock then back at Greyson. "You don't even know what I think."

"That's why I brought the topic up." Greyson rudely cut his wife from talking. "Like I talked first with Amy.... to see if it was okay with her. Just so you wouldn't get your hopes up before speaking with her. Cause you do always get your freaking hopes up way too fast." He snapped. "Now if that makes me a bad person, then I'm sorry. All I want to do is protect you!" Greyson admitted.

Estella was now hurt. Hurt by the truth her husband had just shouted towards her. She did notice something, this so called 'lovely','goals','dreamy', relationship they had for years has become toxic. Not just to her but to him. "I want a divorce" Estella blurted.

Greyson's heart broke into pieces. Little pieces. He never thought those words would come out of his wife's mouth. He also knew this relationship was not healthy,at least not anymore, but he never thought Estella would suggest a divorce. "Just because of this little mistake?" He questioned her.

She shook her head 'no' "We've been fighting a little way to much." She let a tear slip from her left eye. " This relationship is intoxicating me." She got off the chair. "And it's also doing the same to you." He shook his head,not wanting to agree with her. " Don't lie to yourself. It's for the best." She walked out of the kitchen and called Amy.

"Helloooo!" Her best friend said through the phone. "what's up?" She asked.

"Can I stay at your house?.." Estella sobbed.

"What the hell happened?" She immediately questioned her married friend.

Estella heard a loud sound coming from the living room indicating Greyson had punched the wall or thrown something solid hard against "I don't wanna talk" She cried out.

"Yeah come, sure, no problem." Estella heard her friend say and quickly walked out of the apartment.

Amy was concern about her friend. All she did since she got to her house was lay on the couch. Estella wouldn't speak to Amy about what had happened. Which wasn't normal coming from Estella, considering she always tell Amy every detail of her life, since she was like 15 years old she would tell her,whether is was family related or crush related, Estella would always tell her. But the fact she didn't say a word now was making Amy scared. Amy rang Eric to see if he knew anything, so she could help her best friend. It rang once, twice..

" Hi?" she heard from the other side. She notice right away something was really wrong, Just because Eric didn't say 'Love' like he always says.

"Please tell me you know whats going on?" Amy begged. " Cause Estella won't say shit to me"

"I do know." He said. " and you're not gonna like it " He added.

Those words made her afraid to know the truth. "Just say it" Amy murmured.

She heard clearly how Eric swallowed hard , before speaking. " They got into a fight." He said. Which made Amy more calm, Cause it was now normal for them to pick a fight about anything. Amy thought to herself.'My gosh, again. Theses two never stop.' "Um.. They are getting divorce." He added.

Amy yelled. " WHAT THE HELL!" Which scared the shit out of Eric. " What did they fight about.?"

"Um..Greyson didn't say much. But um.. You were going to have their baby.." He said.

Amy immediately thought 'No this is because of me?'

"I need to hang up Eric... um Talk to you later." She quickly hung up.

"ESTELLA!!" Amy yelled her friend's name, which she knew she didn't like. "Get yo ass off my couch!" She commanded Estella who was still laying on the couch.

"What the hell AMy!?" Estella angrily said, while sitting up.

"Don't you dare 'What the hell' me. Tell me you're not getting a divorce because of the whole me carrying your child thing!" She shouted. Estella looked to her left, not wanting to stare at her friend before answering.

"No....."Estella took a deep breath. " All him and I ever do now a days is fight, argue about the most littlest thing ever! And it sickens me!" Estella cried out. "EVER SINCE THAT STUPID IDEA!...." She shouted pretty loud. " I hate myself sooooo damn much!"

Amy cut her off. "Listen."She grabbed her face with both hands. "It wasn't stupid you guys just wanted to fast forward something you weren't ready for." She said and hugged her best friend tight. "I understand you....Oka-.."

Estella pulled away from her. "No you don't understand." She shouted once again. "You have no idea how it feels, How it feels not being able to carry your own child. Have to drink this fucking, disgusting pills." She said while showing her friend the pills. "All Greyson wanted was to be able to have a family... Have a little stinking Greyson running around the house." She lets more tears fall "But I ruined his life...." She looked at Amy who was reading the pill box, But also hearing her out. "That's why I'm giving him another chance, another chance to fine love and have a family...." She let out.