Chapter 02 He Looks Like My Partner

If you just want to explain something about your problem. It's better not to have this problem for too long, because I'm too lazy to see Mom and Dad fighting so often. Are my parents really not tired of fighting all the time? So it is too risky if this problem is heard from outside.

 In fact, all the neighbors in the complex will know what is going on in this house? Maybe Mom and Dad don't know what's on their minds? even though from the bottom of my heart I always say, "As their child, I feel disappointed and don't want to live with them anymore. Even though happiness was over from childhood,"

 Unfortunately, I can only harbor this feeling of disappointment. Even though I know that out there, there are still many parents who get along like there's no problem, and I hope that all parents can educate their children better. Maybe one day, I will feel how happy it is when my parents get along.

 There's nothing wrong if there's a dispute between them, although too much noise in a crowd makes me embarrassed. What's more, to the point of shouting all the wow... it's guaranteed, my life will not be calm while still discussing unresolved problems. And, even now they are still fighting.

 Gosh, when will my parents get along? Please... stop the past business! No need to discuss it any more. What's happening is actually stressing me out, can I vent this worry, who can I tell? Right, I'm also having problems with my girlfriend. How would he want to listen to what his heart was saying?

 Instead, getting better actually leads to disappointment. And, there is one thing I need to explain to him. Even though it requires patience from the bottom of my heart, even though it is a bit difficult when struggling to discuss our problems. Especially since the most beautiful ex comes from Yogyakarta. It makes me more anxious, worried and anxious, my thoughts are not just you. But my work is really not finished until now.

 Actually, there was an intention to give a surprise. Heh... unfortunately, you can't just accept it gracefully. Even though it's so hard to accept the fact that he will be with his ex again and, what should I do to make you want to be with me?

 Sometimes I'm not completely sure I have thoughts like that, especially since there was a problem I rarely communicate with him, but there is one request that I think is the most appropriate. Because he still remembers what he said until this moment. Absolutely unforgettable!

 "Jar, how are your parents?"

 "Normal, noisy every day. Even though it's a trivial matter, you know,"

 "Yes, it's called a problem, it's bound to be a fuss, right? Do you have to fight slowly and weirdly?"

 "Yes, that's right. But, I'm too lazy to live with them."

 "Heh... you can't do that, you have to be able to solve the problem. You will definitely be able to finish it, I'm very sure,"

 Huh... why do you talk to friends every time? Will always defend my parents. Isn't it, help me to finish like what? Sometimes I get annoyed with him too. At that time, I was doing school work. Heh.... instead I was the one doing it while my friend was relaxing.

Considerations are very difficult to predict, in fact every time you want to make a decision you are suddenly confused. However, every day is always with him. But, somehow you still have a bad feeling? Maybe I need a moment. Don't hang out with them yet! Hah.... unfortunately, my life has become too fragile since I found out that my partner remembers memories with my ex.

 And, I think it's only necessary to talk to them. Don't talk too often about the same thing, you don't know what to answer? please... my life really needs healing nowadays, even though I don't know where the healing goes? Because my savings are starting to run low.

 So want to make your partner happy! You have to be willing to spend that much money. Please... if you want to buy something, use your own money, because I really need the money I've been saving all this time. Heh.... actually spent it in one day, imagine where else to put it?

 He definitely knows everything related to me! Even though I tried harder, so that he wouldn't know about me. Heh... still, trying as hard as I could, even though in the end I was tormented by having to answer his questions. Actually, I'm confused.

 My classmate even insisted, "Please... why do you have to get involved in everything?" Questions like this make me confused, and trying to understand what does it mean? Still in my mind, "Hey, why are people always telling me not to get involved? So, what should I do?"

 While thinking about it, I still imagine if my partner meets the most beautiful ex. Then, the seeds of love grew in his heart. Wow... that really made me even more curious and then, after that, a rift arose between the two of us.

 Do you still love me all this time or not? Even if you still love you, you don't have to meet everyone. What's more, without asking permission makes me even more surprised and confused even though I know how far the risks are? There's no harm in looking for another way. So that the feelings that have always been for me, instead turn to the most beautiful ex.

 "Jar, if possible, meet your partner later."

 "Why do I have to meet my partner?"

 "Well, you said there was a problem?"

 "Yeah, but right...."

 "But, why Dawn?"

 "I'm not too sure he'll listen to what I'm talking about?"

 "Don't be pessimistic, you have to be optimistic." said my classmate while smiling at me.

 "I've tried to be optimistic but,"

 "But, do you still mean that pessimistic?"

 "Well, yeah." I said while looking into my classmate's eyes without giving a smile back.

 I swear the weather today looks cloudy, it looks like it's going to rain. At least, for now don't talk too long. Because public transportation likes to stop first. If you use GO-Jek, I don't think it's necessary. So that my finances remain stable for one month, especially now that it's the end of the month.

 Meanwhile, my salary was only disbursed around the 05th. Even so, I don't know whether it is according to the date or has it been postponed? Even though the money was to be sent to my parents. So that the current situation is better than before, it may take a long time.

 Meanwhile, now I really have a lot of problems. It's not about my family but also about my partner, it's a really complicated problem hah... basically it can't be explained in the near future, even though my classmates ask a lot about this.

 "Jar, don't forget to video call for the next activity later!"

 "Okay, I won't forget about that plan."

 "OK!"

 "Yeah, I'll go home first, okay?"

 "Yeah, I want to go home too."

 "Ready!" said Fajar, immediately gving him a smile.

Not so long ago there was a woman who was very similar to my partner, at first it was just the same. Heh.... after realizing it was my partner he turned to me, without giving a smile at all.C