Death

I don't know if I will be relocating this as well. Don't worry I will update and tell you were I have relocated it if I do. Also Since I'm out of the states I will take longer to edite my mistack while writing. I will be back and fix them around Saturday or Sunday. Or at least during these next few weeks.

Why did you leave me here?

I've been trying to get to you since I was 5.

Remember with that knife that I snuck to my bed.

I was trying to stab it into my heart.

Why did you let God stop me?

You know that I wanted to die.

I thought that no one loved me.

But my heart knew differently.

God sent me an image.

It was of my mother grieving at my grave.

I couldn't bear the thought.

So I didn't meet you that day.

But I wasn't one to give up so easily.

I tried another way,

on another day.

I was eight and pretty stupid.

That day I was beyond mad.

The stupid thing.

I yelled at my nieghbors what I was about to do.

My nieghbors were across the road and having a birthday party.

I'm so embarresed thinking back on it.

I try to not show my face to my nieghbors now.

So I layed down on the road.

And ended up falling asleep.