Chapter 116 Cancelled Wedding 3

  What just happened? I just kissed Benson, I held my lips and sat on the floor behind the door quietly. whatever, Alex deserves it, now he'll know how it feels to kiss someone else. On a second thought, what if he's not hurt by my actions? His feelings are obviously different from mine, I let anger and jealousy consume me. 

"Ah Hazel you fool!" I hit my head burying myself further into my legs quietly. No you did nothing wrong, he wronged you, he disrespected you. Now I think of it Benson's lips were soft too. Ah Hazel's get that thought off your head. I thought about different things all at once.

I just didn't know how to face Alex again but I don't care anymore. He can do whatever he wants with Berverly, I don't care. I couldn't apprehend a sound from both men as the hall way turned silent within seconds.

I stayed in that room till evening, I was really starving, I haven't had anything to eat except the breakfast I had with Carie. Before getting married to Alex I usually cared less about food, but in this house we ate early and whenever you feel like. And now my body has adapted to this new changes.

I found my way out of the room to the hallway carefully, so as to avoid getting caught or bumping into him, that's the last thing I needed right now, not after the stunt I pulled earlier. I got to the ground floor and stroded to the formal dinning room, but was astonished when I got there.

Alex was sitted there alone with lots of food and drinks on the table, of course he had to be here, right when I wanted to eat something. I'm still angry with him, I can't possibly sit and dine with him. I headed towards the door but, "I've been waiting for you, come eat with me!" He said coldly.

I froze at a spot, "I'm not hungry anymore!" "How long Hazel? You've had your revenge haven't you? Come eat with me!" He met my gaze, his eyes colder than usual sending chills to my body. His words were straight giving me no room to protest. My legs found it's way to the table and I sat down two seats away from him.

Alex's face was dark and scary but I tried to hide my anxieties, I wouldn't let him know how scared he made me feel. We started eating but I cautiously watched his every move very closely. I know Alex, he does things the extreme way when it comes to me, "You should learn to talk when you have issues with someone instead of activating your madness. It makes you do something you're not supposed to!" He said calmly.

I knew it, he just needed the right time to insult me for getting angry at what he did. "There's nothing to talk about Alex, you can't have reasonable conversations with assholes!" "Tell me something Hazel, do you like Benson?" I choked at his question, tapping my chest lightly.

Why would I like Benson? For f**ks sake I just think he's handsome and hot that's all" I screamed in my head. "I like him a......!" "Are you inlove with me?" My heart skipped, and his impassive face was not helping at all. Benson's question was sudden but his, made me completely dumbstruck. I was speechless as words failed me at that moment, it was like my brain stopped working.

My heart wasn't helping at all, what was I meant to say? The truth? What if he doesn't love me back? It was obvious, Alex doesn't feel the same way I feel about him. His black intimidating eyes were fixed on me, curiously waiting for an answer. Oh I wished someone just bumped in to save me from his deadly stare, but no one dared, we were the only ones in the room.

But what if I tell him the truth about how I really feel, will that change everything? I thought.