Chapter 27: You tried too hard

Another day in what is already very normal for me, yep, no doubt this is turning out to be much more entertaining, fun and I even feel that it helped me to strengthen even more the friendships I made and to be able to see certain facets of each of them that they preferred to hide, they are not going to scold me for discovering it right? After all they are the ones who are giving it to me, I don't even care about the exact time it's happening, let's say I could live like this all my life and I wouldn't dislike it at all, because there really isn't anything that has changed, there wasn't such a big change to feel strange or weird, or even to reject everything around me, eh?.....

From what I was in my room as usual, it's the only thing I know so far, even looking out the window and watching the forest, it's impossible that I don't have memories of the times I was walking or strolling with my same friends who live with me every day, it was fun to be outdoors, it was also fun to visit or explore other islands, what could be going on out there while we have locked ourselves in our little world, eh? ....

For some time now I've been feeling a strange sensation inside me, like I start to remember little things or simply things that are different from today, and that alone provokes in me a feeling of nostalgia, really, even if it were for a moment, I would like to relive those moments just as I remember them, but... if everything hasn't changed as I see it, then I shouldn't feel this feeling of strangeness, weirdness and much less nostalgia, that's strange don't you think? If everything stays the same, why do I start to feel that... it shouldn't really be like that... I think I'm starting to understand it, I'm seeing it from my perspective and how I really feel, yes, it's clear that I like the kind of life I lead now, that everything is the same and that practically it doesn't affect me too much personally, as long as they still treat me as what I am and mean to them, it's enough for me really, even if I grow up and become an adult as such, that my mother still treats me as a child...for me that would make me happy, but....

I was in my room, it was full of movement and although there were no words from my guests, they were still giving life to our fun time, Cream and Rouge as it has become customary for the 3 of us to get together, so that we could dress up in a way that we could all have fun, but as always a person is more attracted to something never seen before than to something repetitive, I remember that first day when they dressed me as a woman and they had fun doing whatever they wanted with me, it didn't bother me at all because I lived that experience many times, either with Menhera or my Big Sister that every now and then she got the mania of wanting to see me cute and tender, but. The first day was amazing, the spirits were high, the second day they were still excited to see what more clothes I could try on or how I would be treated, looked after and made up for the catwalk that we always did when the 3 of us were ready. I was having a really good time, if I had to spend my whole life like this, it would be really good for me. .... but as time went by more and more that I didn't realize, little by little that emotion that they had from the first day was fading more and more, I wasn't realizing it to a certain extent, as we always did the same thing when the two of them visited me, I, as is typical, received them trying to guess who were the ones that would come this day, It was easier to detect my visitors, from the first days as a prisoner that I couldn't detect or hear everyone's footsteps, now I don't know if it's because of habit or simple daily reaction, but I guessed more often the game that I set myself.

『I knew it!!!! I knew they were coming and going on the day of today!!!! Cream, Rouge!!! Something came to my mind, we already tried on everything, both princess, ball gowns, casual, flamboyant, lolita』

They had really dressed me in such a variety of things that it was difficult for me to say them all, I was so excited to tell them what I was about to propose. You can call me weird or whatever, but personally I don't dislike this facet that I have of dressing like a woman, although of course, don't confuse something, I can accept dressing like a woman as long as I also agree and I feel like it, if they force me to do it even though I don't want to at that moment, of course I will refuse to do it, besides, the fact that I dress like a woman for fun and to pass the time doesn't mean I act like one, I'm still a little man with taste for women, eh? You still think it's weird? there's nothing weird about it, I only do it for the jajas and I don't dislike it at all.

M didn't know it at the time, but since he was a little boy because of Menhera and his older sister who, to pass the time and have fun, dressed M as if he were a girl, with the dresses and clothes of women that they had, at the beginning of course M refused this, but with so much insistence and even obligation, M from one moment to the next ended up getting into a kind of habit and he can't see it as frowned upon to dress as a woman, let's say that he even sees it as normal on his part and personally. On the other hand, Rino, who also went through the same thing because of Menhera and partly because of his little sisters, Rino accepted from the first moment knowing that it was just to pass the time, he had no objections and didn't refuse at the beginning like M, although if you ask me, the fact that both friends have lived that experience, maybe they got that mania, Maybe they got that mania of dressing as M, dressing as a woman, while Rino seems that this mania of dressing in an extravagant way and acting like a character out of reality, would end up hitting him much more when he grew up, even getting the most famous disease of his country.

『So far we have tried everything, but we have to go to the next step, and it occurred to me to finally give a personality and facet that I really like, to that version that dresses like a woman and is there to support, have fun, and hang out with friends, she will be called Mina!!!!』.

I don't know why, but at that moment it came to my mind if there is a version of me that is completely female. I've been thinking about this for a long time, since they made me dress up as a woman all the time, to have fun and interact especially with Cream and the games we play, I decided to finally give a better shape and details to that facet, yes!!!! Mina is the name when I dress up as a woman!!!! At this I was excited to tell this to Cream and Rouge, who both looked pleased with what I told them, at this I thought I did well, the little bunny was clapping her hands and smiling all over her face, while Rouge now that I see it, stopped her congratulations and looked at me funny, as if to say "Oh no, I think we turned him into a joto".

  『 （＊｀〇Д〇）?』

His face at that moment was really one of confusion and astonishment, so I kept thinking about the conclusion, but as I had already imagined, I quickly clarified that I was very macho and the fact that I have this habit in my life doesn't make me any different.

『Calm down Rouge, I'm still the same as always, I like women』.

But at that time when I wanted to clear it up, quickly Rouge was explaining to me with mimics and signs somewhat...I was quickly going with Cream so I could cover her eyes so she can't see, really this is not suitable for children.... quickly to all the signs and perverted movements, both using his hands as marking or pointing parts of his body, I wanted to make it clear if I am well macho, then why I end up disliking everything according to what a real man likes, ah...you mean how I reject the attractiveness of a woman, well ....

『This...it's not that I dislike it, I just don't like what I consider to be too overwhelming and even inhumane...for example your Rouge, the fact that you try to be provocative all the time according to your attractive and sexy features, I know many people like that, but for me I don't see the attraction, rather it makes me feel disgusted to the point of vomiting on many occasions. ...the overly large breasts as well as exaggerations that could easily be normal, it really makes me shiver and makes me think "That's really scary...."』-『Wanting to stand out too much in those parts...really doesn't appeal to me much...I feel that there are other qualities that are more important and attract one more than just having it big....』

What was this, M was also coming clean and telling Rouge, it was something that if he could talk to her, understanding the context of how they got along, this finally became free for M to say. Rouge was clearly hurt that he still saw him as an overwhelming person in that aspect, but from the last thing he said, she could detect something very present in M, that this boy likes purist, but the fact that he also talked about this without hiding anything, made her understand that what she gave him for his birthday, if it is having an effect, the boy is more adventurous to what he feels.

『I don't want to make it too long so I'll just say this, I don't dislike the way you are Rouge, I don't dislike the qualities you have, I'm rather glad you have that high self-esteem for yourself, I wish all people were like that, I.... at the beginning very early on, I didn't have confidence in myself, people like you who show themselves as such and despite negative criticism keep trying even harder, it really is amazing, sorry again for all the times I offended you with my answers...』-『Although it's also a matter of taste, I prefer tender and innocent to sexy and provocative, but when the time comes, I think I will fall to my baser instincts like everyone else *shame on me*』

M was completely sincere on this subject, he himself didn't know why he was saying it, it was like he was looking for an opportunity to talk about it with someone who could understand him very well. M was totally blushing and embarrassed, but at that moment Rouge was calmer and more relaxed, as if a worry in the future of this boy ended up disappearing, that was all I wanted to know from M, that despite the attitude he shows on many occasions, although he wants to show that he supports the tender and innocent, like all men he has met in his life, they always at some point have to let their guard down and only show the most primitive they are when they really like something and are attracted to it.

The Succubus was satisfied with this, after all she was right in her thinking, no man can save himself from the perversion and temptation of the opposite sex, for sure M will come across more provocative situations and things that displease him, as he said himself, I don't like huge breasts that defy human size.

『Those chingaderas look more like tumours than breasts, it's really the last thing I see on a woman...』

There are all kinds of people and Rouge knows that perfectly, and because of the variety in the world, she enjoys discovering new things like everyone else and taking in everyone's experience. M was already calming down and finally let Cream open her eyes... eh?...wait? Didn't M cover her ears too? Then in all that time she had been talking .... the little girl ended up hearing everything, to this M instead of blushing as we thought he would, he simply surrendered and caressed Cream's head while commenting that.

『Listen Cream, just like there are men who like chicks like Rouge, who have huge chicks and all, there are also people who like it small like ....*look at her* No no no no that's not a very good example...huh?...eh? NOO!!! Hold on!!!! It's not what you think!!! That's not what I was referring to...ahh!!!!! I mean I do like girls but I can't see them that way because ....(What if he's of age? ....NOO!!!!) ahhh!!!! Ah! but there are also women who like big and strong, there are also those who like small and ....no!!!! not that either!!!! But why the Shotas are right but the lolis aren't???? Why!!!!!!! I mean! They are not both correct but!!! AHHH!!!』

M if he was really talkative this day, now we all understand Carmis better why last night when M came clean, really his level of embarrassment was huge, and now history was repeating itself, Rouge by now understanding such terms, was looking at M totally backwards, if before M was disgusted by Rouge, now the Succubus realized that there are really sick in the head free humans out there, these loliconers of the world, we really should be very careful....

『(￣x￣;)』

『!!!! Are you going to make me the same expression too?!?!!!! You Incubi and Succubi you have the filthiest thinking there can be!!!! Don't you forget that you've been inciting pervert to a child since you were 13 years old!!! and you Carmis!!! don't think I'm going to forget that you like them with huge asses and tits!!!!!!』

I really exploded at that moment because of the hard face that the demons could be, I take back what I said a thousand times, these two are demons for a reason, they deserve it for having the dirtiest mind, and then they look at me with that gesture as if I were the worst person there is, I do know how to control myself and what is good among the bad, although I will not deny it since we are here, if there is a loli of legal age out there, I really do not even know what she would be capable of. ...this age I'm entering, I really feel like it's going to bring me a lot of problems...damn puberty that lets our testosterones run free.

After clearing up all the last things, now after a few minutes to relax, we returned to the initial topic of the day, that I should dress up as a woman and present Mina properly. But before we could start with today's event, Cream quickly took me by the hand and seemed to stop me by shaking her head. At this I didn't understand why she was doing that, but quickly Rouge also had other plans, looking at the clothes they brought...I hadn't noticed a very important detail, this time they hadn't brought female clothes to dress us up in, but on the contrary, they had brought male clothes of different varieties, at this I was confused wondering what we were going to do, but it was obvious, they were going to fix me up with it.

『Huh? Did something happen? They don't want to dress me up as a woman anymore? (Was it because of everything that happened earlier? No...they had already brought these clothes with them...although I don't rule out the former too...)You guys...want to try new things right?』

To that last question I said, both Cream and Rouge gave me a thumbs up that that was it, where going back to before, this was totally bringing back that strange emotion inside of me, yeah.... The same thing was happening to them too, they didn't like doing the same thing for a long time, I guess they got bored, it was a surprise the first day, but now seeing me dressed as a woman and that I had introduced them to Mina, surely they wanted me to not get used to this kind of life... to this monotomy that I really liked.

Only to that we stayed, they began to dress me and to fix me as it is due, already leaving the innovative thing that was in its moment, they were respecting what I said at the beginning, that I am completely a man, must be the reason why they never saw me dressed of gala or with terno, really that type of clothes I do not like, is uncomfortable and does not leave you much mobility in the body, but to be my friends who want to see me dressed thus, then I will allow it for today, and one thing, I didn't expect that this pervert Rouge, knows how to fix and give care to a boy, the way she did my hair, she really had skill, the tie that is a nuisance to me, she also had it easily ready with the knot, they wanted to see me as natural as possible without many touches, some perfume on the neck, some black shoes as such and.... ...

『That's a surprise, you're really good at treating men Rouge 』.

And at that moment my friend answered me as if she was saying "I'm a Succubus for a reason" Words that still didn't fit me because of the situation before, but I guess she's right, Rouge has two sides to her, the perverted and the modest, and to be more honest, now that I got to know both at the same time and see that they fit together perfectly, I like Rouge even more as a person and as a friend. At this point, I had finally finished changing, and in the catwalk style we had, I introduced myself by walking to the front and .....

『Ahh...this is really uncomfortable....』

I was at the front showing what a great job my friends did in dressing me up and presenting me like this, the hairstyle...it really reminded me of how my mother used to do it, although it wasn't as formal as my mother is used to, Rouge gave it a much more modern style, if she could speak right now, she would surely be telling me that it would attract a lot of girls.

Cream was the most astonished by all this, as she always saw me in the most casual way possible, in my typical sporty attire, but seeing me in this way, she quickly broke into a smile and even when I approached her to look at what was going on, Cream blushed as if she wanted to take a step back, that I had slouched down to ask her, to be dressed smartly. Like Carmis the first day they met, Cream is the type of person who likes to be formal, polite and elegant for the most part.

Rouge was very proud of the work he did, yes, a man when he dresses as he should, is where his qualities stand out the most, she wanted to see the reaction of more people, but she knows very well that M can't leave his room, at the slightest feeling that M went out, quickly because of the detection that Zeta Parasite has, she will stop him and scold him in the most instantaneous way possible, there was no other way, she will have to warn other friends to come closer and .....

At that time the door was opening, they had not noticed, but it was time for lunch, and as has been customary for a long time, the one who brings food to M is Blaze, where the cat did not expect this, first entered seeing the mess of the many clothes lying on the floor, looked at the floor to avoid tripping and dropping the entire tray of food, where M cheerfully approached Blaze and said.

『I knew you were coming *smiles*』.

M was at her front offering both hands to Blaze, who the cat looking up, met the little boy who...didn't look so little now that she sees him closer, at this she was at first confused, as if wondering who this boy in front of her was, where M asked again.

『Come on Kitten, let me help you』.

When she heard the boy call her Kitten, she quickly realised that this could only come from the boy calling her that nickname. When she looked back to her front and found M dressed properly, now her reaction was different, she was surprised that even her tail didn't move, she was really still at that moment, she couldn't believe that this young waiter was M. Who M happily for the food and not to be a nuisance, she took the tray and took it to the table, where Blaze followed every move she made, he didn't take his eyes off her at all, his eyes were very attentive and ....

『Did you see a ghost or why so cold, Kitten? Oh, did you see how I'm dressed? It was Cream and Rouge who did it, they decided to dress me like this for this day, I'm sure it came as a surprise to you too, since you met us in the same way sometimes but I was dressed as Mina, ah! Mina is the name I gave to my version dressed as a woman, isn't it a pretty name?』

She was trying to have a conversation with Blaze, but yes...the surprise literally left her even more speechless than she already was, imagine spending the days bringing lunch and finding that M was dressed as a woman, for Blaze this was stupid and even silly for a boy to do this, although she wasn't going to deny that Mina looked kind of cute, but seeing M dressed in a suit, was something else that as a woman she couldn't resist.

Quickly at that moment he lowered his head in embarrassment and quickly went to the table, he could tell that he wanted everything to be quick, he couldn't bear to see M as the version he never got to see of him anymore, to this the boy could quickly understand , so he simply sat down to taste the food this time from his friend.

『An Omurice!!! As much as I like it, though...isn't there something missing here?』

I was missing what should not be missing in an omurice, that is, the drawing or writing with ketchup on the tortilla, to this I was a bit not upset but...to what I said, quickly Blaze had the bottle of ketchup in his hands, where he would happen to draw on this occasion, to this I was surprised, since it was the first time I saw Blaze do this, I understand, this excitement of seeing something new is always fun. But.... for some reason Blaze was shaking her hand when she had to draw, of course, to draw she had to get close to M, which made her more nervous and ....

『Something wrong Kitten? Are you shivering a lot, have you got the flu or a fever?』

At this Blaze wanted to draw a dog, a hairy dog like M is, but he could only shiver and make a drawing that was going to come out deformed, but he had to concentrate, he had to write and draw what he wants to convey to M, he became more serious at that moment, he was starting to work hard on the drawing, he was really doing well at that moment, he put aside the embarrassment and concentrated on the message, the dog is finished, it could be better but he hopes it's understood, good! Now it's time for the message, at that moment, Blaze looked out of the corner of his eye behind him and... he was surprised to find that neither Rouge nor Cream were there, they were gone? He didn't expect this, so without wasting any time, it seemed he was going to say something to M directly but....

『Haber...uhmm...it looks like you do have a fever...the heat is rising...』

M to get rid of her friend's doubt, at that moment she went to check by putting her forehead on Blaze's forehead, who, when she wanted to give her message, couldn't do it because of the surprise of the boy in front of her. She couldn't deal with this...she wondered why...if he wasn't so attentive before, now why does he care so much about her, she was blushing, where at last M stepped aside, and said to her.

『You always have to make us worry Kitten....』

And at that moment when she stared at him, Blaze realized that this attention was not just from today, but for a long time, from long before, M had always paid attention to her, even a little more than the others. At this Blaze was blushing where M stood still, as she felt something was going to tell her, Blaze couldn't, this was hard, this wasn't the time to behave and win her this feeling, she had to convey it, tell her what is about to happen after a long time. Where before he could move his lips, the ones that ended up leaving, came back but with 3 more individuals, Rouge and Cream wanted more to see what M looked like, so they brought Amy, Zeta and Carmis who ....

Amy first of all was the first to react to this, and seeing that M and Blaze were together, she quickly frowned at that moment, and as if suspicious of what was going on, she got especially close to Blaze, who Carmis at that moment, wanted to raise her hand, but Zeta turned to see what she was doing, and Carmis quickly whistled looking to the side.

Amy stood in the middle of the two of us, where she didn't remove and seemed to judge Blaze at that moment, where the cat was nervous and worried for some reason, but after so much insistence that something bad could happen, she quickly grabbed his shoulder standing next to him and with a look of opportunity making eyes at M, it's as if she was saying "You who like young boys, tell me, do you still see M as a boy?"

To this I couldn't understand as that if was a bit difficult, but Blaze did manage to understand what his companion said only with signs and...she quickly became nervous as if denying, moving her head and hands from one side to the other, to this I could only say.

『Rosadita, stop making Blaze uncomfortable, she should rather be treated since I think she has a fever』.

When I said that to be able to help my friend, Amy quickly put expression that if really Blaze was with fever, because if, visually the cat was red, so to check it also and take the necessary measures, I was going to confirm it, but at that moment that I was going to touch her, quickly Blaze was alarmed, and quickly happened to go running away from my room, to this I did not understand what was happening to him, but Amy seems to get rid of the doubts that I had, yes, there was nothing to suspect, turned to look at me and. ..without any reason she gave me a thumbs up again as if telling me that I did well, but....

『I don't understand anything....』

To this Amy was retiring of my room, where the following one without noticing it was Zeta who was looking at me fixedly, and when seeing me, I don't know why... but she put the gesture also of those that my mother put, that gesture of which I am presentable to go to any place and that they don't see me that I come from the street. And with Zeta's good look, she also went to leave the room, it seems that it was too fast, because Rouge and Cream also left my room after getting what they had, I don't know why, but I think they are going to go to Blaze to ask him more sincerely about his opinion of me.

I was looking at the table where the Omurice that Blaze prepared for me was, I just finished drawing the dog, is it a hairy dog? I could only try to smile because it was still the same ....eh? the same? At that moment Carmis came to my side, took the ketchup bottle and went to write in Blaze's place, he looked as if he was finishing his work, and after that, as if he had had a bad time, he wiped his sweat and cheerfully told me to eat everything. My stomach was growling so I listened to him, I looked at what my two friends had done, the drawing was funny, it made me laugh, but the message, it said in a simple way "Get Ready".

Get ready?.... get ready for what? At that moment I didn't understand, but Carmis again added something to the drawing, and made as if the dog's paws were glowing, the fist? I couldn't understand, but Carmis simply raised his fist, I couldn't understand but the Demon said to me "Wait a little more, my friend" I don't understand why he does all this, I took a bite of Blaze's food and .... before Carmis left, I told him that I would be able to eat it.

『If you see the Kitty, you could tell her this message...』

And after telling her what I want her to say to Blaze, Carmis was leaving but with a happy expression on her face, because it seems that after all, if her friend arrives on time before what they have been planning for a long time.

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The day was calmer, and I myself knew who was going to come this time, it was strange that he didn't appear for a long time, most likely he had prepared for this time to beat me, so I was reading a book of culture, quickly by pure instinct and habit, I turned to look at the door, and slowly raised my hand to point and ....

『You're ready for a new fight, Amy *smiles*』

Yes, Amy had come to have another rematch against me, where you could see it on her face, now she was more than ready to beat me on this day and that the scoreboard was marked again in her favour. The pieces were ready as well as the board, the participants were also ready, the time had come, Amy was the first to move her pieces where I had it clear, I always did the typical move of pieces. I used the Italian Opening, Queen's Gambit, Slav Defence, I always started with one of those moves, the ease of taking the advantage with those moves is absurd, thanks to that I was able to beat Amy many times, then I continued with the Shepherd's Mate, at the beginning Amy was a novice, so applying these moves was easy, when I thought I could avoid my moves, I would quickly use both my knights and bishops to regain the advantage, those are my pieces that I pay the most attention to as well as the queen, as long as I still have 1 of each, I can visualize my next move and win. 

Amy was moving the pieces according to what she thought she could win, I see that she was doing the typical...no...I get it, you want me to see that your moves are random to throw me off, but in chess and board games like these, no move is for nothing, it always has a goal to aim for. With a simple pawn I could stop her and...when I do something she doesn't expect it, she always puts on her frustrated face, she was very expressive when she was between the ropes and that was an advantage with which she guided me a lot in our encounters. It had already been 45 minutes since our game, it's the hardest so far, we can easily take it to an hour but... I'm already planning my next strategy.

『Short Castling!!!』

I moved my closest rook again with my king, although I think I was a bit hasty in making this move, but seeing that his bishop is wanting to go for my king, it's best to put him in a safe place. At this I thought that in a couple of moves I would have it, I still have the queen so ....a this Amy of how frustrated I was, just as she did it a thousand times with me, now I ....

『Amy, the fight is still going on』

I insisted her to continue fighting, but when I thought I had provoked her more to move the piece I thought she was going to move, she quickly removed her face and only changed to the typical inexpressive face of the parasites. She moved her token that...at the moment I saw it and analysed it, it didn't provoke much change in me, yes...I can still continue with my strategy, but by moving a token that I hadn't paid attention to, I realised that ....

『(The rook!!!)』

The rook is one of the few pieces I move but don't leave out much, but it seems that Amy saw and noticed that I only use it to castle and nothing else. After taking a good look at it...maybe the moves I thought I had hindered his move, in the end Amy had another plan in mind.

I would go on to look at her face but...being in a situation that is taking advantage of me, he should enjoy it and tease me but...she was still expressionless which was putting me in a bind, I hadn't realised but, looking at her was a habit for me to make my next moves and....

『Ready!!!! I'm saved!!! (My 2 knights are dead and I only have a bishop left..... my queen was checkmated, to escape I have to kill but.... my rooks, I must use them but...how they move will take a while to make a move....)』

I had to take a risk, I put my rooks on the move, the truth is that moving them after the initial strategies I used, it really hinders their moves, it's a disadvantage for me at the moment. But it's the only thing I can do to save my queen, they have to attack externally to free her, if I can do that...I can have a chance.... The game went on and on, I tried anyway I could using the few pawns I had to hinder their moves and in a way to make the formation with my rooks that I'm planning to make. I was ready...if Amy moves another piece other than to disrupt me, I can get my formation done and ....

『(I did it!!!! Good!!! Now I can!!!....eh?.... wait, and who is defending my king?...)』

I just realized a mistake in my plan, when I wanted to make the formation, I ended up unprotecting my king without realizing it, and the pieces that seemed to hinder...it was not only that, the pieces that put my Queen in check, started moving and began to advance quickly, it was my chance, now that my Queen is free I can...!!!!!!

『(My own moves that I made, now also hinder my Queen!!!!)』

And all of a sudden, my Queen's token disappeared at that moment and was replaced by another one of a different colour.... I was swallowing my breath because...I was in a hurry, I was trying to continue with the formation but...now that the Queen had died which was the main reason for my formation...I let my arms fall limp and I better decide....

『.... I lost...』

The game continued and as I expected, Amy ended up checkmating my king, with almost no pieces on my side and still with a guard that passed Amy's attack, this game I lost. And when I finally lost, in there I just saw Amy's gesture, he was most happy and celebrating his victory, it was one more for our record.

『（（（○∀○）））』

『But still, the score still favours me Rosadita *smiles* Congratulations』.

So far so far, M won a total of 61 times, while Amy won a total of 38 times, in total they played 99 games, we have one more game to go before we reach 100, although it's good, Amy is getting a good winning percentage considering she started as a rookie. At this Amy was pointing her finger at me as she bragged about her win this time, which I wanted to put her down by waving my hands but...I'm really just happy to spend time with my friend.

Now that we are done playing, I want to tell him about my situation, while we put the pieces back in place, I told him about my situation that happened when I was 13 years old and I had entered High School, about the Entrance Ceremony and how I retaliated in the worst possible way, when I told him what I did, I thought he was going to be surprised and point at me as a pig and a degenerate but.... ..he just went on to pat me on the back as if to say "You're not the only one who had that experience, everyone deals with it as best they can, you kid, you really are a special case but not unique *smiles* so what you did isn't that weird, now that you told me, how do you feel?"

The words or at least what I understood from Amy, I can really see the sincerity she wants to convey to me, I managed to say it and she didn't reject me like I thought, I guess that's what I needed, to have someone tell me that I wasn't as bad as I thought I was, but still I don't plan to say it to all friends, it's still a personal issue, that or until that thinking changes and I take it as it was a puberty thing. Amy was leaving my room but without taking a better look at me, and with her smile it seems that even though I didn't notice it myself, it seems that there was a small change in me. ....

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After a good routine with Zeta's sewing classes, we were really close to complete the scarf, I was excited about how I would finally finish it, I would like to say that it was because of my own work, but in the times that I couldn't, Zeta helped me to complete the parts that I was afraid of, this needle thing, without a doubt with a single prick, makes me give up very easily. As Zeta came and we stayed until late, she prepared lunch for me and we ate, it was already dark, and I was wondering something...I went to look out the window to see if Blaze was watching the area as usual, but when I looked, I realised that he was nowhere to be found, without any choice I went back to bed, and...I don't know why, but I have this feeling that I like this life, but how will my surroundings see it?

『I like this life for me, but for the others who are controlled by the parasite...they must not like it at all....』

I can't forget that detail, even though they are the same as always but with another facet, I can't forget that there is an external being that even though I don't see it as such and they deny it, they are controlled by the parasite. I was about to pick up a book to read, they knocked on the door at that moment...they knocked on the door? It's the first time they've done that, so I quickly asked him why he did it.

『Kitten, how strange that you touch instead of entering by yourself, come in』.

To this I made her come in and just as I thought, that way of knocking on the door of 

others, it was Blaze's, the cat came in with a tray of food as usual, she came to bring me 

dinner on this occasion, to this I was happy as I wanted to see her before the day was over, instead of placing it on the table as usual, as I was sitting on the bed, she quickly placed the tray on my thighs. I didn't understand why she did this, normally she leaves it on the table...this time she was very abrupt and daring so to speak and ....

『This reminded me that you always go straight to what you're looking for, something 

happens Kitten....』

At that moment I could see it when I looked at my partner, she was looking at me straight ahead without taking her eyes off me, she was blushing for some reason, it is normal to see her like that lately so I was not impressed, but...it was easy what she was looking for, as always her goal is that I try her food to give my conclusions, again it was an omurice and...it was drawn in a better way a bald dog, it was funny to see it again, but the words that accompanied it this time were... "Let's make an effort together...and I'm sorry."

I don't understand what these words were written for, to make an effort in what? and why he apologizes, it's not that he has done something wrong and...

『You always try hard Blaze, I always had that image of you, for someone who gives 

everything so that her friends nothing happens to them, I think she doesn't deserve to 

apologize, if you gave everything and lost, there's no need to feel remorse to yourself』.

But the moment I said to make her feel more relieved, I could see it clearly in that instant, Blaze started crying out of nowhere, I was alarmed by this, but she didn't make any move, but I did miss that my friend started crying.... I don't know what happened for them to end up like this, maybe Blaze and company had the initiative to stop this on their own when they knew, they didn't tell me anything since if it was for Blaze, she prefers not to put us in danger at all and....

『You lost, didn't you?』

I said it just to say it but I see you got it right, to this Blaze was shaking her head at me 

saying yes repeatedly, even though she wipes her tears away, it doesn't seem to stop for a good moment. To this to help her and comfort her, no better came to my mind than to say.

『Well, that's in the past, you lost but everything is the same *smiles*』.

What I said...I really did my job, Blaze stopped crying at that moment and...started to look at me with total indignation as if I had said the worst thing to hear, annoyed now if she stopped crying and quickly forced me to go for what came, she demanded me to eat at once the Omurice she brought me, which...if that makes her feel better, then I will, when I take the first bite...

『!!!...It's good the way I like them...the sweetness and texture...they are rich』.

To this really was my honest opinion, Blaze's Omurice on this occasion, it was too 

delicious for me, you could feel the sweetness of the sugar and the texture was soft but 

consistent at the same time, it was really delicious, the filling and so on, it was really as I 

like and ....at that moment I realized something, remembering Blaze's first dish that was 

really bad tasting like charcoal, and after many attempts and time, we got to this day 

that...looking at her hands I could tell, they were bandaged from the cuts she made in the kitchen, as no one here addresses with speech, for someone who tries very hard, just like she did with me, I wanted to tell her.

『You came out with a good dish Blaze, you accomplished your goal as always, even with your mistakes you seek to remedy and excel』-『Yes you tried hard *smiles* You did well Blaze』.

At the moment I said it, I was really giving him to understand, all this effort he made all the time, was for me, and I could understand it when I ate this dish, it is just as I like them, I see that Carmis did transmit him what I told him that time, since the Omurice of that occasion, was perfect, it was really very good, but I like them a little sweeter and with the texture not so cooked, I see that...Blaze did take it into account and ....

『I say the same to you M....*happy*You tried so hard...*cry*....』

When I heard another voice different from mine, really that moment was incredible and 

surprising, I had already got used to just hearing my voice in all this home even though I am in company, but...now Blaze somehow responded to my words, the simple action of 

this...really left me very happy....y too...just like Blaze a moment ago, I also started to shed tears without someone to stop me, even I do not understand why...but...

『I'm here now...all that you endured and hid all this year that passed...you can unburden yourself to me...even though you've grown up a bit...you're still a child M....』

Blaze happened to hug me at that moment, he was being my consolation that I didn't stop crying...even I don't understand...I never suffered...I never got sad....never felt that 

something bad was happening...but....I was crying and just crying like finally breaking the monotomy that I like so much to be in.....

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