Jordan stared at Lena's tear-filled eyes. He quickly dried it and caressed her cheek. "Will you accept someone like me who caused the death of two important people in my life?" It was as if his heart was being choked by pain. "If only I had accompanied Nadia, she would still be alive today. If I hadn't left Mommy in Russia, she would still be with me today. See? It was my entire fault. I could have saved them but I was selfish. I put the exam first because I don't want Daddy to scold me." He laughed bitterly. "God, I'm such a bastard."