VI: The Field Trip

12:45 am Thursday 1, December 2022

Danielle's pov

Thanksgiving was over now and it was freshly December. I'm in Horizons right now at school sitting beside Tara while everyone else sat together. Right now they are announcing our one-week field trip.

I was a little worried about going on the Christmas trip because I was feeling a little uneasy in my stomach. They said that because of all the events that are done at this school the trip would be free for everyone.

We were going to Canada 🇨🇦. I was excited about this because I've always wanted to go, and our parents won't be there. Just sixteen students and two teachers. One male teacher for the four boys in our class and one female teacher for 12 girls. So at least one of us can sneak out at a time if the others are smart enough.

It was now lunch time and yes we had it that late. Usually, the kids we have at our table are Ari, Asher, and me in one row, and then across from us was Tera, Hazel, Melody, and Zoe. But now we had everyone else sitting with us talking about the field trip.

"I heard that people were gonna be jumping bones," Avery says, looking at Hudson. What they were saying was making me sick. I decided to move away from their conversation, the only one to notice was Tera.

She decided to sit with me and I was grateful until she started to smile at me in a weird way raising her brows. "What's wrong with your face?" I inquired she then stopped smiling and said. "We're finally going to Canada like you wanted to." She says smiling again. "Yeah I don't know if I wanna go, I feel bad," I say I wasn't lying because my stomach hurts and I don't know if it's my period or something else.

"Why what's wrong? Are you okay?" She asked.

"No, my stomach aches, and I keep getting nauseous," I say I look at her face and she is doing a weird thinking expression.

"How about I come over tomorrow and this weekend and help you get better since we don't have school." She says I nod and I finally have a smile on my face today. "Although I'm not so good with people who throw up and I try to distance myself." She says with an awkward smile and I roll my eyes.

3:30 pm it was now after school and Tera wanted to come over to help nurse me back to health. I didn't tell my grandma that I was sick, cause I was mostly on the verge of vomiting but hey I want to go to Canada.

Tera was the one who drove us because my grandma is paying me $1000 if I wait until graduation to get a car and a nice one too.

"Okay, I'm excited. I mean we're going to a different country and we're staying in an aesthetic cabin." She says pulling into my driveway.

"Yeah ok, but I'm not gonna be kidnapped by anyone or things," I say as she stares at her phone. "Omg!" She Yelps. "What omg what?!" I was confused. "My grandma lives a few minutes away from the cabin we're staying in!" She exclaimed. I open the door to my house, say hi to my grandma, and go straight upstairs.

"Okay so tell me how you feel." She says. "I have a bellyache, I'm nauseous, and have a lot of headaches," I say she doesn't say anything for a while like she was thinking.

"Well, you could-"

"I could do what? Please use your words." I say confused.

"It's nothing, I'm positive that I'm wrong." She says and I'm too tired to ask anymore. "You know what would help? Some ginger tea, lemon, and honey." She says and I just nod my head laying down on my bed.

It was finally Monday and I was feeling refreshed and better. Over the weekend Tera helped me get better and pack "Bang-worthy" outfits. I am now excited. I have always wanted to go to Canada. It's so aesthetic to me, and it's cold. I hate the heat. We all had a plan that once we got to Toronto, Ontario Canada that we would:

Get assigned to our rooms in the cabin.

Plan what we're going to do.

Have lunch at 11:30 am

Go with a tour guide.

Free for all

Dinner from 7:00- 9:00 pm

Showers

Night time games

Bedtime 11:30 pm

It was now 7:00 am and we were boarding the bus. It took about 3 hours and 35 minutes to get there so it was gonna be a long ride, I didn't wanna sit by Tera for 3 hours straight. The guilt came back to me when she talked about James.

I'm the reason they broke up. And no I'm not the girl James was talking to on the phone that night.

As we got on the bus I decided to sit by Cassie, she's not mentioned and she barely talks to any of us. I think we should at least get to know her because it's our last year.

It was now 10:35 am and we were now loading off the bus. Tera looked a little upset but I brushed it off. We got into our rooms, four for each room. Me, Cassie, Tera, and Solana are in the first room. Ari, Melody, Hazel, and Avery are in the second room. Asher, Liam, Hudson, and Nathaniel are in the third room.

We all were able to relax after a long drive. I got to play SORRY! With the other group of girls, Tera took a nap and Cassie talked to Liam. Ari, Asher, Solana, and Nathaniel played twister.

We all got ready to go to lunch. We all decided on club sandwiches and mimosas. We went to a restaurant called The Club. Their food was so good everyone got something they liked.

I was surprised I wasn't tired from all the turkey I had. We were now going on our tour guide from 1:00 pm-4:00 pm. We had four places to go to, including the gift shop.

We went to THE Gallery OF Ontario, Casa Loma, Ripley's Aquarium of Canada, Toronto Island Park, and the Hockey Hall of Fame. These places were surprisingly fun and I didn't feel nauseous anymore.

Or so I thought...

We had a free for all where we could explore the region we were in. I decided, like Tera, that I would say in our room and go to sleep, but Tera was awake talking nonstop about James. I was so tired of her talking about him.

"For heaven's SAKE Tera!" I shouted realizing that Cassie was in the room. "YOU dumped him, and HE cheated on you!" I scream. "Get over it, please!" I shake and my voice cracks.

"You don't get to tell me what to do! You've never been in love before!" She yelled and I start to feel sick again just like Friday, but this was worse, I needed to puke.

She was about to say something else but she saw my expression and hers changed to worry. "Dani, are you okay?" she walks over to check up on me. "Danielle, are you sick?" She asked and then Cassie was now around me. I shrugged them off and sprinted to the bathroom.

Luckily the toilet seat was open, so I let it all out. I threw up my breakfast from before the trip and lunch I had at the Club. When I was finally done I realized Tera was holding my hair back and Cassie standing in the doorway.

Cassie was so in shock she screamed, enough to let the boys in the other room hear us. They busted through the already unlocked door and to the bathroom where we were at. "What's going on I heard screaming," Liam says clearly not with the other boys. "Where are the other boys?" Cassie asked. I was so tired I just started crying.

"With their girlfriends. Why is Danielle crying?" Liam inquires. "Hey Liam, could you do Dani a favor?" Tera asks and he nods his head. "Okay, get her some pain meds and two pregnancy tests of different brands," Tera said and my eyes widened in shock when she said the pregnancy test.

"Danielle you're pregnant!?" Liam and Cassie ask in unison. "Yes, she is." "No, we don't know that yet!" I say after she pulled that little stunt. "Yet." She says and I roll my eyes so hard I could've thrown up again.

"So can one of you guys come with me?" Liam asks. And wanna get away from them so bad I say. "I'll go. I'm bored and I have nothing to do."

"Right you guys go, me and Cassie will find the father of the baby. Let's do DNA swabs!" Tera says weirdly excitedly. I wasn't feeling good and I'm not talking about physically. I felt guilty, scared, tired, and hungry.

We got to the store and I knew it was going to be embarrassing. I quickly grabbed two tests, Advil, and Pepto Bismol. Liam grabbed some snacks we all liked and he walked up to me. "You got everything?" I nod and set the stuff on the counter.

"Expecting?" The store clerk asked and I ignored her. "You know I think you're gonna be great parents, even if you are a little young." And this is where I decided to mess with her. "I'm 25 and he's 29 and we don't need your sympathy because we didn't use a condom," I say with a fake smile grabbing our stuff and exiting the store.

"Dang Danielle, why so harsh? Don't you know that Canadians are always nice?" I rolled my eyes and kept walking. I didn't want any sympathy from anyone, it was my fault and it was my mistake.

We got back at 6:35 so I was able to use the test and console myself if I was prego. By the time we were there, everyone else was even the teachers. "Hey what's that you got there?" Ms. Julia asked, I wasn't scared to show her because Ms. Julia is one of those cool teachers without trying to be. So is Mr. James. I opened my bag and showed her the stuff.

She dragged me to the side with a concerned face. "Danielle you know this is a serious matter, is this some sort of prank?" "No, I just wasn't making the right decisions," I say looking down. She looks around before saying. "Does anyone know? If someone does, meet me in my room I can help." I nodded my head as she walked away. We had 15 more minutes so I grabbed Cassie, Tera, and Liam all to Ms. Julia's room.

When we got into her room and straight to the bathroom. "Wait, why is Liam here? Is he the father?" "No! I don't know who the father is and I don't want to." That was a lie, I knew who the father was and it was James Tera's ex-boyfriend. I was a terrible friend but I couldn't help myself, and this is my consequence.

We were waiting, waiting for 3 minutes to see the results. I was tired and hungry and I just wanted this over with. I couldn't get an abortion and there are many reasons why.

The timer was finally up. We had 2 minutes until it was time to go to dinner and I was waiting for a result of a stupid test. I lifted the test to read what it said for both sticks.

II

Positive…

Shit, it was positive. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't have any idea how I was gonna take care of this baby. Of his baby. Do I tell him? Do I not? I didn't know what to do so I just sat to cry while my best friend, the one I betrayed, consoled me.

Mistakes like this always happen, right? Now I was just gonna have to live with it. Hopefully, something good will come out of it.