Her mother's words changed her

One morning Ashlynn's mom prepared her a big breakfast and went to shower to prepare for work , she comes back find the food wasn't even touched , Ashlynn sitting there with a bowl of cereal she didn't even put milk , this was it her mom had enough of it , she was supposed to work at their company after she graduates , she has an amazing talent on designing clothes but she just been there watching movies , wearing pajamas, eating snacks , when she forces her to eat a proper meal with her she eats very little , will she be like this for how long ?

" Ashlynn I haven't talked to you about anything and just let you be for the whole six months , I think I gave you enough time to heal now let's talk , what is this ? What are you becoming? , what about your talent and dreams everything ? , your friends have been striving out there reaching their goals and you are just here , do you think the one who hurted you is out there sad and stuck eating cereal without milk like this huh "

She was about to get up honestly she didn't want to discuss this with her mother but if there is the best person she could find answers on about moving on that will be her, after the death of her Dad she was a mess but she remembers seeing her mother being strong regardless and now she is happy, how did she do it ?

" mom I feel heavy , I have lost interest in everything , mom please tell me I know I never talked to you about that time but I need to know how did you do it "

She know she is a bit overboard you can't compare her situation with what her mom went through that time , It was hard .

Her mom understood her and it was very rare of her to talk about the hard time they went through but seeing her asking about herself means it's really serious

" I started with finding productive things to shift my focus on , all I knew was designing so I picked it even though it was hard I used to do everything with your father but I kept doing it , when it got hard I cried , when it was suffocating I went out for fresh air , then I come back and pour my heart on it , the outfits I designed at that time were the best outfits ever "

"I let my self feel all the emotions with out burying them inside because I knew time doesn't stop to wait for me to be okay, I told myself there is life ahead and I still have you so I have to keep pushing "

All her mom is saying is the truth , she witnessed it herself

( mhh so all I have to do is shift my focus somewhere else I should go back to designing again from the scratch but I need something else to motivate me )

" listen my dearest , you are beautiful , smart , talented , you have a good background , you know a lot of stuffs, you speak five different languages , I've raised you well , you are perfection itself give yourself time to find your perfect match while you keep working on yourself there's no rush "

( oh my God what was I even thinking I am the prize , like in that movie I watched yesterday , a princess going on different dates with the best men in the country to find her perfect match , Yesss )

Actually that wasn't exactly what her mom was telling her to do but that thought lifted away all the heaviness in her , her mom was amazed seeing her returning to more than her old self in just few minutes of talking now she wishes she talked to her sooner

Ashlynn hugged her mom saying that she's greateful for her words of wisdom , she head back to her room with a happy mood , she has to plan everything perfectly.

Seeing her like that warmed her heart she finished breakfast and went to work not knowing her daughter is up to some serious shit.

After planning the whole morning she opened a new diary on her earpods a song was playing , she related so bad with the song , it brought back that confidence she lost and so many ideas on how to make her next move , she kept singing

°She a baddie ,she know she a ten °

Part and she got an idea in her diary she wrote a Ten , now she will find the perfect guys from different races and occupations ,; criteria for having a chance with her, is good looks , rich , he has to be obsessed with wanting to be with her , because she is the prize .

She showered , dressed up headed out for the fist time in six months , she wants to change completely from her head to the toe.

She drove to a spa , then to a nail tech then to the hairdresser, she picked the perfect ginger ale with medium length wig to be installed on her , she looked drop dead gorgeous now all is left is shopping new cosmetics , clothes , shoes , bags everything.

It took her three hours to shop all she wanted

On her way back she went to register at the nearby gym ,it was Friday so she will start on Monday then she went in one of the best photo studios she picked some ideas she already made a reservation with the photographer Luis something about having her pictures taaken always makes her feel so good .