Reality

Life is not always full of cupcakes and rainbows. Let's be real, life sometimes have the color of sadness in it. Just like the online classes. The reality went a bit...crazy. Lets call it crazy, I did not expect having trouble using a laptop or going through google accounts whatsoever but I did. Funny story, we were tasked by our teacher to answer an worksheet and I had troubles in underlining the text and it looked like this: music___seven__ . It looked so stupid to be honest. And one time, I deleted the link wherein I was supposed to answer the exit ticket for our Social Studies subject and I typed the URL that my friend took a photo. I wasted almost 30 minutes doing that and eventually, I emailed our teacher for the link instead. Besides that, we know we are at home so distractions at home really does affect you while studying. Specially our loud ass neighbor who uses their karaoke from like 7-9 am until 5-6pm in the evening. Not gonna lie I was so pissed but what could we do, we are not really from the place we are staying so.... I have no choice :) To be honest I had constant emotional breakdowns between weeks 5-8 of our school year. I just felt really alone and I miss some of my friends. School does make me happy, specially when I meet my friends. Maybe that is one of the reason. At the same time, I felt discouraged to go to school because all day I hear is scolding, noise of our neighbor and crying noises of my brother. Maybe those also caused my emotional breakdown and I think those really triggered my anxiety and stress. (I really hate loud noises by the way.) Another thing that happened in reality is my parents doesn't give me motivation to go to school. They do support me financially, but they don't motivate me which is very sad but I could not make them change, I am just their daughter in the end of the day. I thought I would only be chillin' but.....Yeah...I studied a lot, did projects and I stayed up late to make them. Which is so tiring but for the sake of my grades, I am ready to do it. And I am grateful that despite of these, I am still standing strong. And I am grateful that I could still go on! Some students in our country committed suicide, due to depression, stress and anxiety. So, what I learned is despite of sadness that I felt, I made myself stronger.

Closing chapter Reality with this quote " A lot of things bring us down, we can't focus on the things that gives us happiness alone, what would we do then? We need to focus on our priorities, settle them and give attention to them in that order. Cuz reality is not about pain or happiness nor about the things that makes us feel different emotions. Reality is about learning our priorities and responsibilities, how should we take action on those to make us feel fulfilled of what we have done."