Chapter 3

I am sad, but not hopeless. I am tired, but not powerless. I am angry, but not bitter. I am depressed, but not giving up. "

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Joanna hugged me as she cried upon my shoulder. Only I could understand the reason why I was so eager to leave. I looked at her swollen eyes, and I knew she was gonna miss me. Her arms still wrapped around me while she cried some more. My parents were there watching but their presence meant nothing to me since I was used to them not being there. Piper came running towards me licking my legs. I scoop her into my hands as I massage his head. I handed her  to Joanna to help me take of him.

"Hey! Everything is gonna be fine, with or without me" I said sadly as I hugged her again.

"I hope so Grace, I'm gonna fucking miss you!" She said while she sobs

"Me too," I said

"Grace! Come let's go, before we go late for our next flight" my mum said as she entered the car. My dad was already seated on the driver seat.

" I love you, Joanna"

"I love you too and take care of  piper"

"Yes I will, goodbye Grace "

"Goodbye Joanna" I said as I waved.

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How was your first day at university like?

Was it fun, weird or a total disaster? I was yet to find out about mine but I guess it will be fun.

I opened the door to my room and I saw a girl facing the window. Immediately she heard the door closed, she looked back and said hi. Her first impression when she saw me was really terrifying, maybe it's the way I see things.

"I'm Grace"

"Oh! And I'm Jenny, it's nice meeting you Grace" she smiled brightly.

"It's nice meeting you too"

I could picture the smooth oval of Jenny's face,

She has high, delicate cheekbones, small nose, luminescent blue eyes, creamy smooth ivory skin, and silky blonde tresses. full lips and cheeks, both plump and rosy; and golden-red, perfectly curled locks that fell down her ivory skin to her elbows.

"I will be so glad to assist you in arranging your things at where it should be situated," she declared with a radiant smile.

"Thanks! Gorgeous, you're so nice"

"It's my pleasure"

I guess the first impression does not really count, cause she seems so nice and caring.

After all the arrangements and the brief introduction of our self, we rested for some time. Jenny is 18, and she has a twin brother called Austin. Her Dad is a model, while her mum is one of the best fashion designers in the USA. she invited me to a party that was gonna take place at 8 pm, which I didn't decline. I'm a party freak. At that moment I felt like getting wasted and if possible, get laid. I wanted a good vibe, not negativity.

I wore a bodycon gown, the bodycon was a tight-fitting dress that hugs my figure and accentuates my assets. I put on some makeup and black lipstick, believe me, it looks good on me. I'll stop wearing black when they make a darker color.

Why do I love black so much? Black is associated with power, fear, mystery, strength, authority, elegance, formality.Black is required for all other colors to have depth and variation of hue. So you get?

After some minutes spent looking at the mirror, Jenny came out of nowhere looking all colorful. To many colors is not my thing.

"Are you ready?" She asked displeased like I wasn't wearing what she was expecting.

"Yes, I am," I said with a toothy smile.

We hop into a cab and it drove off. The ride wasn't that long, but the silence was killing me. When we got there, I could see a big mansion before us. 'This must be the place' I said to myself.

"Common let's go in and get wasted," she muttered nonchalantly.

Immediately we opened the door, the smell of alcohol and weed hit my nostrils. We went straight and then we turned to our left, I could hear some loud music playing in the background. The messy room had empty bottles laid on the ground, waiting for someone to trip over them. I almost was a victim. As for the people in this crowded area, their looks reminded me of the beer bottles: empty and useless. As I stepped over the god-awful mess, I noticed the music playing in the background.

All of a sudden, the party wasn't t so bad after all. Well, at least with my voice singing in the background.

I went to the kitchen, to get some drinks and get my ass drunk after Jenny left me to hook up with some random guys.

"Hey, pretty girl, what are you doing all alone ?"a guy with no identity spoke to me. I must say, he is very poor at flirting. But immediately I saw his hotness, I was less concerned about that.

He looks breathtaking, and I couldn't take my eyes off him. He really got me working on my appetite. He had tattoos written up and down in his arm. There's nothing more dangerous than a guy with charm. His one-stop shot makes the panties drop, he has deep blue ocean eyes that makes me wanna drool. He caught me checking him out and I suddenly became shy around him.

"You like what you see, right?" He asked with a smirk on his cute silly face. The way he talks turns me on, and my sexual urges were getting uncontrollable. 

" I'm Austin and you're? "

"I'm Alexandra "

"Nice name"

"Thanks"

"You look extremely beautiful" he complimented.

"You don't look bad yourself" 

We kept flirting with each other and before we knew it, things got rough. We started kissing and some other things were happening underneath. He drove me to his house and everything became wild. Which landed me naked on his bed. He kept kissing his way through my chest, using his right hand to rub my folds through my panties. I grind my hips on him,begging for more. He looked at me mischievously and then stopped what ever he was doing,making me whimper.

He slide a finger inside of me,making me ache my back and earning a a sweet moan from me. He pumped it in and out of me as my moan became louder. Again he pulled his finger out and placed it on my lips as I taste myself. He stood up from the bed and went to his dressing mirror and took a condom from his wardrobe. He ripped it open immediately he came back to the bed, spreading my legs as he put his member at my entrance. With one swift he was inside of me as he drives me into oblivion

The next morning, he was nowhere to be found. He left a note beside the bed. It reads.

Austin: Hey bitch!

Thanks for the one nightstand. Your service isn't needed anymore. Pick your things and leave immediately you read this. My girlfriend will be home soon and she won't want to see a slag on my bed.

I frowned at his rude comments. Does he think I'm a slut or what?I was really mad and angry. Tears dropped down my cheeks as I packed my belongings and left heartbroken. I really don't understand why people treat me like dirt.  Maybe its because I'm always falling into their trap.

When I got to my dorm, I opened the door only to see Jenny sleeping and snoring. I fell on my bed and cried really hard. I felt like trash and useless. After a while I took a cold bath to cool off, it was  Sunday so there was nothing to do but lectures start on Monday.

Jenny finally woke up, she asked me if I enjoyed myself at the party. I frowned a little, too scared to tell the fucking truth, so I told a white lie saying it was fun. I had the feeling she knows I'm telling a lie. I didn't bother asking her about hers, I knew she had fun.

"I'm starving," I said to break the awkwardness between us.

"Same here, let order for pizza"

"Oh great!"

We ate and slept off, so we could prepare for the next day