Lovers Quarrel

I feel that. I feel like he just don't care about me. Apart from seeing my ex on him. I also feel again how to be trash.

It hurts because I want him. I really want him. It was the first time we had a fight, because I had become malicious. I didn't understand their conversation with the woman so I asked my Chinese friends for help, some say it's for business and some say I should break him because he's a playboy.

Yi was a friend of mine who tried to find the answer to the question in my mind. Maybe his girlfriend will be very lucky apart from the attributes he has, his character is also good. I was saddened by the meaning he said.

I want to talk to Xin on that matter. But he obviously avoids my questions. I just cried and cried that night. I don't think he cares about me so that's it. After all, we have different traditions. He is Chinese, I am Filipina.

The next day, we were obviously cold to each other. I want to offer break up, I don't want to get to the point where we get hurt next time. I talked to him, we talked. He said he was disappointed with what I did.

He can share everything with me but I asked others instead of him. How could I do believe in him if that was already happened in my past? It hurts. Very painful.

But in the end of the day, we talked to each other. We say to each other, open up the problem. I don't know but I think I need to make my patience longer. We did say sorry to each other and give sweet conversations.

Well, I choose to have a chinese boyfriend so I should accept the consequence on loving him.