Thirteen

*There will be a tiny 18+ content in this chapter*

Oh Areum

I have been avoiding alone time with Hoseok Oppa. Why you may ask? It's because Hoseok and Somi had broken up. I didn't ask for a reason why and I didn't want to know why either because now that Hoseok was single, it just makes it more difficult to hold back on my own emotions. I've noticed too that his eyes on me had changed. They lingered on me longer than usual and those brown orbs followed me where ever I went. I had to repeat my vows every night before I went to bed so that I would stay focus on what my mission and role is in this family.

Instead, I'd spent most of my time with Grandma. I'd retell the stories that Hoseok had told me about Yoona and Grandma. I'd do what she used to do and dance to songs with Grandma. I would giggle and genuinely enjoy my time with Grandma. I've been true to my words as I have been feeding Grandma her medicine daily. She was becoming more lively and energetic with me around. I was with her at all her appointments and Dr. Park says that Grandma was doing a lot better now than before.

I played it safe with Minjoo by letting her start the conversations between us and then slowly choosing my words with her. I was afraid of her finding out about the real me that I avoid her using Grandma as an excuse for a while. But as time went by, I couldn't dodge her anymore. She would ask me about how cute American boys were and how the country was. I would make up stories and with the help of Hoseok, I managed to convince her into believing me. We texted and talked often while I stayed in the Jung's Resident.

Minjoo would even come to my room and we would sleep and gossip all night about our favorite K-pop idols to see who was cuter or the better dancer. But she'd always end up choosing Hoseok in the end. I quickly learned that she had the hugest crush on Hoseok for the longest time and that Yoona had always made fun of her for it. So I played along too. I hoped it would lessen my feelings for Hoseok. Every time Hoseok Oppa was around Minjoo and myself, I would smile suggestively and wiggle my eyebrows towards Minjoo to tease her. She's always ended up throwing things at me to stop my teasing before running away to hide her blushing face.

It was nice to have a friend to talk to, even if it was all just pretend. I tell myself not to get attached to Minjoo because I wasn't here to stay. But it's hard not to like Minjoo. She was like a best friend whom I've never had before. And it just kills me that when this is all over, so would my friendship with Minjoo. I could see why Yoona loved Minjoo as her own sister as I too have grown to love her as if she was my own sister.

In the month that I spent here with the family so far, I've never felt out of place. Everyone loved me and even though I was still avoiding alone time with Hoseok, I was grateful to have him near to help me with every slip that I let out. Everything was going great. Grandma was healing, everyone was happy, and all was perfect until today when Minjoo had bought me a present.

"Yoona, since you kept your arrival in Korea a secret, I didn't get a chance to get you anything when you came back from America. So I went out earlier and got you a present."

"A present?! What is it?! Gimme gimme! I wanna see!"

Minjoo had the biggest smile on her face before she walked out of the room that everyone was sitting in. I was feeding Grandma a piece of sliced apple that I had cut for her when Minjoo returns with a guitar in her hand. My eyes widen in horror, dropping the fork that held the piece of apple. Worries ran throughout my entire body. My hands started to shake and sweat as Minjoo moves in closer and closer towards me with the musical instrument.

"I miss hearing you play Yoona. Your songs and voice had always made us all happy. Will you play a song for us? I'm sure Grandma would like it a lot too."

My breath had intensified. I started to feel like it was hard to breathe. I was going to get caught. I can't play any instruments. My anxious eyes fell upon Hoseok's and I could see that he was signaling for me to refuse to play.

I instantly remember Yoona swearing off music, so I put on my acting mask. I cried and refused strongly, repeating the promise that Yoona had made to cut out music from her life.

"N-no! NO! I won't play it! I refuse to play it! NO!!!"

Everyone except Hoseok was surprised by my sudden outburst. I turned to Grandma and shed tears down my face and cried into Grandma's arms. I had to do whatever it takes to not play or else I would really get caught today.

"Grandma, I don't want to play the guitar. I swore off music and I will never touch it ever again! Please don't make it play the guitar!" I sobbed uncontrollably into her hugs and she comforts me by patting my back.

"It's okay, It's okay my Nana. Don't cry. Minjoo! Get rid of that guitar!" Grandma snaps coldly towards Minjoo and I suddenly felt bad for her. I didn't mean for Minjoo to get yelled at, but I couldn't get caught. Minjoo sadly retreats from the room with the instrument and I continue to sniffle for a while before calming myself down in Grandma's arms.

"I'm sorry Grandma. I didn't mean to act out of character. I Just- I don't want to touch a guitar or piano anymore for the rest of my life. They don't make me happy. They don't make me smile anymore."

"It's okay my Nana. You don't have to explain yourself. You were pretty upset that day you came home and broke your guitar. It was your favorite thing in the world."

I snuggle closer to Grandma hoping that I could somehow escape the room when thankfully Grandma beat me to it.

"Would you like to go rest for a bit sweetie? You seem startled and really shaky."

I nodded and apologized to everyone first before hugging Grandma. I turned around and headed towards the stairs but halted in place.

"I'll take her up to her room," I heard Hoseok say and before I knew it, he was already by my side. I wanted to tell him that it was okay, but his long legs were already moving ahead of me, leading the way upstairs. I bit my lip, nervous about being alone with Hoseok. But I couldn't get out of this so I followed after him up to Yoona's room.

Once we made it inside the room, Hoseok turns around to face me and moves closer to me. He reaches a hand to shuts the door closed and then pulls me into a hug. Flustered at his sudden embrace, I just stood there while he continues to embrace me.

"I'm sorry Areum. I'm so sorry to have you go through this for me and my family."

I let out an awkward laugh and hesitantly hugged him back, not really sure what to do.

"Oppa, It's okay. We passed the crisis this time and they won't ask me to play anymore instruments."

I noticed that his breathing had started to get heavier. He snuggled me closer in his arms and soon I felt his lips next to my ears. The way he whispered huskily into my ears made me weak in my knees. My skin prickled with goosebumps when he spoke.

"It hurts me to see you cry Areum. Even if it's just acting, seeing those tears fall off your face, it hurts so much. Do you know how much I wanted to wipe your tears away in front of everyone? How much I held back from rushing to hold you in my arms? I'm going insane here and I think it's because of you."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

Was this a confession? Does Hoseok like me?

I was mute and couldn't say a single word. Hoseok pulls away from the embrace only to back me up against the door. My breath hitched as those dark eyes stare deeply into my own. They moved down towards my lips and I felt my own chest starting to rise. It was getting harder and harder to breathe.

"Areum..." Hoseok spoke out in the softest but dangerous tone I had ever heard from him.

Before I could utter a word, I felt his warm lips on my own and that's when I heard nothing but my own heartbeat, pounding away. His hands had found my cheeks. He cups my face and kisses me against the door. I couldn't hold back when he is kissing me so hungrily, so aggressively that I let myself go. I kissed him back just as hard and pull him closer towards me. He moves his kisses down to my chin, then down towards my jaw, and then down to my neck. His wet muscle left kisses all over my neck and the sensation was bring me to euphoria.

He nipped and bit my neck, but was careful not to leave any bruises, in case anyone would see. 

I held back every moan that wanted to leave my mouth because I didn't want anyone to hear, but his lips and kisses did wonder to my body. I found myself getting wetter by the second. It had been a while since I last slept with anyone and I was aching to release. His mouth found mine again in a hungry kiss and soon his right hand moved down my body. I felt his hand underneath my shirt and he gently caresses my tummy ever so slowly making his way up to my chest. When his fingers brush over my clothed nipple, I lost my mind.

"Oppa.." I moaned out in between our kisses and Hoseok completely freezes in place. He pulls away suddenly from our heated kiss and stares back at me with the most confused expression.

He quickly removes his hand from underneath my shirt and his body and warmth were replaced with the cold air of the room. We were both out of breath and before I could ask what's wrong, Hoseok spoke first.

"I'm sorry Areum... I shouldn't have done that. I should have held back. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry..."

And he opens the door and exits the room leaving me a hot mess, wanting him, and embarrassed.

What the hell just happened?

To Be Continued...