9 The Fool

Hello guys! Miss me? 

Anyway, from what I read in the comments It does make sense if I leave you guys hanging on what happened to Jessica or the reason why she cheated.

I don't want to overcomplicate things, so I won't make her 'innocent' anyway I'll see what I can do.

(Jessica Pov)

(A/N: Anyone can skip this chapter because you'll hate her more than you should after reading this.)

Blake Robinson, my boyfriend or my temporary wallet, the first time I've met him. I knew he fell hard to me, and it got me amused but I didn't point it out either.

Quickly we became friends, at least he's a fun person to be with despite being plain.

Day after day, we hang out most of the time, because as I said he's fun to be with, but honestly despite he's in love with me, he hasn't flirted ever since they met each other so it was a completely new experience to me.

No other guys treated me like he does, and if I were, to be honest, it was nice...

Months later, I've got used to the feeling of being with him, because he's different from the rest of them, his presence alone is relaxing to me.

And that very day, it was unexpected he confessed to me. It was surprising for the past few months that I knew of him, he never once flirted with me.

Which was a bit surprising for him to confess to me, but aside from that I expected it to happen sooner or later anyway.

Spending months with him, it would be a lie if I didn't feel anything, besides I've been single for a while now and he's decent so it wasn't a problem for me to say yes.

His reaction after I accepted his confession was cute! He's like a puppy.

So we started dating each other, and my days were good. I've never been treated so special by someone like this before, he treats me like a princess and it made my heart flutter a bit but it wasn't enough for me to fall for him.

And just like that months have passed, I've gotten used to how he treats me. It was nice to be someone special and I was ready to fall for him for real.

But...then I met Albert my friends were the reason why the two of us met each other and my first impression of him was hot and a bad boy.

He makes me hot in a certain area, don't get me wrong even though Blake and I were dating, we didn't do anything other than hold hands and kiss.

So we didn't have sex, it's mainly because of me rejecting his attempt once, and he was an understanding person so he let go.

Which makes me glad that he wasn't the type of person that couldn't lust.

So upon meeting Albert. I got to know a few things about him. Aside from being hot and popular, his family was rich.

And because of that, I became interested in him.

(A/N: Gold digger alert!)

Albert started flirting with me because I was the hottest amongst my friends and I'm confident of that.

I didn't reject his flirtations and went along with it, and never told him that I'm already in a relationship.

Little did I know that it would be my biggest regret in the future...

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Weeks after I met Albert I started to hang out with him more than my boyfriend.

I've started an affair with him, to my disappointment Albert's dick was too small for my taste, and his only redeeming point is he's hot and rich.

Also, I'm a bit guilty of doing this behind Blake's back but I'm not sorry because I'm doing this for my future!

With Blake's family finances can't secure my future, but with Albert's rich background my future is set.

I firmly believed that. I honestly did, and at that very moment, I've thought of that. Blake called me.

Both Albert and I just finished having unsatisfying sex, at least for me.

Blake told me to go to the gym, and at this point, I've already decided to dump him and be official with Albert.

So I went to the gym and I saw Blake's surprise.

Ah... right... today was our first anniversary...

It was obvious that Blake spent a lot of my time making this happen, knowing that, my heart felt like it was crushing.

For the first time, I felt guilty for my actions against Blake.

He..he…. genuinely loved me.

I know that he does but...now I realized how much I mean to him. I underestimated his feelings for me.

I suddenly felt nauseous, not for him but for me and my actions.

But it was too late, far too late. These were the consequences of my actions.

After I dumped him, he was shocked like he couldn't believe what he just heard and he fainted.

I've regretted it and this was just the start of it.

Ever Since I've dumped Blake. I haven't seen him since then, but a part of me is glad that I didn't see him.

But mostly I felt terrible.

Now that I'm officially dating Albert, he started showing his true colors to me, he was an abusive person.

He hits me for every little thing that he was dissatisfied with, and from that moment I knew how foolish my decision was.

I've dumped a perfectly good person for...for... this?!

Can I truly enjoy my future with this kind of person? I don't know.

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A few months later, my life completely changed. I've become skinner compared back then.

Every day feels terrible, this isn't the future I have in mind! But it was far too late for me to change anything.

I've made my choices and this was the result I've got.

Now I can say that I regretted it, I've regretted the fact that I let my greed get over me.

I've regretted the fact that I replaced Blake for this animal, my life with him before was filled with happiness and I didn't have to worry about anything.

But right now, everything is dull and painful. However, why? Why am I still clinging to that animal?

Was it because I wanted this to be my punishment for making a terrible life decision? 

Definitely not, maybe? I don't know at this point.

However, today, a person that I've longed to meet appeared right in front of me.

It was Blake. My ex was the only person that made me feel special other than my parents.

My heart skips a beat after seeing him, seeing him again, he looked more confident and I dare to say handsome...

I've never realized it until now. I fell for him. I suddenly felt hopeful of his arrival.

Maybe..maybe we can start over again? 

We- no I could fix things! So that he could accept me, just maybe he'll be my boyfriend again!

But then I realized that it was nothing more than a fantasy, the way he looked at me, is like looking at a stranger.

This hurts more than hating me because hating me means, I meant something from him but no, nothing at all, maybe a little bit of sadness but it quickly disappeared as soon as it appeared.

It hurts..it hurts...it really hurts.

I was foolish to replace him with Albert. It's already too late for me, too late for us to be together.

After he humiliated Albert, he said to me my fears, he no longer has any lingering feelings for me, to him I am nothing more than a stranger, a nobody to his life.

As he left, I went to the comfort room and started crying as hard as I could.

I didn't cry because of sadness, but I cried because I pitied myself for losing such a wonderful person that would do anything to make me happy.

This is my punishment, and this regret won't disappear until the day I die.

(Jessica Pov end-)

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After I left my ex, the only feelings that I felt were relief and relaxation. All of those lingering thoughts that I had from her completely disappeared.

She was nothing to me anymore, she's just a ghost of my past.

I arrived at my room, it's been months since I've seen this place, it's a bit pressuring honestly to get inside but I stepped in and everyone stared at me, surprised that I'm back.

I took a deep breath and smiled at them. "Yo, sup guys you look like you've seen a ghost!"

1 second..2 seconds...3 seconds…

Everyone started to giggle and snicker at my comment.

"Motherfucker! I thought you won't be coming again!"

"You dipshit! You should have at least called once!"

"That's right, one day your contact number just vanished from existence!"

They were my friends, I'm glad that they are still the same. My friends approached me and locked my neck with their arms.

"Well, my apologies but hey I'm back guys!"

"Right, welcome back!"

"Nope, nope you need to treat us you can't just waltz-like that! We were worried about what might happen to you!"

I smiled at them and replied. "Yeah, sure McDonald's after school?"

"Cool, I'm in, that's free food right here!"

"True, can't refuse free food!"

I rolled my eyes and said. "Only because you guys asked besides, your families are financially better than mine!"

"Tsk, tsk spare the details!" 

After a few minutes of talking and laughter, a person that I didn't expect arrived. It was the girl that I met on the bus, Anna Tachibana.

Suddenly everyone went deadly silent. I immediately realized that. Anna didn't seem to mind the silence around the room; she just went to her chair and sat there.

Something must've happened for the class to treat her like this, still, she's a classmate?

I couldn't recall her from months ago, maybe she's a transfer student? Because that would make sense.

"Guys, why are you suddenly silent after she appeared?"

One of my friends looks at me with a serious expression. "Well, it's understandable you don't know her infamous reputation since you've been away from school for months, but I'll tell you she's a dangerous person if I were you. You better avoid her, nothing good happens around her."

Okay, that suddenly got me interested. I looked at her with a thoughtful expression and decided to do the opposite of what my friend said.

"I think I'll talk to her."

Then my friends looked at me like I was crazy.

I went toward her direction and said, "Hello, nice to see you again, never thought we'd be in the same class."

(End-)

Okay, the next chapter is finally the start of their first mission!