A Secret
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After the events of the Holy Spirits I felt slightly mentally exhausted. Having to think of so many possibilities put me not in such a good mood. But I tried to be relaxed for the rest of my birthday and not overthink it. After all, this was my last birthday party in my house perhaps in who knows how long. I might as well appreciate it and think of everything else later. Well, thinking about Erika's kiss relaxed me a bit, as if it was a good luck charm, seeing her eyes also calmed me, and her voice was soothing to me. I wonder if this is also part of being in love, what a mystical feeling.
I suppose Eleanora also calmed me down too, I guess the two of them are all I need to calm my mind and my heart in such times. I will have to talk with Eleanora about this entire thing though, I don't know if Erika would be able to process it. I am not calling her stupid or something, but she would really not know what to say, and I would rather not worry her unnecessarily.