2 2. My Destiny

Clarissa was wide-eyed, her eyeballs almost popped out. His mouth fell open perfectly. So surprised, Clarissa dropped the CV file in her hand, the girl backed away slowly while covering her mouth with both hands. Clarissa's feelings became very erratic, even her heart rhythm was racing fast.

The man was no less surprised, it could be seen from his eyes which were also wide open. The man's hand seemed to be shaking violently.

"Clarissa," said the man very slowly.

Clarissa shook her head weakly, she didn't expect to meet someone she didn't want. In fact, for years Clarissa ran and avoided that person, but now it was fate that brought her back together.

"Clarissa, what's wrong with you," Billy immediately grabbed Clarissa's shoulder, which began to shake.

"N-no, I… I have to go to the toilet first, Ken," Clarissa replied, lying.

The beautiful girl tried hard to contain her feelings, holding back the tears that had been trying to burst out. His vision had been foggy ever since. He had difficulty swallowing his saliva.

"But, Ris, we..." Billy hadn't finished speaking yet, but Clarissa had already left the room. The only thing Clarissa wants right now is to run away from reality.

Clarissa immediately went down to the ground floor, she continued to cover her mouth so as not to make a sobbing sound because she could no longer hold back the tears that flowed freely. Clarissa went into the toilet to calm herself down a bit, she didn't want to be the center of attention of the people in the office.

The girl deliberately lingered in the bathroom. He had no desire to pee. It was just Clarissa excuse, so she could get out of the cursed room. The proof is that Clarissa is currently looking at herself in the mirror. He looked closely at her tear-stained face.

"I feel sorry for you, Ris. You went all the way from Jakarta to Singapore, just to escape from reality, but now what?" Clarissa laughed at herself in between her tears, Clarissa's tears flowed like a river.

"Why? Why should I? Why always me, Lord?" Clarissa shouted, she bit her lower lip so her sobs wouldn't be too loud.

Clarissa closed her eyes, still clearly visible in her mind everything that Clarissa had experienced. With great difficulty, Clarissa tried her best to put together the pieces of her shattered feelings. Clarissa has done everything possible for it. He even went to this lion country just to hide and run from all the bitter memories he experienced in Indonesia. However, his three years of hard work had already been ruined, it was all for naught in an instant.

It's useless for him to run so far if in the end fate still brings him together, there's no point in forcing himself to forget all that if, it's destiny that makes him remember again.

"Aahhh!!" Clarissa screamed, her hands were already clenched. However, there was nothing he could do to vent his anger. Yes, Clarissa is angry, very angry, she does not accept all this. But at whom should Clarissa be angry? Is it to such a cruel fate? Or the reality of life that continues to torment him? Or is it that he is so weak?

"I hate all of this," Clarissa screamed, her fist flying against the wall, just to vent her anger. Clarissa repeatedly hit him, but the wall was still fine. It was precisely his hands that seemed to be bleeding fresh.

The pain in his hand was completely disproportionate to the pain in his heart. Yes, in the last three years, Clarissa has become a person who often hurts herself when she is broken. Clarissa is a person who always looks cheerful and seems to have no problems on the outside, but is broken and messy on the inside.

She covered her face with one hand, gathering all the strength within himself to get up. Clarissa took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly. She no longer cared about her now disheveled appearance.

Clarissa had thought that she would apply for a dispensation at her college to change the place of internship. He really can't bear to continue all this, he will leave this office and will never come back here, he doesn't want to work in the company of someone he hates so much.

Clarissa washes her face, so it doesn't look like she's been crying. After this, he will immediately get out of this annoying place and run again from this cruel reality.

"Ow, it hurts," the girl winced as her hands hit the water. Clarissa waved her hand so it wouldn't hurt too much. Luckily, Clarissa's slanted eyes didn't swell.

Suddenly her phone rang, there was an incoming message that was visible from the front screen of her phone.

Billy :

"Ris, come back. Mr. Johan asked, "

"Where are you? Why did you take so long in the toilet?"

"Ris, please tell me. I'm worried, Lo why really?"

There were three messages at once from , surely the guy was very worried after seeing Clarissa's unusual behavior. But Clarissa didn't care, she just wanted to get out of this office.

Me :

"I don't want to do an internship here, I want to apply for a dispensation to campus and ask to change the internship company,"

Billy :

"Are you crazy? Ris, you know, that throughout the history of the high school campus, it has never received a request from a student who wants to change his internship place. Everything must be done by following what has been determined by the campus, "

Me :

"I will be the first"

Billy :

"Ris, Come on, be rational. Do you want to make it difficult for your thesis later because you are labeled as a student who is cranky and has a cracker mentality, just because you can't accept an internship place that has been determined by the campus?"

Clarissa was stunned when she read the message from Billy. Ah, Billy is right, she will only make things difficult for herself if he is desperate to apply for dispensation. Because the high school campus always teaches students to be realistic and accept everything that has been determined by the campus, it might be called a challenge in itself to train students' mentality. Asking to be changed, it means losing the challenge.

Clarissa grabbed her own hair, she took a deep breath. Really, all of this is tiring. Why did it feel like things were never on her side? Why did it seem as if the hardships kept on compromising to torment him? Home, school, Indonesia, campus, and now the internship, all torture Clarissa.

She hated all of this reality, she hated it so much. But still, again there was nothing Clarissa could do but accept it gracefully. Clarissa canceled her intention to apply for a dispensation on campus, she made up her mind to go through all of this.

"Okay, come on Ris, you can. You can do it, you're here for work, right, so you just don't care, pretend you don't know him and now you're just a CEO and an employee," Clarissa said to herself, she nodded firmly, she was sure that she strong and able to face all of this.

After tidying up her appearance, Clarissa came out of the toilet and returned to Mr. Johan's room.