Two different people

I'm jina . I'm 16 years old .A student and my deepest secret is that l like boy in my class.

His name is yujian . The bad boy type . l don't know why I like him because he is totally opposite of me.

(sigh)just why do I like him ?

I am chubby girl . The person who always being judged by people just because of weight. People think such girls don't have right to love or like someone.

Does he think in the same way??

I don't know about myself that's why I question my self a lot .

I had a depressed childhood , in which I had no friends , exactly no one I can talk about my feelings . My life was going round and round in circles at every end their was always a frustrated girl who end up crying in corner in the midnight .

What I can say life always gives us stages to clear ??

My life turned upside down when my father become ill . He had a vein burst in his brain that lead to his whole left side of the body paralyzed . After fighting for seven months he eventually left us , our whole family was in dazed but in one corner we all were calm because we can't see him suffering further more he showed how strong he was by surviving for seven months.

I used to tell him about my day , jokes and different stories all the time when he was sick at that time he told me you look great when u smile that sentence touched me so hard that I become a girl who love to smile and give others a reason to smile .

I also had courage to give a shoulder to my mother at her weakest point of her life.

Now 2 years have passed . I am a chubby but a Happy girl with a smile . But my life took a different route when I transferred from my last school and entered in a new school, now I had a mission to make new friends .

Eventually because of my positive nature I got a lot of friends soon .My life again taking place happily. But I had eyes on a boy in my class (the one I talked about before) he is a handsome and a bad boy .

Everyone want to make friends with him.