Love him enough

Lowell

I watch them walk by, and my heart stops for a second. I am waiting to see what has happened, and I don't know how I feel.

Ashina has a smile on her face. They are holding hands.

Fucking holding hands.

Something inside me stirs.

My wolf reacts in the most confusing way ever by calling his name out. I don't mean to, but it happens. I am in shock because I knew he was going to calm her down, I knew he would make her feel better--that is just the kind of person he is but I didn't expect this.

He never looks up.

He doesn't notice me or even hears me.

"You think he has accepted her?'' Griffen asks me as if I have a clue.

Beau is the first to ask about whatever this is.

"What is this?'' he asks.

Colin faces him, completely ignoring my presence, and that breaks my heart into shreds.

Her hands are still laced over his, and it makes my skin crawl. It makes me weak, upset, and disappointed. I don't know why I think I have a right to him. He was never mine, to begin with, but I have dreamt of him choosing me.

Of him returning my feelings.

"Ashina is my mate,'' he tells his dad.

"We talked about this son. We said we would wait.''

He nods, "I know, but we don't need to anymore. I know the right thing to do. I know what she means to me now.''

That is bullshit.

"We should go back home, then we would figure it out,'' beau tells him.

"I want her to come with me. She is mine,'' He refuses, shaking his head.

"Son, we talked about this."

Alanis walks over to them and says, "She will come over when it is sorted."

"No.''

Beau glances at me. I see the look in his eyes. He understands how this must make me feel, but he doesn't say anything more than that.

"Okay, we need to leave. Go home, Ash, and then we will be expecting you in a week.''

I watch all three of them, waiting, hoping that something will change. I am hoping that he comes back to his senses. His eyes turn to me slowly. I look into them and I don't feel anything. Nothing but dead eyes.

Something is wrong with him.

My wolf tells me immediately, even though I already feel it. There is something different about him.

"Colin,'' I call his name again. This time, he keeps his eyes on me. Ashina is watching me, with a curious look.

My sister did something to him.

I am so sure about it.

"Yes?'' he asks.

She wants me to break out of character.

She wants me to say something.

"Nothing, goodbye.''

I take a step away from him and the rest of the moonlight pack and my sister because there is nothing I can do right now. I need to figure out what the hell happened. I need to know what has changed from last night and today.

It just doesn't make sense.

******************

The car ride is quiet.

I need to go home. That is where I belong, and with everything that has happened, familiarity will be good.

"You can let go of him now. Focus on the plan," Griffen reminds me.

The plan.

Why am I even doing it again?

"The plan?'' I ask him, confused because I already have a new plan.

That new plan involves Colin.

He raises a brow, almost in disbelief, "The stone. The power we would get. Bringing her back.''

"I don't know anymore.

How I feel now and a couple of weeks ago is completely different. He is suddenly an important part of my life and I don't think I can focus on the stone and any of the things I plan to do with it.

"You are still on about that fucking stone brother?'' Ash asks me with an eye roll.

"Mind your business.''

She scoffs "The power you seek is actually closer than you think. If only you were smart enough to see it.''

I don't know what she is on about right now.

"Do you actually think he would choose you? Do you actually think you are his?''

She laughs, "He can't resist what is fated to him. You should've realized that when you were begging him to stay with you.''

Ashina has known about me and Col from the beginning. I suspected it because of the way she talked about him. She wants him because I can't have him.

"What did you do to him?"

She laughs. "Nothing. All he had to do was touch me. I can't control these things."

The way she is saying this so casually.

The look on her face makes it seem so trivial for her to be saying this.

I have no emotions when it comes to my sister, but for the first time in my life, i feel hatred.

Hatred for her.

She is taking him away from me, and I will not let her win. I will fight until the end.

"You will not win,'' I tell her coldly.

"I have already won brother. Just like I always do.'' she winks and turns away from me and to the road. I frown because all I feel is anger. Anger that I should contain.

Will I ever reach the point where I won't feel angry?

We have to figure things out. We have to find out how to get him back.

My wolf orders me.

This excites me.

The fact that my wolf is as determined as I am.

I don't feel so alone anymore and this hasn't happened in a long time.

I am going with her to the moonlight pack.

I am going to figure out how to bring him out of whatever trance he is in. I will not believe that she has him. I know what he feels, I know what I feel, and there is nothing remotely wrong with it.

I will love him enough to bring him back to me.