Chapter Thirty-Four Confused about my Feelings

Ashina

It was during this trip that Cadma and Andor traveled to the Sahara Desert during this trip. Margaret had me exercise while practicing magic, which was supposed to help me focus while moving. I really appreciate the lessons; I never entertained thoughts that I would ever lose with the war coming up. I just kept those thoughts buried while I would have preferred my parents were by my side. I am scared to death of what is taking place in my Kingdom, and I wish I were always by my parents' side.

Sometimes I find it overwhelming to think about the war I am about to lead my wolves and allies into. It breaks my heart to think about how many of them will not be able to return home to their families, friends, and packs when the war ends.

In my running, I headed for the mountains, away from the Forest since I needed to let out the fear and anger I had inside of me due to Malcom's actions.

I have not had time to sit down with Rector and ask him if he plans to stay here or if he and his mate are coming along together to fight. It is sometimes difficult to be separated from someone you love after a new mate bond has been formed.

Even though I admit that Hercules the fabled Demi-God probably won't have been as well built as Andor, I dislike sitting down with him all the time, because he is always up to something, and my hormones are out of control around him constantly.

I always thought Cadma was the sexiest man alive, tall, slim muscular legs that work their way up to a chiseled chest. Despite the long and girthy legs and the girthy body that he possessed, when he walked naked in front of all the pining, she-wolves today, I did not get compelled to be sexually attracted to him at all, not the way I had been before I met him.

As I hear Kiera purring, "Don't forget, Andors's length was twice as long as Cadma's. We never did get to try it." I scoff, thinking about my horny wolf. Honestly, I must admit that I have been daydreaming about Andor pounding his length inside of me. I arch my back and moan out of ecstasy. I have issues with that daydream.

Watching the mountain, I mentally pick up some rocks and, in my mind, I see them explode. A BAM like a bomb had hit the air; the boulders had exploded. I kept my thoughts on Marcus and continued throwing boulders into the air watching them explode.

My mind wandered to Andor. I thought back to the night I looked at his di** wishing I had touched it, massaged it, even licked it.

Kiera continues to play pictures in my head causing me to sweat. If any males were around, it would have been awkward as they would have smelled my arousal. That would have been extremely embarrassing. "Kiera! Stop it!"

Kiera smirks, "Why? You know you like it? Don't you want him on top of us, no clothes, sweaty and pounding into us?"

Growling, I yell at her, "STOP! I need to practice!"

"Pfft! We will end up virgin old maids!" After spewing those words Kiera hid in the back of my mind pouting away.

In the dungeons, I remembered the female rogue who abandoned us. I decided to practice interrogating her using magic.

As tomorrow is my birthday, I wanted to take the men that Andor promised me and leave. However, Margaret said that the Moon Goddess had entrusted her with my magical education, so I needed to wait and be prepared. Fighting Malcom was one thing, fighting demons and trying to kill them is another, since they are already dead and from the pits of Tartarus.

Since I have been away for a while now, I am worried about my troops that have set up in many places throughout my kingdom. Every army requires a strong leader nearby, so I feel bad about not returning any time soon.

In the meantime, I'll send Cadma to check on the troops and let them know I'll return in a few weeks.

Having mixed feelings about Cadma, my heart feels confused. He smells like home, and he feels safe. Would we still be together if he had not cheated on me? He is so easy going, and he isn't as moody as King Andor is. As I look at him with his playful eyes, I visualize his funny smirk.

"Ashina! That lizard is not my mate! I would rather kill him than mate with him!"

"Whatever, you used to think he was sexy!" I laugh.

"Honestly, Ashina, when did I ever think of such a thing? If I had, I would have realized my mistake once I saw my (possible mate)."

In a fit of laughter, I said, "You act as if liking dragons was a bad addiction and you broke it, understanding the error of your ways.".

Again, my wolf sulks within the confines of my mind, huffing.

While I was deeply in thought, Cadma sneaked up behind me and put his arms around my waist, hugging me with his cheeks slouched next to mine. I jumped and turned around about ready to send a flying kick into his head when I realized it was Cadma and stopped midair.

He gave his famous smirk and laughed. "Never thought my hugs would cause such a physical reaction." Cadma laughed.

Cadma kissed me without warning; I was stunned at first, then pushed Cadma hard against a tree. I screamed, "HOW DARE HE does that?"

Once I had calmed down, I still glared at Cadma and had noticed his eyes were sad for a moment, but that instantly faded away while his famous Cadma grin returned.

As Cadma and I heard a growl, we turned to see an incredibly angry black Alpha wolf bare his white teeth as he prepared to attack Cadma.