Corona virus

Were are up to date on my life as the second semester of my junior year is being at home not allowed to leave. To kill some time I decided to start writing a fiction book and keeping up with my homework. Me and my boyfriend are still together. I haven't seen my friends in a very long time and I'm still getting bullied but instead of seeing it all over the bathroom stalls it's cyber bullying which for me I've dealt with before. They tell me to kill my self and that every one will be happy when if i leave this world. It still hurts but I pretend it doesn't. I don't want whoever is bullying me to find satisfaction in hurting my feelings this bullying has been going on for almost 7 months which for me is pretty long since I usually know who is bullying me and then it's stopped. I've been having trouble sleeping for some reason I have been falling asleep at 5-7am and waking up around 2-3 I tried to regulate my sleep schedule back to normal so I stayed up all night so I can fall sleep at a decent time but that didn't work. My friends tell me I'm probably not sleeping well because of the amount of stress I feel towards my online classes or because I have to much time and thinking about the whole bullying synch and how that might be affecting me mentally. From my experience over the past few years of my life we shouldn't try to bring each other down and to bring each other's spirits up. I know a lot of people who don't like me because I talk to much or because for one of the most stupidest reasons is that I'm to happy. I always see the positive side of things because I've been through a lot of things. I've been bullied. I've been told I need to be tested for cancer along with being told I don't have cancer now but I have a higher possibility of getting it when I'm in my 20's. Hearing all of these things growing up is really hard for a 17 year old or for any age of that matter. Two of my favorite quotes that have a meaning to me through these time is "Work to Become, Not to Acquire" stated by Elbert Hubbard and "Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows." Stated by Helen Keller the first quote helped me remember that I'm working to become what I want to be and to not acquire other people's expectations. The Helen Keller quote has been my favorite quote since I was in 3rd grade, along with many of her quotes. It helped me through all of the times that I've been bullied as to show me that there will be darkness throughout our lives but it is are choice if we want to pay attention to that darkness or to look towards the light. I will be taking a small break from writing in this book but I will write a chapter each month on the 14th so I could have something to write about. But please think about the impact of what bullying can do to people and how it can affect their life. Not only can it hurt someone of my age but it can hurt anyone of any age group. Think of the two quotes that I shared and remember if you are being bullied look towards the light instead of the darkness in your life. Also take note if you are bullying someone just think about if you would want to be responsible for someone's death if you tell them to do that or just causing other people pain. You shouldn't judge someone for just what you know about them because they could be going through things that you don't even know about. For me only a rare amount of people know about the possibility of me getting cancer. I don't want to be treated differently just because of some hardships that I will have to fight through. Just be mindful about what your actions are to other people.

Next chapter will be posted next month!