9 Cyber bullying

Well it's been a month since the last time I wrote in this book. I've been getting cyber bullied since of quarantine. You know getting called the basic names Whore, slut, retard, and the most common sayings of them telling me to kill myself. You would think that the bullying would stop with time but it doesn't. It just takes new forms I won't let them know it hurts. I've been trying to keep up in my studies but that is starting to gain into a challenge since all of the work each teacher assigns.

Everyday I don't go to bed till 4/5 am just to finish my homework for that day just to do it again the next. It's just a waiting game to see who cracks over the pressure. Not being able to leave your house and have to listen to everything that has been said about you. You can't stop it now days you can only listen. I try every day not to listen I focus on the good things in life my friends, family, and my boyfriend. My boyfriend usually tells me to send the person trying yo bully memes as a way to show that it doesn't affect me.

Maybe one day it will. If I didn't have the people I had today in my life I probably wouldn't have been here. When I was growing my friends stopped me from doing horrible mistakes. If they didn't stop me I would be in another place. I'm thankful for everybody in my life even my bullies. I know that's horrible to say for most but without them I wouldn't the person I am today.

I know reading about someone's life is boring and along that I had a boring start in my life. But this is more of a message to help others spread a message of bullying. It's like the aftermath that most people don't see till it's to late. You just have to keep a close eye towards the people you love.

If you truly love your family and friends just let them know how you feel. This could prevent a lot of things, such as suicide or depression. For me my friends kept me from committing suicide I will never think this way again since I have people nowadays that show me love which I didn't get when I was younger. Do the things you love like go to college even if you have difficulties along the way.

I will go to college with my friends and family to care for me. Even though my mom doubts my ideas of what i want to study I know I will get through it. What you study will show the world who you are and will turn down what other people use to think about you. Like how that one girl who is being called a slut thought since she is already since in that way she should just act like it. Or how that person you bullied for their looks had a traumatic experience when they were younger which made them look like that. The history behind our differences define who we are as an individual.

—Next chapter on the 14th of June—