The half hidden part of the past 3

He watched her from afar even though they were in the same school, she avoided him anytime their paths crossed.

Three years passed and their relationship was getting worse, they were strangers who happens to be living in the same house yet he continued to watch her, he was pained every time she was smiling with others and not him, she was smiling without him and she doesn't even spare him a glance, he wanted to fix it whatever was broken he wanted to fix it, he needed her attention even though the approach wasn't right,

At 13 he started to bully her a little just to get her to look at him and get angry and start talking and maybe yell, this silence treatment with no emotion was killing him, even if she hates him he will remember him, right now she was living like he never existed but even with all the bully she never looked at him nor talk she would always walk away

But one day she stared at him with a look that could kill and he couldn't stop smiling and being happy but maybe he got too happy because his last mistake sent him abroad.

He watched from afar how the imprint of that night of kidnap on the girl, she hated it, her tears burned him every time she saw her hate that imprint.

"Maybe if I get rid of that imprint, she would forgive me. Let me turn tears into tears of joy and pain into beauty, I want my friend back " he thought

So he decided to use the two favorite things of her mom with beautiful meaning and memories. In other to do that she needed the girl to be in deep sleep maybe it could be a surprise so he added sleeping pills to the girls drink but it was too much although he got rid of the imprints he send her to the hospital for the second time, she almost died

His father got angry and decided maybe he had have enough so he sent him abroad to stay with his maid abroad before he left he went to see the girl , the girl expressed her hatred for him and he apologized for being a curse in her life too just like he was in his mom's life

The maids elder son became ill so she was not regular at home and that didn't help, he thought anyone who comes around him gets issues, the walls started closing in on him,

He would constantly remember the happy moments with his family and his angel and how he ruined it with his own actions. He missed his parents and brother and his angel

"These four lonely walls of life have changed me and the way I feel, what I was, what I have become and what I wanted to be. Nothing else matters when mom, dad, brother and the girl I love are not here. Where are you guys, where are you that I can't find you in this four walls, I can't find you, do you hear me calling, I have been calling, I am calling you. I miss you so much, I am missing you, where are you? Please let me find you. Where should I find you, where haven't I looked, where should i look, should i chase you but would you allow me to, do you even think, remember or miss me or have my memories turned to dust, please don't bury me in your heart, memories ,Dreams and life" Rìans words as he walked outside and on that day he met Aileen