It is hard to forgive and forget

Chapter 15.

The emperor woke up in the empress arms and when his eyes met hers he smiled and asked if he was dreaming, the empress told him that he wasn't and if it was she hoped it was a happy one because she needs her children father to be happy for them.

{Emperor} What about you my wife would you be happy if I am happy and can I wake up in your arms every morning? I made so much mistakes and hurt you and my children and I don't deserve your forgiveness or your love but I miss you and I want to be by your side again.

{Empress} you are my children father and no matter what you have done or will do in the future would ever change that and as your empress I will be by your side but I can never forgive you because I can never forgot the betrayal but I would not want you to be unhappy because that is not good for your children or your kingdom.

{Emperor} Aubrey my wife I love and I want to be with you by your side not only in the court or ball rooms but in your bed. I know it will take time for us to get back close but this is the first time in a long time that I have had a good night sleep and this was only because of laying next to the woman I love.

{Empress} Jordan you are the emperor and you were the love of my life for so long and the only reason you weren't in my bed or by my side is because you choose another wife to be by your side and now that she isn't working out you and reaching back to pick up what you throw out. I don't love you anymore and I have a lover that wants to be by my side now he was her when you were with your saint lover. My heart broke completely when you choose her over me but I will do anything to make you comfortable and have good night so you can have a good day.

The emperor started crying but the empress held him close and told him that it is time to get up and get ready she wanted him to have breakfast with the children. The emperor get up and allowed the empress to help him get ready and he just looked at her and smile and to himself thought that no matter what he will win her heart back because with her is where he needs to be.

The breakfast went well with the kids and the emperor felt like how he did with his loving family before he messed everything up with the saint. He told the empress that they should have dinner every night so that they can make up for last time, the empress stated that she will do her best but it might not be possible every night but she would do her best.

The emperor knew it will be work to make his family whole and he is willing to do the work and forever how long it takes, this went on for weeks where the emperor did is best to spend all his free time with the empress or the both her and their children unfortunately with her two lovers and Emperor Kyle it wasn't easy and he tried to keep his cool knowing that the two dukes were is cousins and they should now better. The only good thing is that she have not yet have sex with either of them.

The emperor planned romanic lunch picnic with the empress and they would talk about their past and how much in love they were back then and that his hopes is that they can get back to that.

{Emperor} Aubrey I always love you and even though I make such a big mistake I never not loved you in that moment as well I just fell in lust with the saint and lost myself for a moment but I was given a second chance with you and my family and I do not want to pass it up I will spend the rest of my life making it up with you I only ask that you allow me to.

{Empress} Jordan I loved you with everything in me and I tried to understand that I would have to share your love with the saint even though each time I though about it or saw you will are I remembered that you promise me that it would only be us and then you blind sighted me with pushing me to the side and replacing me with the saint and it was all about you new love and you was so disrespectful about it that made my life way worst.

Jordan I see that you are doing your best but I can forgive or forget I can't even try because all I can see when I close my eyes is you and her kissing and being lovers, she is in my husband bed making love with the only man I ever loved and I remain in my cold bed crying each night and when I sleep I have nightmares of me dying and you and her laughing standing over my body calling me a fool.

The empress broke down crying and the emperor hear the pain in her voice and could see it in her face and he walked over to her and held her and they both cried together and after a while the emperor told the empress that he will hate himself for hurting her so badly and he will live with that regret for the rest of his life.

That night the empress allowed the emperor in her bed and they made love it was passionate but filled with tears and heartache with the emperor repeatedly saying "I love you and I am sorry I will never be with another woman again and you will return as my only lover"

After their passionate moments the emperor watched the empress fall asleep with tears running down her cheek and he notice that even though he repeatedly told her he love her not once did she say she loved him back. It was hard for him not to hear her say it back but the fact that they were intimate with each other he is a step closer.