CH26: I've got 99 problems, plus another one about love

"Sincerely, I can never see the purpose of life is death. Death is what will happens even if we do not want to, some shorter than others, but if I need to say a purpose in life for you..." I tell Lazuli, spitting words from deep within me.

"The purpose of life is probably the endless chase after the feeling of 'living'. It's like every feeling means you're living. Like any time you feel your blood rush in your body, your heart beat harder or deeper, or your mind start running, that's only for the living" I talk to Lazuli without thinking, just speaking, but then take a short *breath*.

"...So, I don't think killing others will fulfill any purpose, for anyone, but rather take them away from what they truly seek" I tell me conclusion of all of what I think is in her.

"That's a lot of nonsense" she says pouting, but she shows she listened to me attentively, "tell me something real, what's a real purpose?".

"A baby. Your baby, hopefully our?Baby. A beautiful daughter who looks like you. or , or , maybe a hobby, like painting, singing, writing, gardening, martial arts, technology, or , even psychology, learning about the weather, sailing the seas, animals, trees, WOW, there's too much to do in life" I finally finish speaking, after I drowned in my own dreams.

It seems sharing my feelings, exposing my emotions, take an effect on her, and her beautiful turquoise eyes turns dreamy.

After few quiet moments, she wake herself up, again to full tsundere mode, saying "okay, whatever. Can I go now?".

I almost give up, but decide to give it one last shot.

"Please, 1 date, before you escape from my life. I want you in my future" I ask her with a saddened face.

"OKAY, OKAY, 1 DATE, THAT'S IT, NOW, CAN I GO??" she continue the act, but her words show agreement.

I happily nod 'yes', but then stop and tell her all that happened, and while at it she tell me all about her adventure before being eaten alive, and in the end she asks "so what about my brother? he's alive now?", and I tell her "Yeah, pretty sure, number 17, right? Cause they talked about it", and she smiles.

"Mmm, I kinda forgot ... I'm not from this Earth ... so ... how and when can we go on our date? I need to prepare if I wish to win my 2nd date" I ask her.

Lazuli almost look shy, turning her head aside, and says "I'll be on earth, let's go down and get 2 phones, then we can talk when you come back, and, umm, in 3 days. Yes. 3 days" she says, and I smile, like I just won the lottery biggest prize.

We stand and plan to jump down, when suddenly Mr. Popo come over to us, handing us 2 phones, saying "I registered the numbers, no worries, now let's go back before your father start bothering me".

I say "thanks! sorry for the inconvenience. Please give me 1 minute with Lazuli before we go", and he nod 'yes', leaving us alone and waiting a bit afar.

I look in her eyes, saying "I wish you well, I'll miss you for whole 3 days", and hug her.

She fight to escape, but I just let her hit me, whispering "worth the pain", and she giggle a bit, but continue hitting me.

I kiss her cheek, leave her, jumping back, and saying "see ya soon, Lazuli-chan".

'Infi, can I teleport from here home? to Paradise?' I wonder.

<It is possible, but it might reach your father, who you keep secrets from>.

'Damn, Infi, you're so smart' I think.

<It is correct, especially if we use you as a comparison>.

'ahh, you really know how to give a punch' I laugh to myself.

On the carpet, arriving to the tower where the space-tunnel is, Mr. Popo look at me, says "goodbye", and push me inside, and like that, I *slam*, fall down on my ass, near a tower, in the middle of nowhere.

'no father here, huh, that was a wasted trip, plus a hit on the ass', and *teleport* to Paradise.

-

Arriving to Paradise, my island kingdom, I can barely recognize it from outside by the beginning look. The deck is like a Marina. The base-camp is like a small army camp. The roads are wide and strong, and there's some vehicles, driving on the road who circle the forest, with a road way leading inside.

Walking inside, who barely changed, as we wish to protect the nature inside, we did agreed on one big change, and that is to dig into the island, creating an artificial river from sea water.

The river, who flow to a beautiful lake, surrounded by stone walkway, green grass, and with small gaps every few steps on the walkway there's pergolas, short pagodas, and lots of benches.

I stand in a daze, when suddenly I hear "HELLLLLO".

Looking at the grass field near me, close to the lake, under a shade of a tree, I see Alison smiles at me, sitting with open arms.

"She looks like a flower-princess" I think aloud, and she burst laughing, "hahahaha, you forgot how to think in your head?", but I reply "no comment", narrow my eyes, and pout cutely.

Alison, in a white-cream simple-dress, a simple golden crown on her platinum blond curly long hair, and wearing a white blanket like it's a cape, with a guitar on her lap, is more beautiful than the lake, that I almost forgot about it.

I lie down on the grass, my head close to her lap, and says "ahh, there's no place like home".

She smile at me, pouting "not every one home is a tropical island filled with your wildest dreams", but I just nod 'no', and say "home is home, because your loved ones are there".

She looks happy, but quickly switch to sadness, so I roll over, with my head near her hip, and circle my hands around her, saying "I love your smile, your happy smile, why're you suddenly making a sad face?".

"Its...", she mumble a bit, turn shy, before continuing.

"it's, it's not my house. I wanna this kinda house, playing with Roo all day" she say cutely.

"Haha, our first citizen is really a great contribution to our kingdom" I remember Roo, saying "such a cute baby, like a panda, a kangaroo, and a squirrel made on orgy, and Roo was born!", and she laugh, while punching me, spitting "Don't be a jerk!", and add "Roo is the best!".

I roll away from her, escaping her soft-sweet-punches, but then roll back to her, at full speed, tackling her, and she also fall on the grass.

"Ayn, can I come visit again?" Alison asks as she roll herself like a sushi, inside the blanket, rolling on the grass.

"I wanna say lots of bullshit jokes, but I'll go sincere here, please visit a lot, better yet, you can move here? rent is .. hmm .. a smile a day please? laugh, ohh, I love your laugh the most!" I tell Alison with a sincere smile.

"bahh, womanizer ... Big bad dragon! HAHA! ... I heard your nickname, Robin and Mia told me everything" She act like she's won, but I think 'no no no, why you're happy, I'm the one who won! you're happy smile is like a drug to my soul'.

I roll at her, and then keep rolling over her body, like a stupid boy, who's goona pull her pony-tail in the next second.

"He's really a big bad dragon" I suddenly hear Mia, sitting with her back to the tree-trunk next to us, and I'm surprised how distracted I was to not notice her.

I roll at her full speed, hit her body, but she just hug me in, and kiss my cheek, while I say "Queen Mia! I missed you so much, like crazy-too-much! you owe me 2-years-long-hug, starting now!", and add "Including you, Miss TsundeRobin. A Man is starving for a hug here, AND YOU JUST WATCH HIM DYING?!".

I hear Robin laugh from behind the tree, who then free-fall down on my body, going 'banzai', and hug me while rubbing her cheek on my cheek.

Alison, probably thinking she's left out, suddenly joins us, as she roll into me, so now I'm with Mia who sit-hugging me from my right, Robin on top, and Alison from the left.

"I.. I missed you so much, being all this time alone, till you hugged me, I didn't know how much it broke me down" I whisper, almost crying, while Alison giggle "2 days apart and he comes crying, haha", but I feel Robin and Mia tight hug, knowing how hard those 2 years were on me.

"WAIT. AREN'T YOU ... WEIRD! Taller?? Was your hair so long?? and your chin kinda childish, not mature??" Alison explode in surprise, but now Robin and Mia starts laughing, bullshiting her "Oh, Alison, Did you just fell in love with him or something?", and "did you just noticed? how did you know he's 'Ninja Boy' at the mall?", and that makes her shut up shyly.

I turn my head and kiss Alison on the cheek, but she react weirdly, so I take my tongue out and kiss her on the cheek again while licking her like a dog, making her wet, plus shocked, mad, laugh, and in the end of the train of emotions angry, seeking revenge, biting my cheek.

"ahh , ouchouch ouch, you won, sorry, flower-princess, I won't do it again" I say, and whisper, not quietly, "in the next 3 minutes".

Alison, who of course hears me, start pinching me.

We all laugh, relax a bit, and I ask "Have you been in the 'house' with Alison?", making Alison look weirdly at me, but Robin and Mia gets me, saying "no", and "You gotta put the ladder down, it's safe now".

I nod, saying "yeah, let's have dinner there, it's sunset soon! come there in 30 minutes, I'll prepare everything!".

I run a bit into the forest, till I'm out of sight, and *teleport*.

In the tree house, I think about creating a wooden stair-case out of branches, spiraling from up to down, but thinking again, I decide to build an elevator instead. *Teleport*.

I'm behind a huge hard-ware store, running inside with a huge shopping cart, finding an elevator engines, ropes, and lots of other materials and equipment, and even fill 1 more shopping cart with other stuff, pay with cash quickly, go out to a hidden corner, shove all to space, and *teleport*.

Back at the tree-house, I start drilling the engine to a sturdy branch, next to the entrance deck, connect a rope from the engine to a simple wood boat I had in storage, putting the button on it, and press it to let it down, while calibrating the rope's length.

Once all done, I quickly go to pull food and drinks on a table in the largest balcony on top, and finally relax.

*Clang,clang,clang,clang, ...*, the elevator engine make noise as it roll up, till it arrive on the deck-entrance of the tree-house door.

*Click*, the main-door opens, and *step,step,step,...* I hear them coming, but only Mia arrives to me, while shouts of "WOW!", "AWESOME!", comes from the house, guessing Robin takes Alison for a tour.

Mia jump for a kiss, a deep loving kiss, and I hug her like the big bad dragon I am, till I 'see' them coming toward us, sharing it with Mia, who let go, and sit next to me like nothing happened.

"YOU.. YOU.." Alison exhale, but never ending the sentence.

We laugh at her, and she sits down next to me, pouting, and next to her Robin sit-down, also pouting, as Alison stole her seat next to me, making me continue laughing.

Mia pour wine in glasses, and we *cling* our glasses, facing the sunset.

-

2 hours later, after short session with Robin and Mia in between, they both gave me a confirmation nod, saying it's okay if Alison will join their sisterhood.

We all finish bathing, ready to sleep, in pajamas, and I'm now with Alison and Roo on a balcony, lying on a bed, as they let us have some time together, since she will leave tomorrow morning.

We lie-down face to face, with Roo between us, playing with my face like it's a hair-ball, reminding me I still haven't shaved my beard, but luckily I'm young and it didn't grow to a forest like old people, in those 2 years.

"You... have a relationship with Robin and Mia, right?" Alison asks me with her beautiful plump lips and green-lake eyes.

I start opening my feeling for her, like I did with Lazuli, also opening her to me, as a river of emotions flow between us, and I can now feel it.

wonder, happiness, love, disgust, commitment, resentment, love, dislike, and so much more, living all together in the turmoils of her continuing emotional storm.

"I do. For a year now. We actually know each other since I can remember, so those emotions are smitten to me deeply to my soul. I... I also have another relationship, but far away, and they can't come here for now... and Robin and Mia know anything and everything, as they all do" I open up to her.

"... sincerity is the base of our relations, I presume... and... and the fact we, me and you, are here, is after their blessing, accepting you to their sisterhood? haha, I guess they saw what you mean to me, maybe they see how you make me feel, and probably they're also like you that much?" I gently smile at her, watching the waves of her never-ending emotions flow to me, hit my heart, and once again flow back to her.

She smile, but it's filled with lots of uncertainty. It pains me, as feeling other people feelings can cause you to feel the same way, even if you got no reason to.

She finally open her mouth to speak "I also... but I'm just after a bad one... another... crash and burn, but I hate the scars they leave" she quietly keep talking while trying to organize her thoughts, while a smile appear again, but with more certainty, yet her words says "I don't think I need a Peter Pen, I need a lover, a husband".

"Hmm. First, I can love, and I love, a lot, what Peter can't" I answer to Alison.

"Seconddd, I can leave wonderland! plus we can always return, with whoever we wanna, to live here. Wonderland is just 1 hour with a boat" I keep pitching my 'I'm not peter-pan' quotes.

"Thirdllllly, I'm not a murderer psychopath who murder lost-boys?" I tell her, and she laugh.

"Big Bad Dragon" she whispers.

"Flower Princess" I whisper back.

"Womanizer" she reply.

"Fallen angel" I respond.

"Too Good To Be True always mean it isn't true" she presume.

"Doubts kills more Dreams than failures ever will" I counter-attack.

"Who said that?!" she asks.

"Suzy Kaseem, american poet, maybe ask her to write a song for you" I answer.

"Idiot" she calls me.

"" Alice, if you knew time as well as I do, you wouldn't talk about wasting it "" I quote a book to her.

""You've gone mad, entirely bonkers, but I'll tell you a secret, all the best people are"" she quote me a compliment, and I close my eyes, and kiss her, half cheek half lips.

"Idiot" she mumble again, punching me, but her hand stay on my chest, and Roo already escaped from the latest exchange we had, making the space between us empty.

Like a black-hole, we close the gap between us, as we quietly wiggle toward each other, slowly, till our body touch each other, like two sides of a magnet, wishing to find the balance in the emotions we're having right now, wanting to stick together and never separate again, as our bodies finally meet.

I whisper to her "You... are a terribly real thing... in a terribly false world... and that, I believe, why you're in so much pain...", and end it with sticking my nose into her's, not moving, not letting go, but also not pushing forward.

She move her lips a bit closer, and I move my lips to touch her's.

She close her eyes, and I as well.

She move her mouth, I move my mouth.

Her mouth opens, and so is mine.

A tongue clash with a tongue.

The same liquid who can be called spit, seemingly disgusting, is for a couple the love nectar, who we exchange between our entangled commitment, for the seed of love who can sprout from it.

My mind drown in the artistic world of hers, making my thoughts wonder, as we keep kissing.

'A first kiss is like an unforeseen occurrence, always, no matter how ready you are, like a wake-up call from cupid, like the plant in the garden you saw just yesterday, but now has a flower on top of it, showing you his real color'.

'Why? because it's so unnatural, yet it became humanity basic for love and affection, that kiss, that unneeded meeting between 2 human mouth, has became to us a symphony for exchanging feelings, bringing to reality how a useless act is the most useful action to pronounce the depth of our heart's thoughts to each other'.

Our kiss feels as hard as a sunday morning.

Our hands travel through wonderland, a wonderful adventure, exploring the urge and desire in human anatomy.

Her lovely breast is the smallest I ever touched, yet feels so right. She is the epitome of 'the golden ratio', that elusive natural number, that even Euclid couldn't discover, that 90 60 90 perfection.

She feel my erection, as evident by her finger sliding up and down my shaft through the pants.

My hands grasp her ass cheeks, separating them apart, letting what's inside breath the air outside.

I wanna go all the way, but more than that I want to advance this relation for more than just a fling moment, so I stop my act, and open my eyes.

"Alice, I'm ... a big bad loving dragon, and I, I want more than a moment, so before my feelings I have for you sink to the depth of my heart, can you tell me it's the same for you? there's a tomorrow in this?" I ask her, feeling like a coward, a honest coward, but also a one who prefer a future over a hit-and-run, cause love never heals, it just turn to scars.

"I ... don't know. It's, so Hippocratic, you having several wives, and I have 1 husband... my mind can't accept that it's more than a 1-time-thing" she tell me quietly, with a momentary happiness who confront the sadness of 'normality'.

I just hug her.

Hug her really tight into my chest, Give her a kiss on her forehead, and Quietly whisper-singing to her:

'"Some say love is a choice, not an emotion;

that love is an act, not just a feel;

Love is something you do, not a thing that happens;

it's a choice you make daily, a choice to keep it real ... "'.