About the Reduced amount of chapters!!

So! As you know I started writing another novel... But that's not what it's really about. I love writing, well, I always wanted to write, just I didn't realize it myself. When I started this novel, I realized how much I loved doing this. I didn't even realize when three months passed with me writing.

I wanted to give my all to this one novel before moving to another, but something changed a few days ago.

On 4th of Feb. I got scammed. I wanted to buy a ps5 and I saw one available, not on the big sites and it seemed genuine enough and I dropped all my savings(money my father gave me to buy ps5) into it.

Turned out to be a fraud, hated it for every moment (I even wrote Nina's chapter that day?) It was almost karmic, what I felt that day was probably the same as what Tatsuya felt. (Just his was much worse - but still!!! Felt like the end of the world!! Flushing all that money down the drain??!!)

The good thing about writing a novel was that I got some money - 30 to 60$ (Last month was 60, this month around 30-40) It wasn't as much about the money as much it was about the fact that since I earned 60$ I could spend 600$ of my father's money without any guilt!!

But I didn't spend it!! I FLUSHED IT DOWN THE DRAIN!!! Now I'm wrecked with guilt and dread of when they find out.

I bought myself time by saying that it would take ten days for delivery, and there is a msg from the site that I will get my refund in 5-7 working days. But, I don't believe them for a moment. I am just overwhelmed with this feeling that I wouldn't even be able to show my family my face when they learn of this.

My father might shout, might get angry, but I know he'd be worried about how am I feeling getting scammed? (That's worse them him outright throwing me out of the house!! Maybe?)

My mother won't let me hear the last of it....like ever!!! It would be like giving her the right to every decision in my life (OHHH THE PANDORA'S BOX WILL OPEN!!! ALL HELL MIGHT GO LOOSE!!)

My sister would never stop thinking of me as a kid (Which she already does! and here I thought I made some progress in taking some responsibilities - like taking care of myself!!)

In short, my whole life would be a mess.

So, I was hoping to put more chapters on patre0n - I just wrote five chapters for HarryPotter, yesterday. (Turned out really well too...this guilt is driving me) Want to make sure by the end of the month both novels have more than 40 chapters more on partre0n than on webnovel in the wild hope that next month my monthly balance multiples by 10 times? (Too much to ask? Probably) Getting just half the money that I flushed down the drain in one month would be good. I'd be able to show my face to my father again. (and well - everyone else in the family)

So, my apologies! My priority was writing the best novel I could and learn from my mistake to write a better one. At the same time give the best experience I can to the readers of my story.

But, my priorities have changed. Now it's writing the best novel I could - learn from it - and get enough money that I could show my face to my family again.

If you really read all this! Then thank you and I'm so sorry.

It feels so good to finally say all this!!!