Hate
I had been sleeping for the last two days. I couldn't bear to wake up and be still stuck. Alex had left me for so long that I lost count of the days. I would accept him erasing my memories if it meant I would be free of these Chains. No matter what I agreed to he obviously wasn't going to let me go. I decided it the day after he left that I had to agree or I would be chained to this bed forever.
I should've just agreed to it. Because he made it very clear multiple times that he would not let me go. I was the woman he wanted and if I ever threatened to leave him he would tie me to his bed. So now here I was stuck and lonely. So as soon as he walked In and nudged me awake my heart jumped for joy. "Hello beautiful. Did you miss me?" Alex whispered causing me to shake my head frantically.
"I want to do it. I want to erase the memories. I'm lonely." I whispered because my throat hurt since I hadn't had water at all and I stopped begging after the 4th day so I hadn't used my voice in along time. "Okay sweetheart I'll go get the counsel members. You're sure about that right?" He asked causing me to cry.
"I'm sure. I just want everything to go back to normal. It will go back to normal right?" I whimpered from the pain that talking was causing me. "Of course it will. It will all be back to normal. I promise." Alex softly said making me hopeful. I could pretend that everything was normal if I didn't remember.
"I'll be right back. I have to get the board members so we can do it." Alex said as he walked away. It would be fine. Once my memories were gone I could be happy again. I would finally be free. I missed my old life.
As soon as more and more board members came in my mind started to go into overdrive. It was fine. I kept telling myself. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't think. I would've speak no matter what . I could feel the doubt creeping in me but if I don't speak it won't matter.
As soon as The Goddess of memory loss came forward everything went bad instantly. "No." I screamed out involuntary. "No." Alex asked with a raised eyebrow. "I don't want to lose my memories. You can't just do this. You all see how he's treating me. You can't seriously allow this torture." I cried out as I cried inwardly.
Everyone was wide eyes. "I'm not torturing you baby. The law allows me to marry any bride of my choose and that bride will be with me for an eternity. Would you like to see it?" Alex said making my heart hurt. Why was this happening.
"I don't want to see it. I'm not your property. I only said yes so the board can come. You can't let him do this. I haven't drank or ate in weeks. I'm dirty and he's probably out there with every Goddess while I'm in here." I screamed as my soul broke.
"I really thought I would be taking you out to make up for everything but it seems like you aren't ready to leave my bed. Maybe a few more days." Alex said causing the tears to fall. I started to sob. Why was this happening to me. I just wanted to be happy.
"I will never be ready. I hate you. I hate you. You made love to Sasha in my bed and you think you can just erase it. Well guess what when I get free I'll make love to the first willing God. We are done. We are through." I sobbed.
"Just let me go please. There are so many Goddess who want you. I don't. I hate you. Hate you. You are horrible and I know the truth about you. You aren't one percent Good. It's all a lie." I yelled out causing him to go stiff. I really hurt his feelings.
"Okay I guess I wasted everyone's time today. Well I hope you feel better the next time I come." Alex said as he went to leave. Panic hit me. "Wait you can't leave me like this. It's torture. You have to let me go. Please someone help me. Help me." I screamed as I watched all hope walk out the door. I can't stay like this anymore. Why would they do this too me.