I don’t know

I ran and I ran and I ran with tears streaming down my face. I just couldn't understand why people would be so mean. What did I ever do to deserve al this? I blacked out for a while I guess because before I knew it I was in one of the bathroon stalls puking up what little I had to eat the last few days.

Ignorant child. I told you. I told you not to eat that granola bar. I am always there for you. I always look out for you and this is how you repay me? By eating and getting fat? You're useless, ugly and fat.

Tears were still streaming down my face when I became aware of someone rubbing soothing circles on my back. I assumed it was Amelia but no. When I turned around there sat Aiden staring at me in the girls bathroom watching me puke and sob whilst rubbing my back. He's just full of surprises isn't he? Feeling a sudden wave of nasau I chose to ignore him and quickly turned around and continued puking. But the time I was done he was still there patiently rubbing soothing circles into my back. I hated to admit it but it felt amazing and I was quickly calming down and relaxing. I was tired, my throat hurt, my stomach hurt and tears were still streaming down my face even tho I stopped crying. Feeling exhausted and honestly not caring anymore I went and moved to where he sat resting against a wall. We sat there for a while before I just let my head fall onto his shoulder. The tears started streaming down my face again. Suddenly without a word he started pulling me closer to him and hugging and comforting me.

"Why do you guys do this to me?" I asked.

"I don't know"

"Why do you guys hate me"

"I don't know"

"What did I do to deserve this"

"I don't know"

"Why do you suddenly care" my final and most important question I decided since I wasn't getting much out of him in anyways.

"I don't know"

After that we just stayed in a comfortable silence. I noticed how our bodies fit perfectly into each other. I was tucked under him with his arms around my waist and shoulders and my head tucked under his chin. He would rub soothing patterns on my back and every now and then when he saw a lone tear sliding down my face he would kiss it away, whisper sweat nothings into my ear and kiss me on the head. I couldn't understand what was going on. Not that I didn't enjoy it, it just didn't make any sense to me.

He probably thinks your just an attention seeking fattie you know. You shouldn't have eaten that granola bar this morning. Honestly. I tried to tell you. I mean come on. He's holding you. Just think how fat you must seem to him. He's probably just gonna use you or he looks at you like a charity case, he's just feeling sorry for you. Aww poor thing has to deal with fat ass, needy, ugly, stupid Lily. He's just gonna use you like Liam. He's just like him. He's just gonna hurt you like everyone else and you know it.

I must've fallen asleep because Liam was there. Just like that night hitting me and screaming at me.

"Get of me Liam! Get of off me! Please! GET OF!" I just kept on yelling

I was crying and screaming and Liam was shaking me.

"Wake up, wake up! Please!" He screamed

Screaming at me to wake up? I gasped in a lung full of air sitting upright screaming, frantically looking around me searching for Liam but instead of Liam it was Aiden. He was shaking me. He was screaming at me to wake up. He was there for me. But that didn't matter because I couldn't breath. I was hyperventilating, nasaues, dizzy, everything around me was blurry but al I could concentrate on was the growing chest pains of my lungs pushing against my ribs to try and suck in more air. I knew it was a pannick attack, not only did I know the signs and symptoms but I've had enough of them to know what they are. And at this moment as he stared into my eyes he looked terrified of what was happening.

"Whats going on Lilly? Whats happening? What do I do? He just kept on ranting while I was seeing more and more black dots.

"P-p-pan-ni-c-k..." I managed to wheeze out and luckily just enough for him to figure it out

"Attack!" He exclaimed

"Are you having a panic attack? Is that it?" He asked, I nodded my head as if to say yes.

"Ok, ok but what do I do I, I don't know what to do!" Exclaiming

Then just before I fell unconscious from the lack of oxygen he kissed me. He grabbed my face with his hand and started to stroke my cheek gently with his thumb kissing me al the while and when he pulled back he rested his forehead on mine smiling. That's when I realized I could breath again.

"The one time it pays of to watch teen wolf with my sister I guess" he chuckles.

I tilt my head looking at him confused not fully understanding whats going on since I was still reeling from the kiss. I never even cared for teen wolf that much in anyways. And he just laughed

"It's a trick I learned from teen wolf. When you kiss someone you have to hold your breath thus helping the panic attack. Lydia did it with Stiles on the show and I guess I didn't know what else to do. Sorry btw."

"No it's just shocking I guess. I don't know what to think."

"Why?"

"Aiden you've been my bully for the last 2/3 years. You and your whole entire group especially Allison has made my life living hell and the you give me al these mixed signals. First your mean to me then you bump into me and your suddenly nice to me. Allisons whole group bullies me and you just stand there and shake you head ignoring everything and the you run after me into a girls bathroom to comfort me while I'm throwing up and letting me sleep on you for like 3/4 hours afterwards frantically trying to wake me from a nightmare and then kiss me but then say it was because of the panic attack" she rants to him.

He places his hand near my hair by my cheek gently stroking it. I can't help but stare into those sea green eyes of his. Feeling like I could just get lost in them and I don't think I'd mind if I did honestly

"I wish I could just tell you everything I really wish I could but I just can't risk it. I can't risk you. Please, please just understand that whatever I do, I do because I have to not because I want to. It's for your own good." He said

I didn't understand a word he said. Nothing made sense but some of it registered. The bell rang and he looked at me with anxious eyes.

"I'm so sorry. I have to go ok?" He said. And with one last kiss on my forehead he was gone