Chapter Thirty Eight

Ten pov

I was putting cream on taes face and kun had started stretching the times when he was checking up on tae. Almost a week had passed and we had tried taking him off the ventilator but his lungs weren't healed enough.

Me - come on tae. We can do it this time.

Kun- ten this is going to be the last time we try this month. Do you want to do it now or wait a few more days or weeks ?

Me - you can't make me decide this...

Kun- I need you to decide.

Me - give me 30?

Kun- sure.

He left and I looked at taeyong.

Me - what do I do tae.

I made a few calls and winwin made the most sense out of them all.

Me - what do I do though?

Winwin- maybe wait until the end of the month... it gives taeyong time to recover a bit more and it could just be a better idea.

Me - okay.

I ended the call.

Me - winwin thinks I should wait until the end of the month. But I don't know if your going to hate me for it. You haven't even held my hand this week.

Can you still hear me ? Could you ever hear me?

I started crying again and Mrs Lee came for the third time this week.

Mrs lee-has he not come off yet ?

Me - no. I'm thinking of waiting until the end of the month but I dont know if taeyong would want that.

Mrs lee- taeyong hasn't even woken up yet. Maybe we should wait. Imagine how much pain he goes through when we do it.

I nodded and left to tell kun.

He nodded and carried on with his work.

His mother stayed and talked with me for a few hours.

Mrs Lee- have you slept this week yet ?

Me - no I haven't slept this week

Mrs lee- if you want you can take a nap on the sofa and ill watch over taeyong.

I agreed laying on the pull out sofa near taeyongs bed.

I held his hand and Mrs Lee sat in the chair. I fell asleep.