Utopia

***Matty's POV***

I kiss her as she's drifting off to sleep in my arms. It's not possible that I could love her anymore than I already do.

If I'm honest I thought that was the end. The end of my utopia. The way she looked at me when I told her about the amount of girls I've slept with, that's what made me decide that no I cannot tell her about the banter at Ross'. It would be a deal breaker, I know that for sure. I'm still not worthy of her, at all whatsoever.

However I am determined to keep her and to protect my future with her. I've come to a decision that I'm going to message Ross before the party and tell him she knows, and that we've worked it out.

I feel like a crazy man, cutting off all ties with everything I've known. But to be honest it's something I should have done a while ago. I am gaining so much, I'm genuinely happy to be exploring all of these possibilities with her.

I can't believe I cried in front of her I haven't even cried in front of my mum for the past ten years or so. I thought she was going to say sorry that's a deal breaker babe you're a complete dog and I'm better. Wouldn't blame her one bit.

It's like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I can't help but think maybe I should have told her exactly what happened but I'm sure I can work this out if I stick to my plan. It needs to work. I will make it work.

She turns around facing the other way as if she can sense me thinking, and wants to escape the drama. I chuckle and place my hands on her waist. I feel like a man obsessed. I don't remember ever having this intuition with other women, or being so aware of the fact that I could get them pregnant. I always avoided it at all costs.

This night was close, close as fuck. I just about pulled out in time. I can't believe she trusted me to tie her up and do her like that, it sent me over the edge. Feeling her come all over me whilst I'm inside of her is enough to set me off and this time I barely got out of her in time.

I stroke her tummy and she scoots up close to me.

"'Mm love you" she says half asleep.

I lean over and kiss her neck slowly.

I quickly grab my phone and send that message.

'Ross it's done. Good advice thanks man, you were right of course. See you all at the party. Matty'

Ball is rolling. I can keep this train from derailing.

He texts back, yes at 3 am, he's probably at a party not in bed with the girl of his dreams like I am.

'No worries man. How did it go' he replies.

See that's the thing about lying you need to actually be good at it.

'As well as you can expect' I reply. Keep it simple, don't overcomplicate it and always let the other person draw their own conclusions.

The problem is now he will be on her, he definitely will want to take his chances at the party. But he doesn't know, that I'm willing to do everything for her.

I finally drift asleep feeling her close to me.

***Taylor's POV***

Opening my eyes, I see that it's still dark. I turn around to face Matty who is asleep next to me. I watch him dreamily deciding whether it's at all fair for me to stir him by kissing him. I leave him to sleep.

I check my phone instead. I have a message from

Rhea telling me they had a nice time and that we should plan something else soon. I smile, I'm happy with how it all went. I remember Matty's smile as he chatted with Malachi.

It's 4:39am and I place my phone back on the side. I scoot back over to him facing him in bed, our bed. He places his hands around me meeting at the small of my back. I place my leg over his hip and rest it there. He's completely naked and so am I.

He starts moving his hands over my body. Maybe I did wake him up after all.

"Why are you awake? For once" he teases me.

"I just am, sorry if I woke you" I tell him stroking his back.

"Don't apologise, it's the best feeling waking up and realising you're in my arms" he says sleepily.

I can't help but to kiss him. He deepens the kiss.

"You smell amazing by the way, did you get a new shampoo" he chuckles.

"No it's a hair mask" I say laughing.

"Wanna go and get pancakes again in the morning?" he asks.

I laugh, "Is food always on your brain, Matty?"

"That and you babe" he replies.

I smile, I can't help myself.

He is so utterly perfect and completely mine. He holds me against his chest and I manage to fall back asleep.