Lunglen(Lonesome)

Alex told Joe to take me to my room.But still the man blocked our way.

"Nice to see you Miss,My name is Taylor."

"Nnnicce to meet you too,names Sasa."

"Oh..You are pretty..I never thought an Iceberg would make someone as pretty as you fall for him."

Before i answer Joe pulls me away.I never thought Alex would afraid others,but looks like i was wrong.Who the fuck is he?

"Sasa,don't come out of your room before i or Alex come to fetch you.Even if they say we let them don't open the door Lock it and Put the Drawer to secure it.Do you understand?"

"Why?"

"Because the man you saw tried to kill Alex.Killing you is equal to Killing him.And now know that Alex have a weakness he will come strike at you.So even when someone knock don't you dare breath out a word."

"So much to handle when a Devil loved you."

"Right.Stay save."

I lock the door and secure it with Drawer and rush to the window and start to blocked it with other furniture.After i am done i lay back and start putting my headphones on.Trying to divert my thoughts but when i hear my door handle budge my aim is disturb.I took off my headphones and listen to it.

"Sasa,are you in here??Alex says you can come out."

I stay silence..

"Maybe it's a wrong door let's try another door."

They moved on...Thank God...

When it's dinner time noone come for me and i am starving.I only ate breakfast,so i sneak out of the room.It looks like abandon mansion.After walking through a dark hallway i went inside and saw lot's of people,celebrating something.

And i saw Alex sit next to a beautiful women,She is perfect.Some would say match make by heaven.The announcer take the microphones.

"Now,let's start exchanging the ring."

And Alex put the ring on the lady finger and the lady do the same.And my hearts hurt.I thought it won't hurt anymore.But it is hurt more than the last time.

I thought he loved me.I thought he cared for me.Maybe i am just a toy like all the orther girls.I rush towards my room and looked through everything.I didn't find a single pill.So i rush out.Remembering where he once mention where to put Cocaine.

I rush in an start taking it.I felt emotional i rush to my room.And lock that door after that i secure it with the drawer like last time.I rush inside the bathroom.I look through the cabin and i saw a scissor.I take it and I cut my hair which falls above my thight and i cut it as short as i can..

I thought he loved me.I thought I hate him...Maybe I like him too..Just a little bit.Why???How can he did this to me??Am I that hideous to fall in love with??Am I a curse?

Why can't I leave this world??Noone cared about me so why would I still live maybe it's time to give up.I tried succide many times,but fail.Maybe now is the right time when there's Noone to stop me.

I fill the bath Tub and take a long bath... It will be my last time,so I tried to let the lavender shower gel kept it's smell on my body.After Thirty minutes I dry myself and start putting make up.. I need to look like I am happy,so noone would wake me up.

After I done my makeup I went towards my closet and start looking around and I saw Blue Silk dress and I take Gray color Pencil heels.I put my dress on and get on the bed and start cutting my own Wrist.

Maybe this is better.All this time I thought I hate him,all this time I want to leave his side,but he already own my heart.

I feel my hand got soaked in my own blood..If this is a dream?If this is all just a nightmare I wish to wake up and to forget it all.I suddenly got up and walk towards the door.After I left Notes for Alex,Joe and Derek.Saying how sorry I am to have such a burden like me around.I still wish to stay.My heart wish to stay.

I got out of the house and Drive our the first car I saw...I start the car and rush to Where?I too didn't know.After 30 minutes I stop the car and Cuty wrist deeper and start to drove again.Towards the Grave.Where I was supposed to lay instead of my parents.Towards the Grave where my burden would be taken.

I lay beside my parents Tombstone and wait for death to wrap me around.I starts to feel my blood slowly got drained.I saw Alex,The way he smile,the way he walk.The way he flip his hair back.

His Domineering face,his sad face and his unamused poker face.How he used to care,how he is being possessive.The way he became a caring person to a demon in a second.

How he used to intertwined our fingers,and stroke my fingers now and then.I can't believe it was all a lie.I thought I wouldn't fall for him but yet my heart already did.

My breathing got heavier and I slowly closed my eyes.Now,, Everything will perfect..They will live happily ever.Everyone will be happy.No more lies,no more games.

Love is hurt and Love kills..Why didn't they put a warning.Well I guess I'll never know.

( Hi My Sugar pies,,,So from the next chapter there will be the ML aka Alex POV...I know I am suck,but thank you for reading it..)