Sadness

The next day I found out way jack never returned. For he had fallen and his body never found. I should know I was there hearing the search for love's body but it mysteriously disappeared under that snow. I had know one to go back too but in stead just thubetan. Removing from a miscarriage and the loss of jack…. I went to the monastery looking for thubetan.

When I found him I told him that I lost jack, he hugged me then deeply kissed me. He suggested that I become a nun (Buddhist) and be his consort. I agreed to it. After my head was shaved and my name changed from Alex to Choden Tashi. I didn't know I was supposed to be elated or horrified.

Thubetan took me to his bed chambers and started to make his move on me. At first his touch made my skin crawl even though he was older than jack.

I had to get used to this.

"Choden I will not hurt you" he said in semi broken English. " I have been lived to be with you again Choden."

"Really"

"Yes, ri."

His touch was creepy I soon grew use to it. At first making love with thubetan was a creepy affair now. In my heart I new that jack was still around but did want to be found. Just the though of it made me want to cry. Did HE run off with a Buddhist nun out of revenge. Just that broke my heart.

Then I heard "forget him" it was Thubetan.

I was an unwilling consort and an even more unwilling nun.