CHAPTER 51

"I'M NOT FINISHED! I love you but you need to stop making all the plans then stare at me when I do like I'm a fucking monkey in a diaper," I continue causing Katy to back up a bit," I keep doing every little fucking thing you all ask of me and when I'm trying to make a real decision about a future that I honestly didn't think I'd even live this long to have you just fucking walk out on me, figure your shit out and decide whether or not I should get my fucking tattoo removed with a cheese grater while I go take a piss."

And at that I make an unceremonious exit out the back door, which was fixed, and stagger into the back yard. I don't go much farther past the pool and find a first tree before whipping my cock out and pissing all over mother nature. I have no clue why but it's a really great feeling when you're peeing like this and I feel wonderful as I start to head back and realize that I'm really tired. I see the pool loungers and figure a good nap would help before bed as I lie down and pull my coat closed and pass out.

I'm warm and cold at the same time, it's a weird feeling but it's also very bright here and I pull my blanket up and try to roll over. Sadly there is no blanket and I'm not in a bed as I roll off a lounge chair and onto my face. That hurts a little but my head is swimming with memory as I start to piece everything back together. I took the girls to dinner, which bombed; I came home and Mr. Delauter convinced me to get drunk which wasn't as bad as I thought; I told the girls how I felt and then went to sleep outside. I push my body off the ground and slowly stumble back towards the house. I don't know what time it is or why nobody came out to get me or anything.

I look around and don't hear much, people are in their rooms and I'm all by myself as I figure a shower and some teeth brushing would help, I get into the bathroom where my girls set up closest to our room and get inside locking the door. I'm not sore or hurt but my body aches like I haven't moved in forever as I strip down and kick the warm water on. My entire body is bathed in warm clean water and I grip the walls as I maintain my balance. My dizzy spell doesn't last and I feel more life coming into my limbs as I actually clean myself up. I get out of the shower and grab my clothes smelling them, I must have sweated through the whole night as my nice shirt and pants smell like sweat and ass. I wrap a towel around me instead and open the door to find Jun staring at me expectantly.

"Boss, you might want to follow me," he says, leading me towards his room.

I get in and he pulls up his laptop and kicks on a video, it's me in the foyer last night drunk and scaring my girls. I don't remember myself being as awkward as I staggered around nearly falling over and I apparently slapped Rachael's hands away from me before he turned up the volume so I could hear myself.

"You never let me explain that my plan was something I had come up with because I wanted to get out of high school which aside from my girls has really sucked cock for me. I want to get into college and get my degree done sooner so that I can start supporting this family and do things that I want to do like I don't know, have kids or even get married to y'all. I never said that I was going to set my plan in stone or anything but you couldn't even the fault that I had come up with a good future idea for us and left me looking like a piece of shit in front of a whole restaurant, which I had to pay for appetizers that I don't even like," I say over the speaker which I can barely understand myself but Jun lets the continue," I'M NOT FINISHED! I lurve you but you need to stop making all the plans then stare at me when I do like I'm a farcking monkey in a monkey. I keep dong little farcking thing y'all ask of me and when I'm trying to mark a real decision about a future that I honestly didn't think I'd even live this long to have you just farking walk out on me, figure your shit out and decide whether or not I should get my farking tattoo removed with a cheese grater while I go take a ."

I am going to die alone, I'm officially going to die alone and I settle for my own personal hell as I head back to my room and find that while all the girl's stuff is there they are not. I get changed and Jun is still following me around expecting orders.

"Okay what is the situation," I ask, waiting for the worst.

"Well I didn't record your girls but Mr. Delauter said that if any of us tried to help you after you left to pee he'd send us home on a flight with livestock or fish or something horrible. He then told his family that if they went to help me he'd send them to a school in somewhere called Albania before kissing your mom hard and heading to bed," Jun says giving me an update.

"Great but that doesn't give me the now man," I reply, pulling a green t-shirt with the word "grouch " on it.

"Devin and Masha are with Ben, Hanna, Mark and Vicki seeing some sights. My sister and my girlfriend are with Mr. Delauter at his work and as for your girls they're with your mom doing something," Jun says, expecting a punch for the lack of good information.

I don't hit him, he's stuck picking up my mess and I wave him out of the room before making my decision about how to handle this. I take my time packing my stuff, I really only bring clothing so I get the dirty in a hamper and my clean in my bag before exiting the room and heading down stairs. I take a moment to move my stuff to the TV room and casually just sit down and wait with the TV off. I must have dozed off because I can hear chattering that sounds like females coming from outside the room. I'm lying on the couch that Kori and I christened weeks ago as I hear the voices spread upstairs and outside. I keep my eyes shut and just wait as I hear the panic start to set in and girls start wondering what is going on. I can hear Jun upstairs saying he saw me a couple hours ago but doesn't know where I am now. The panic comes to a halt when I hear Loretta shushing all the voices and I can hear heeled footsteps getting closer.

"Why did he pack his stuff," Rachael asks confused.

"I think we're being broken up with," Matty replies a little stunned.

I start to sit up and stretch, still feeling stiff from sleeping on the lounge chair. I can hear everything but my girls as they have gone silent. I finish stretching and find the remote to watch TV. I get the thing turned on when I hear someone enter the room and see Loretta step into view checking on me.

"Hi Mom, do anything fun today," I ask looking at her.

"I took the girls out to relax and have some girl talk time. Are you sober," She asks with a little motherly concern.

"I believe so but I remember everything, Jun showed me a video but aside from not realizing how off my speech was I remember everything I said and meant every single word of it," I tell her turning my attention back to the TV.

"Okay honey we'll leave you alone then," Loretta says quietly stepping out of the room.

As soon as she's out and gets the girls to step away the giant debate begins about how to approach me. I'd laugh but right now I'm really not in a happy mood, it's decision time and I'm really tired of feeling like my life is a one way street unless I'm kicking people's heads in. I can hear some crying and it spurs me to do something I wouldn't normally do. I stand up from the couch and without looking at the girls close the door to the TV room. I'm alone with my thoughts and start watching celebrities get the shit scared out of them as a marathon. It's about an hour before a knock on the door has me curious, I answer it to find Kori standing there quietly waiting for me. I step away leaving the door open for her and sit back down. She enters and moves over to sit in front of me on her knees.

"Baby we really would like to talk to you," Kori starts to say but I get up and shut the TV off with a speed that startles her.

"'We'? What 'we' are you talking about? It looks like 'you' unless you developed multiple personality disorder," I say pacing on the other side of the coffee table from her.

"Us girls baby, we just want you to come up to our room so we can talk," Kori says standing up.

"I'm right here, figure it out Kori because I'm tired of being yanked around," I say, shaking my hands.

I see she's startled by my very tense tone and erratic pacing but I watch as she gets up and leaves the room quickly. I can hear her up stairs talking quickly and sure enough the parade of my girls comes down from upstairs. I've never seen them this nervous or afraid but I know I need to hold my ground on this or I'll hate myself later. I watch as they get seated on the couch and chairs waiting for me to say something.

"What? You wanted to talk to me with everyone now, what is it," I asked, confused by the silence.

"Guy, we're worried that you're breaking up with us," Kori says, holding onto Katy's hand.

"That depends on you five now doesn't it," I say honestly," Do any of you even remember what I said last night?"

"You were drunk and rambling a bit," Rachael says shyly.

"So none of you even heard what I had to say," I blurt out frustrated before Imelda stops me from pacing with her hands up.