Pilgrimage of Dreams 8

The second Chakra; Sacral Chakra, this chakra is about worth.

There are however different method on opening the sacral chakra but to me, this is the kind of Sacral chakra I choose.

I churn my ether vigorously around my body while concentrating on opening my chakra.

The question, 'Are you worthy?'

I have an answer to that now.

I ever know about selfishness in my previous life but never self-worth.

While I profusely fight for my own share of things selfishly either with my siblings, colleague or friends, I don't know what self worth is.

I am selfish because I don't mind just disappearing and abandoning everyone, my family, my responsibilities, a fight for my own future as well as my very life…

I do not think through on what will happen to my family if I just disappear, what my sister who is a year younger than me will bear.

I am deadly afraid of my parents dying before me, apart from parting with them forever, I am most afraid of carrying all the responsibilities of taking care of my three siblings. I don't know how, I will break down.

I selfishly run away from family responsibilities a lot. I am a leech in my most rational opinion. I escape from reality.

Self-worth is learning to bear responsibilities with my head held high, self-worth is stop being a coward. Self-worth is stop caring about outsiders thought.

Self-worth is acknowledging my existence and grasp firmly to life.

I have learned that when I was in my death bed.

It's always such an irony when we realize what is truly important only when we are about to passed away or when we are about to lose them forever. The universe always likes to play with life.

Things are taken for granted, and we like to live in ignorance and self-deception.

Ignorance is bliss…

Heh…

My ass!

Ignorance is not bliss!

For now, I finally have an answer to that question of about worth.

'I am worthy, even if all the people in the world said otherwise, I am worthy.

I stop caring what others thought.

Me is enough.

I am a work of art,

However and whatever wretched state I am in,

I am always worthy.

If I am perfect, then I am a beautiful perfection.

If I am imperfect, then I am imperfect perfection.

If I am unique and strange, I am uniquely beautiful.

If I am broken, I am a beautiful pieces of broken self'

-peng

I heard another sound of clogging being opened.

The ether in me circulates more freely, becoming clearer.

The third chakra, Solar Plexus chakra identifies goals and asked about whether we have the means to achieve it.

Like I said before, each chakra can be open in different ways and this is just my method.

I already have a goal, so that is an easy assertion to me.

Mastering sorcery and understanding the cosmic knowledge.

I do have the means.

I am patience enough now.

I am willing, I am enthusiast of it. I have forbearance.

I will not stop until I achieve my goals.

The fourth chakra; Heart chakra, it was about balancing one's emotion.

I have learned to control my sub-conscious thought or rather my heart that is spontaneous and act whenever. I strike a somewhat balance to myself so opening the heart chakra is easy.

Throat chakra, the fifth chakra.

It was about expressing oneself.

My desire is no longer contained in this world, even if I can't get what I desire, I don't hold grudges.

I learn to accept and express.

I learn to fight for what I want.

Although selfishness is not a good thing, a person need it and must learn to strike a balance to it. Without selfishness, I won't be selfish about gaining more power, absorbing more knowledge, seeking to press through the limit of human capability.

I will be a bland character.

I don't want that.

I am an alive, very lively person. So, I learn to use selfishness when it is needed.

The sixth chakra; Third eyes chakra.

I am imaginative, creative, always has been.

I live in my imagination world after all.

I am open to whatever life has to offer…

Finally, the crown chakra.

But…

My instinct that has been sharpened by the opening of the third eye has warned me against it.

I am still not ready for it.

My body will not be able to bear it.

A method on how to prepare my body gradually emerges in my mind.

I open my eyes, breathing a bit deeper.

Although I failed in opening my crown chakra, today is still of great harvest.

My ether has become violet level pureness.

I smile looking at my pure ether.

I am a genius!

Hahaha…

I am!

I am!

Gosh, I am so happy.

I am so happy.

My happiness does not derive from me surpassing all my peers and those said genius sorcerer in the book of sorcerer I read… *eheum* maybe a little bit.

I am mostly happy about the fact that I am one way closer to my goal, becoming a powerful sorcerer.

See this?

All those theoretical knowledge that I thrown myself into before doing any practical activities is well worth it, I have not failed myself.

Sorcerer, when they turn eight years old learn to do practical experience and busy on purifying ether while learning basic incantation.

But for me, I learn and learn and stuck on the red murky ether for two years.

I curb in my curiosity to immediately see what sorcerer do. Channeling ether and playing around with it.

Like I said, I have patience.

I am willing to wait.

I am willing to work hard.

So, about preparing my body for the opening of the seventh chakra, I have to widen my ether passageway little by little.

I have to refine my body as a pure ether dwelling body.

It means, changing into an ether element body.

It will take me three to four years or more.

I will work hard on it.

I shall become the first person to achieve the never seen before purest ether.

The first sorcerer to open all the chakras!

Just watch me!

Gambatte to me!