Hate To Lose Our Best

He led me to another room within the healing facility where Genaw lay on a bed of coral. His skin much more sallow than it had been that morning. Several Aequos Patrius worked around him, trying to figure out what was wrong with him.

"Before he passed out, Genaw said your name," King Bosnan continued. "Did something happen while you were with him?"

I nodded then swam closer to one of the female Aequos Patrius working on him. "Genaw is detoxing heavily," I told her. "His penis is no longer folded inside of him."

She nodded then issued instructions to the others to start their detox treatment. I returned to King Bosnan's side.

"You managed to get his penis out of his body?" King Bosnan asked, surprised. "How?"

"In order for the fold to come undone, Genaw needed to relax while the surrounding muscles were stimulated. Only then could the pelvic floor muscles push it out to where it needed to be."

"And yet, you do not look happy about your success."

"The removal of his penis from his body cavity castrated him," I replied, looking at Genaw. "The tissues have been rotting this whole time, but the hologram did not reveal the extent to which the tissues had disintegrated. His body has gone into a heavy detox because of my success. …I just hope I have not pushed him past the point of recovery."

"Is there any assistance you might give, Blessed Lexian?" King Bosnan asked softly. "I would hate to lose our best."

"I will do my best, King Bosnan. I do not want to be the reason you lost your best."

"Thank you," he said. Then he motioned to the Aequos Patrius I had approached. "You can let Marion know if there is anything you need."

"Okay."

He left and I turned to Marion to see where I could help. They were already doing all they could to feed his body with dense nutrition to combat the toxins in his system. On a physical level there was not anything more I could do. I covered his forehead with my hand. He was feverish. I left my hand there and bowed my head.

"I have a gift that allows me to see energetic compensations," I said quietly. "If you trust me enough to allow me to continue helping you with this issue, will you let me see?"

Dark energy surrounded Genaw as he rolled to his side. He coughed and vomited before copious amounts of waste filled the water around his tail. Those aiding his physical recovery cleared the water then stepped back to watch what I was doing. I set one hand over Genaw's heart and the other against the back of his neck.

"Your energy field is dark. …Toxic."

The darkness pulled to the right side of his body.

"There is a specific male… from when you were seven, who left you feeling toxic."

Genaw yelled. His tail beat the coral table. "What did I do wrong, Dad?" he cried. "Why do you ignore me? Why do you act like I do not exist?" He buried his face behind his arms and wept. The dark energy dissipated before a gaping wound bloomed across his chest and abdomen.

"You are struggling against betrayal. Against not feeling in control."

"Why did you hurt me, Lexian?" he whimpered. "What did I do to make you take sensitive information about me and use it against me?"

I grabbed his right hand and locked our fingers together. "I am sorry that I hurt you, Ganaw. I wished to heal you. Aid you in a way that you would no longer need to have detox treatments every…."

"Day," Marion filled in.

"Thank you, Marion," I said. "Every day for the rest of your life. I wish I could tell you that you will make it through this. I wish I could tell you that your fertility will be intact once you have thrown off enough toxins, but I cannot. What I can tell you, is by being able to get your penis out of your body cavity, the toxic build up will never get worse over time."

"And that's…." Genaw threw up some more. "That's supposed to make me feel better?"

"If you choose to let it. Allow the words to help you fight for better health so you can continue to be a wonderful healer to those who seek treatment without needing to seek serious treatment yourself."

Genaw shook his head and closed his eyes. He released another large amount of feces, but his heart rate was steady. His breathing was a little deeper. His energy closed to me.

I slowly removed my hands. "…I will check on him a little later."

"Thank you, Blessed Lexian," the Aequos Patrius said together.

"You are welcome."

I left the room and swam to my mussel. I lay on my abdomen and took a brief nap. I woke tired, but got up and returned to Genaw's side. He was still asleep, but Marion seemed pleased at the improvement he was already starting to show.

"Any news about his fertility?" I wondered.

"It is hard to say," she replied. "The toxins have contaminated the fluids needed for healthy sperm. How soon that will clear up and allow the sperm to be healthy once more, I don't know. The damage done may be irreversible."

"I understand. Has King Bosnan been informed?"

"Not yet."

"Then I will do so."

She nodded and I left the healing facility. I swam to the castle and found King Bosnan waiting just outside.

"How is Genaw?" King Bosnan asked when I neared.

"He is already showing signs of improvement," I said.

"I am glad to hear it."

I nodded.

"What is on your mind, Blessed Lexian?"

I looked away and rubbed my arm. "There is so much I do not understand, or remember, about my gift. And what I do know disturbs me."

"Is there anything we can do to give you peace of mind?"

"I don't know."

King Bosnan nodded. "Was Genaw able to check you over before his healing decided to go for a speed swim?"

"No. We were looking at causes of infertility in your people so I could try to understand why Queen Teryn is unable to carry a child to term before I tried to help Genaw with his."

"Did you see anything?"

I shook my head. "Both of you look healthy, but something has to be wrong."

King Bosnan nodded. "If it is alright with you, I will ask Hytler to look over you so you may continue to heal while Genaw recovers."

"That is fine, King Bosnan. Perhaps whatever hang ups I still have will clear so I may rediscover the answers I need to give you a reply to your request."

"As long as you remember to do what is best for you."

"I will."

"Good. I will have Hytler meet you in the hologram room."

"Alright."

I left King Bosnan and swam to the hologram room. Hytler was already there waiting for me. He had a similar build to Genaw and I wanted to make love to him as much as I did to all the males I had seen, but I did not act upon those desires. I still wanted to understand why my libido was so high. I removed my wet clothes at Hytler's request. He performed a thorough physical, recording his observations and thoughts. I dressed then lay on the hologram table. The table vibrated as Hytler turned it on. I felt waves of energy pass through my body before a holographic image of my internal organs appeared above and to the side of the table I lay on.

"I don't know Human anatomy well enough to know what is normal and what is not," Hytler said.

"If you pull up an image of a healthy Aequos Patrius, I can try to explain the differences," I said.

Hytler turned to me then nodded.

He touched a few places on the table before a second holographic image came up next to mine. The organs looked similar, save for the absence of the gall bladder and kidneys. The rest of the structures were the same. I explained to Hytler what the extra organs were and how they functioned. He would rotate the holographic image as I explained, even getting a close up view as he tried to understand.

Once Hytler was satisfied with the explanations I could give him, he changed the view to look at the inside of my uterus and vaginal canal. The tissue inside my uterus was ragged and inflamed. Some places had larger tears than others. If I healed as quickly as Unmar had been saying I did, why hadn't these tissues healed as well? Had I stuffed emotions here to keep the tissues from healing?

"We should wait until that heals before you return to the Viator," Hytler said.

"Something is blocking the healing," I replied.