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He took me to a cliff. The view is very beautiful but I am not thinking about this now. I took off my necklaces and rings, which I hadn't taken off since the day he gave them, and looked at them. Do they know I'm hurt? I do not know. When I'm happy like I didn't say, "Why am I happy, why these happiness find me?" and I also can't say, "Why does this always have to happen to me?" when I am hurt. Maybe these are the things that I have to live and I am living. As long as life tries to wear me down, I will not be defeated. Yes, even though I had a boyfriend, the person I have been in love with for 5-6 years may have left me, for a week, I may have learned that the people I think my mother and father are not my real parents, that I am adopted, but they should not destroy me, on the contrary, they should strengthen me. Just as my lover said, I have to leave everything behind, where they are. I will not open a new page for myself, I will buy a new notebook. Yes, I will not forget them, but I will not give up everywhere I go. Maybe the long nights I will cry remembering them, but the sun will rise again and I will be happy again. Mom, Dad, and my darling, Jimin, don't forget me. You just need to remember sometimes. Maybe fate will meet us again, but until then, you will only be in my heart, not in my mind or around me.

While I was thinking of these, I was empty, looking at the view. I didn't even pay attention to the arm that touched my shoulder. I knew it was Kai. Why is everyone leaving us? I will not cry! No! I don't want to be a loser. Here came upon me what I feared the most, Ainul and Jovihel unnis, neither of them here anymore! I don't know how to get used to this. But as I said, I'm going to buy myself a new life book!

Cheonsa: Kai, let's go!

Kai: Cheonsa, I don't understand you. At least tell your trouble!

Cheonsa: You are my friend, right? Then you need to understand me even when I'm silent. Kai, don't be the one that goes! I'm tired and you have to understand me! Can we go now?

Kai: Ok, sorry.

We got in the car and Kai brought me home. I went to the hall. Nobody left the house. I had the stupidest smile on my face, but my brother was upset. I didn't want to see him that way.

Cheonsa: Friends, can we go somewhere to have fun? I am very bored! I need some fun!

While everyone was looking at me in disbelief, Taehyung touched and smiled at the tears drying in his eyes and talked to me.

Taehyung: Cheonsa says right! We used to have a lot of fun before! Why don't we have fun anymore? Let's go to the amusement park!

Yeah, everyone looks at us like we're crazy!

Cheonsa: Oppa, I don't think they will go, let's go alone! They have to come out of shock! Let's get dressed!

Dahyun Unni: Hey! What happ- OK, let's go!

Everyone: Let's go!

Everyone went home to get ready.

-After 30 minutes-

We all met in the park.

RM Oppa:

Jin Oppa:

Suga Oppa:

Jhope Oppa:

Taehyung Oppa:

Jungkook Oppa:

Dahyun Unni:

(Wearing sneakers not high-heeled shoes)

Hira Unni:

Mina Unni:

Yeji Unni:

Me (Cheonsa):

We got in the cars and went to the amusement park. Yes, since I'm still a teenager, I'm the one to have the most fun! I am happy about that. I have no reason to be happy, in my mind. Yeah, what do we start by getting on?

-After 3 hours-

We left the amusement park after getting on all three times. We decided to go to the cafe and have a meal. I ordered japchae. Jin Oppa ordered bibimbap, Suga Oppa samgyetang, Jhope Oppa ddukbokki, RM Oppa sundubu-jjigae, Jungkook Oppa seolleongtang, Taehyung jajangmyeon, Dahyun Unni samgyeopsal, Hira Unni bulgogi, Yeji Unni Gimbap, and Mina Unni ordered jjinmandu respectively. They decided to chat until our meals arrived. But I was going to listen to the song. I love music so much!

I put on my headphones. The songs were coming randomly. Zombie Song, If You Seek Amy, 16 Shots, Say My Name, I'm a Mess, Princesses Don't Cry, Angels Don't Cry, Sweet but Psycho, Umbrella, I'm Not Her, Lost My Mind, Happy Now, Older, Rise, No Friends ... Then it sounds weird even to say ours, our song rang, that famous "Hometown Smile". I did not close. I couldn't shut it down. He has a memory, how can I turn it off? I listened to the end. Did I cry? No. Are my eyes full? No. But my heart hurts. Because it's there. I did not reveal anything to anyone. When our meal arrived, I joined their conversation.