A blind spot

"Min,you need to understand that me and your aunt are very worried about you. Since you started to hang out with that Jia girl,you started going crazy!"

That's not true! I was like this before and you noticed, only now. It's nobody else's fault that you lack sense of observation.

*Mom went silent,it's not like I even expected her to say something else,she's good for only the beginning of a talk,she's not good when she needs to finish it. She grabs her purse and leaves. She did not look back,in fact I didn't even want her to look back at me.*

*As I lay in the bed lifeless,I look down at the nightstand next to my bed just to see the photo of me and my brother. I suddenly question myself,Eun where the hell are you? At least give a signal that you're alive. You didn't even come to visit me in the hospital,you only spend time with that psycho.*

*Days were passing and I was still not getting any sign that my brother is alive or in the worst case...dead. I started to lose hope as I also turned into a girl with bad habits,I started smoking and my caffeine consumption also raised,my money were mostly spent on cigarettes and caffeine. Sometimes,I had to send an adult to buy them for me,since some cashiers won't give cigarettes and energy drinks to minors. I became miserable and worthless,I became what at some stage each one of us is.

My obsession with repairing my relationship with Jia grew as my obsession with finding my brother became even bigger than that.*

*As I lay in my bed I get a notification,it was from Shin. "Remember me? Darling,I just want to talk to you for a moment." I reply slightly shocked. You psycho! Where is my brother? Also,don't call me darling.

"Oh,then how about I call you princess? Anyways your brother is okay,but he's not the subject I want to discuss with you."

*I remain without response as my hands began shaking as I hold the phone with one hand,nearly dropping it onto the floor. Almost breaking it. What do you want to discuss? *I asked curiously.* "About a trip,I'm in need of help and I'm also short staffed on the teenage section. Will you accept to be my apprentice in this organization. If you accept I'll consider letting you see your brother,but if you deny my request you won't get to see him ever again. The decision is up to you,at least this time. Take the safest option or take the risky one and see what happens."

What do you mean,short staffed in the teenage section? *I ask curious about what he meant,is he collecting children to fullfill sick criminal desires?*

"We need people that can be seen as innocent and harmless. We need teenagers and kids of course the kids,and their parents don't know about the fact that ,their children will basically help the adults kill and commit other crimes. You on the other side know what you're supposed to do,if you do why shouldn't you already practice it? It's a good oppotunity for you to revive."

I accept. *I type almost instantly. After not even one minute I could hear my ringtone that always seemed pleasant to hear suddey become stressfull and annoying. The phone call I was compelled to answer could mean that a lot will suddenly change.*

What do you want now? *I ask audibly irittated by the silent breaths coming from the other side of the phone.*

"I want to fill in some information,but in order to fill it in I'll need you to tell me the information. So,tell me Min,how did your suicide attempt feel like,were you suffocated when you decided to slit your wrists or where you filled with adrenaline?"

Why does that fucking matter? I thought you said you wanted me to be your apprentice,not a person you can ask something so private.

"Chill out,I was just curious,you see, I need a bloody experience,an experience that shows you can bear to see blood. Aside from your attempt I don't recall any other experience that was bloody in your life and trust me I know a lot about your life."

What do you know about my life?

"A lot. Min,you might not know this but I take looking out for my victims very seriously,you aren't exactly a victim but I still look out for you,just in case you are or you aren't actually going to be a potential backstabber,I have to look out for that a lot. Just so I don't get betrayed by someone