About me part 2

To have finally forgotten

Only to be reminded

Yet I never did hate

Why?

Because again I put my self in that situation.

Again I am to blame.

Again I was naive.

Again, fell prey.

So I swallowed in my pain...

Who else do I tell?

That because of my carelessness and unthoughtfulness I fell prey again?

No impossible!

So I simplified the story

Omitted the details.

Why?

How do I say though traumatized from the pain

I felt pleasure still?

So sick, am disgusted with myself!

Am ashamed...

I felt violated!

But what could I do?

Who do I tell?

What do I say?

From where do I begin?

So I keep it to myself?

Perhaps this is the greatest burden I have.

Probably also why I stay away from sexual activities...