Twenty-fifth chapter

Liz lay on her bed and she looked at her folded fingers. She looked at me and signaled with her head that I should go closer.

"Would you lie next to me? Please!" She whispered and slid away on the bed. I did. She turned to me and put her head to my left shoulder and hugged my belly with her right hand. I started stroking her hand with my left hand.

"I don't understand you." She started to whisper about five minutes later. I frowned but she couldn't see it. "I did bad things, said bad things. Slapped you." She sighed. "Against all this, you helped. Always. Why?" I didn't say anything. I looked in the opposite direction. She raised her head and turned my head toward her with her hand. She looked at me questioningly. I blushed. I grabbed her wrist and put it back where it was. I shook my head and looked our hands. She took her hand away and sat up. I also sat up next to her. She quickly took her right feet over my thighs. I frowned. She leaned over me, grabbed my face with her both hands and kissed me. I tried to pull away from her, but she smoothed her left hand under my t-shirt and stroked my side. I moaned. She slipped her tongue into my lips and I gave up the fight with her. Sometimes when one of us leaned away a bit to take a breath the other grabbed her and pulled back. When we finally separated, I looked at her. She was completely blushed and her eyes gleamed. She took a deep breath constantly and finally got off me.

"Do you love me right?" She whispered. I looked at her. She bit her lower lip and leaned over to me. I suddenly stood up and shook my head.

"No, I don't." I said quickly and ran down the stairs. I didn't want to go to the living room, so I went to the kitchen to drink some water. Fortunately, no one was here.

"I will go home soon." I whispered. "I can't do it."

"What can't you do?" Noel asked.

"Forget it." I said quickly without looking at him.

"She's fine?" He walked next to me and he drank too. I nodded.

"She is much better." I mumbled and drank a sip.

"You are so red. Are you ok?" I nodded.

"It's a little warm here." I mumbled.

"I don't feel it." He shrugged, put down the glass and walked out. I sighed.

Some people say it is a sin for two girls to do anything together. How can it be a sin, which is so good? I will burn in the hell. It would be so much easier if I can love Jason, for example. He is there in the castle, but I cannot look at him any differently than a brother. Maybe Felipe wouldn't be gay. Let's say it's my luck that he is. I shouldn't love her. Why is this so hard? It was so embarrassing what happened. I think she didn't take seriously what she did. Yes, that is. She is confused. She can't process what happened with her. I believed myself in these thoughts and went back to the living room. Time has passed. James and the others went away before dinner so there were only four of us stayed in the house. We started eating the dinner. I didn't dare look up once. I was afraid if I looked up once, I wouldn't pay attention to anything else just her eyes.

"Amanda are you ok? You are so red." Alex said.

"I'm fine." I said in a hoarse voice without looking at him and I cleared my throat.

In the evening I had a hard time to falling asleep because of what had happened, but in the end I succeeded. Later I tiredly opened my eyes because I felt very hot. When I opened my eyes, I saw someone was lying on me. I pushed away this person in fright. Liz growled and lie back on me.

"What are you doing here?" I tried to push her away again, but she squeezed me hard. "Let me go!"

"No! I want to sleep." Liz muttered sleepily.

"Why here?" I asked.

"I couldn't fall asleep and this place is more convenient." I blushed.

"Anyone can come in and see us." I whispered.

"It's too early. No one will come down here. Do you know what's the best in it?" She asked seductively. I didn't say anything. I was curious. "We can do anything. Such as this." She kissed my neck. I trembled. "Or this." She kissed behind my ear. "But. What I crave the most." She leaned over to me. I pushed her hard from myself and I sat up.

"Go away!" I said angrily. She sat up, leaned over to me again but I pushed her.

"I thought you were having fun." She said indignantly.

"It isn't good to play with someone's feelings." I said nervously.

"Feelings?" She laughed. "The feelings are shit. Love destroys everyone. The people leave you, hurt you, die. You will never understand that. Turned out that your father is Alex? I'm so sorry for that. I don't even know where mine is right now. Maybe he picked up a woman or poured his grief into alcohol in one of the pubs." She sighed. "Without emotions everything is better." She muttered.

"It's not true." I said.

"In your carefree life. A wonderful fairy tale where you don't have to worry about who loves or who doesn't love you because everyone is watching your words." I can't say anything.

"Who do you love the most in this world?" I asked after a while.

"Such a person doesn't exist. I'm not dependent on anyone." She said unsteadily.

"Who is?" I asked louder.

"I said…" I grabbed her two shoulders and squeezed.

"Say it!" I whispered.

"Noel." She whispered. "He hates me." She started to sniff.

"You also know that is not true. Maybe you should talk with him. He knows about your mom. Believe it or not he loves you too." She shook her head. I went closer and hugged her. "You need him, and he need you." I whisper. "Will you talk to him?" I felt her nod.

"You are my guardian angel." She whispered. I smiled. "I am really afraid." I bent away from her.

"He will understand." I said.

"No. I'm not talking about that. I'm afraid of what will happen at the police. Aaron's father is a lawyer. What if he won't be convicted? If he come here or catch me sometime." I heard she started to cry.

"Everything will be fine." I hugged her again.

"And if not?" I leaned closer and wiped away her tears, which were illuminated by the faint sunlight shining through the shutter.

"If there's a problem I'll take care of it." I said.

"How?" She asked.

"Hey! I'm the princess. There are so many security guards in the castle that I don't think I know about half of them. I just call Paul and a minimum of five people are already here to defend me and you." I said with a smile. My stomach grumbled. She laughed.

"Are you always hungry?" She asked.

"And if yes? You need to eat too." I saw she lowered her head. "I'm sorry! I didn't think what I said."

"Truly." She started." I always starved myself after the accident. I thought it was so normal. Everyone is so beautiful among the cheerleaders. I didn't want to live in their shadows."

"You are beautiful. You should notice it." I said kindly.

"It's not true! You are much prettier than me." She said. I blushed.

"Maybe only you think so." I whispered.

"No! The cheerleaders in the class always talking about why they don't look like you. They are jealous and me too." I rolled my eyes.

"You are the most beautiful girl who I ever met." I said without thinking.

"Don't lie to me!" We hear someone went down the stairs and was walking here.

"Shit!" Liz said and she stood up and hid behind the couch. I lie down and pretended to be still asleep. He opened the door slowly and he finally closed it.

"Where is this girl?" Alex whispered. Liz stood up and walked to the door.

"Thanks for everything. I go before he calls the police that I'm gone." She slowly opened the door and closed it. I heard she opened another door and went in there.

"What are you doing here?" I heard Alex's voice.

"I do my makeup." Liz said.

"Here?" He asked.

"I wanted to try Amanda's makeup." She said.

"At seven in the morning?" He asked in disbelief.

"Makeup cannot be started too early. It is a process. You don't understand anyway." She said.

"If it makes you happy. Are you better?" He asked.

"Yeah. Thanks to ask. And you. How are you?" She asked.

"Since when does it matter how I am?" He asked.

"From today." She said.

"I'm fine too." He said finally.

"Great! Now if you'll excuse me, I want to continue my makeup. I can't do it if I have to talk in the meantime." She said.

"If you want that. We will go at three o'clock." He said. "Do you want breakfast now or later?" He asked.

"Later. Now." She said quickly.

"Well?" He asked.

"I would like to eat now. Thanks." Someone closed the door, and someone walked away. Someone opened the living room's door.

"Would you like to join me?" She asked with a smile.

"I thought you wouldn't even ask." I said with a grin on my face.

After I was ready, I went to the kitchen and sat down.

"What about you today? You are more alert than ever." Alex said.

"Nothing special." I said.

"There's coffee. Here is the breakfast. If you need anything else, I will be there in the working room." We nodded. Liz went to the counter and poured coffee for herself.

"Would you like too?" She asked.

"Yeah." When she was done, she put the cup in front of me and sat down if front of me.

"Thanks." I taste it and I grimaced. She smiled. "It is very bitter. How can you drink this?" She shrugged with a smile on her face and drank her coffee and put down to the table.

She watched me with a smile on her face as I packed the sugar into the coffee with a spoon after a spoon and she shook her head. She started looking at her cup with a serious face. I put my cup down and put my right hand on hers. She looked up at me.

"Everything will be fine." I said with a smile. She smiled faintly and her eyes lit up. She bit her lip. I took my hand off hers, but she grabbed my wrist. I blushed . She with a grin let go of my hand and stood up to bring her scrambled eggs here. She started eating happily and I was just watching her. After she looked at me, I also took breakfast there and ate it.

"What shall we do now?" I asked.

"I have a great idea." She grinned. I looked to the side. I couldn't watch her when she looked like that. "Let's watch a movie!" She stood up and walked away. I followed her. She sat on the couch and I sat down beside her about half a meter away. She laughed.

"Is this serious? I don't bite." She smiled. I went a little closer to her. She just rolled her eyes and turned on the TV. The film was so interesting that I didn't even notice she was already sitting next to me and tilted her head to my shoulder. I inhaled sharply, but she was just lying there. After a while I looked at her. Her eyes were closed. I sighed.

"Can you see? You can be kind too." I smoothed her hair behind her ear with my left hand. She rubbed her face against my shoulder. "Cute." She smiled.

"Continue!" She whispered with a smile and she raised her head and looked at me. I sat farther. She frowned and folded her arms grimly as she continued to watch the TV.

"Amanda. Will you join me for breakfast?" Noel appeared in a doorway and looked at us.

"We have already eaten." I said.

"When?" He asked in amazement.

"About two hours ago." I said.

"Wow! It's new." He said. "If you don't want to join then I eat alone." I nodded and looked at the TV. "I will eat alone." I nodded again. "Alone."

"Ok." I said weirdly.

"We will go with you if you want." Liz said.

"If you have already offered." He said happily and walked away. She rolled her eyes.

"He always gets what he wants." She said.

"You don't?" I asked. She smiled.

"Let's go to eat!" She said with a smile and walked away. What is on her mind?

I followed them and sat down. Noel smiled on me. Liz looked at the table. I gently pushed her ankle with my foot. She looked at me questioningly. I signaled with my head to say something.

"How are you?" She asked. Noel didn't say anything. I touched his shoulder, who was looking at me and raised his eyebrows. I pointed at Liz. He then looked questioningly at her. Liz looked at her hands.

"I'm sorry! I thought you weren't talking to me." He said. "I'm fine. How are you?"

"I'm fine too." Then there was silence for a few minutes.

"What happened with your wrists?" He asked.

"Hmm." She said and she scratched her neck.

"He did it?" She nodded without looking at him. "You scared me." He said and his voice trembled. "After James called us, he said something happened with you." Tears welled up in his eyes and he wiped them off. He squeezed the fork in his hand, and he lowered his head. He stood up and would like to walk out. Bypassing Liz, but she grabbed his arm and hugged him. Noel hugged Liz back tightly. Something hot dripped on my hand. I looked down at my hand. I didn't even notice I was crying. I quickly wiped away my tears and I looked at them with a smile. He is the only one who really loves you unconditionally Liz. Or not?