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Dear Yoonah❤

We're really sorry about what happened to you yesterday. We really failed you as your guardians.We'll make sure he pays for what he did to you.

We're also sorry we'll be out of the house today, we have to go recording and  might be late.

Make yourself at home and we left the key to the pantry with the junk food on your headboard. Have  a nice day

Love EVIF

The Boys were really sweet and all but I still was just really sad.I just felt really low and it sucked  being all alone .It was  good day for junk food and sad dramas.

I got the key from my room and headed to the pantry. It was as if I had opened the gates to junk food heaven. I just grabbed as much as I could carry and dumped it on the sofa.

Got a  little blanket and tissues then grabbed the remote and started watching the saddest dramas ever made.I cried and  cried until I laughed then cried again.

I always did this when I was low,I believe in letting it all out than keeping it in.I didn't even notice how fast the time went by.

The Boys came back whilst I was in a pile of tissues and food scraps.They just looked at me dumbfound and Phoenix went on to say"what a pig",making want to sink to the centre of the earth out of shame .

I was pretty embarrassed, hadn't even taken a shower.I just wanted to hide in the pile but something possessed me and I cleaned up faster than the flash  .

I just smiled and asked how their day was trying to make them forget what they just witnessed but that was of no help.Min asked me how I was feeling and I told him the truth ,I was way better .My day of crying had lifted the lump that was in my heart and throat.

The Boys didn't ask anymore questions as that was all they needed ,to know that I was okay.Even though they seemed happy for me they seemed bothered by something.

When I asked  they just downplayed it and acted as if they were okay but their poor act wasn't fooling me. I knew I wasn't going anywhere with them as a group so I decided to divide and conquer .

I started off with the weakest link when it comes to keeping secrets and he sang like a little bird.I knew Alex couldn't escape my charm.I know how to get information out of someone.

It was sad finding out that Jojo  had flipped the story and made Sung-Ho look like the villain.As a senior the believed him over poor Sung-Ho.The worst part was the whole band getting punished because of me.I was just glad I didn't get to see Mr Hwang because I wouldn't have been able to stand his glare.

The boys were not saints, they messed up here and there but Mr Hwang always covered everything up before it got to the label.This is something he couldn't do this time around. The Boys had to attend a disciplinary hearing the following day.

I felt like lifting their spirits up but they were not in the mood .They all just went off to their rooms leaving me all alone once again.No drama could help me get rid of my guilt .

I just went off to my room closed my eyes counted sheep but my conscience would not let me sleep.I was wide awake the whole night and as morning came I thought of doing a little something for them.

As I was already awake I decided to prepare breakfast for them even though it was only 2a.m .Good food always puts a smile on people's face don't get me wrong I'm no Gordon Ramsey but they do say it's the thought that counts. My major issue was going to be cooking without making alot of noise.

Took me 3 good hours to prepare the feast and as usual Min was the first one up for his workout.He almost killed me as he thought I was a thief who had broken in.

He was surprisingly impressed by my efforts and immediately woke all the members up .Ofcourse everyone came out but Phoenix. They sat around the table and started drowning me in compliments.

I actually loved it as I rarely got them at home by rarely I mean NEVER. I'm mostly getting shouted at for my mistakes and even Eun Ae's, so much for being the older sister.

We had our meal at 5 am so we took our sweet time and the boys shared some fun stories making them forget about their problems for a couple minutes. Phoenix finally decided to join us just when we were doing the dishes ,luckily Jihoon had saved some food for his highness .

We had gotten up so early that the boys had time to kill as their hearing was only at 8.00am.The boys were sceptical about switching on the tv as they worried that news had gotten out. It wasn't good for their image so they knew they would receive alot of hate because of it but I assured them that there would be nothing like that and switched on the tv for them.

I was actually right the boys weren't in the news at all but Jojo was.It wasn't what e expected at all, but he was dead.It just left everyone totally puzzled.

Even though I was now his antifan I was really hurt .I only had stopped liking him just 2 days prior. This was the guy I thought I would marry.The one whose lyrics spoke to me.They one who made me smile when I was down and gave me hope to move on.Now.... he was no more.

The reporter's said he had been found dead in his apartment .They suspected that the cause of death was an overdose but they weren't sure as the police wasn't sharing much information with them.

It was hard for me to believe. I never knew he was into drugs,no such scandals had been raised against him before.I was indenial but then again I never really knew him.I only knew an image of him.

As these thoughts were running through my head the door bell rang.The boys didn't even hear it ,I gues they were in more shock than me.After all they actually knew Jojo.

I'd seen some videos of when the two groups met up and you could see how much admiration EVIF had for their seniors.So it must have been hard for them getting such news.

I went to the door and when I checked the footage to see who it was I completely froze.