I am tired
"What do you mean reject you?"
"You can't seriously expect me to happily run back into your arms after you cheated on me Leon!, for fuck sakes we are werewolves! werewolves Leon!..I feel everything that happens to you...pain, joy , sadness , happiness, all of it! I feel all of you and although you are standing there looking like medusa turned you into stone I know you feel my anger and hurt! and don't deny it , you don't love me! I won't sit here and lie either..I tried to find at least one likeable thing about you but I found nothing..wait..no..you were a good fuck when I was horny but that is all there ever was between us . Sex!." I reply back to Leon bitterly. I am lying about him not having a good quality, he is kind to his sister and mother , but it is not related to our relationship so there really is nothing about him that attracts me. He looks hot yes!, like 6'2 , dirty blond undercut hairstyle, with a perfectly chiselled jaw that makes his grey eyes look alluring type of hot, but looks can only last so long...my this long is today. Today he looks like a pile of shit!.
"No!..Akky, we can fix this. I will not reject you.! Then I will definitely feel that pain of separation, I don't want to make both us go through that ..I won't go through that. You are alive now, and I am sure you will be okay, I will change..., we can try to fix this somehow..just not separation ....that I totally disagree!" He pleads. I don't know what to say cause I really feel like this is the end for me, I don't even know why, okay maybe I know...but I start crying. My chest feels suffocated . My heart feels so tight that I wish I could meet a heart eating demon who would rip it out for me ,burn it and let the wind blow its ashes away so I could never love again. I am really tired.
"When we first met you said you didn't like me cause I was too masculine, I am not even bigger than you are!..you said you didn't like that I read too much, that I love too cook, that I am an Alpha, you hate that I keep my hair long and you hate that I laugh with other men. You are never home, always working , always busy, always w-wi-with your fucking friends! I bet you don't even know my real name. It has been six months of total isolation Leon! We are no different from friends with benefits! at least they maybe ask each other how each other's day was. ..you couldn't do it. ..but I ,this stupid, food loving ,6'0 ,smart Alpha born wolf is your mate. I AM!!." I hiss back at him through tears .
"Akky we can fix this!..my mother really likes you, we can't just end because of one stupid night!"Leon begs. When mentioning his mother, fear and a little hint of sadness overtake his once godly face, but I have made up my mind.
"You-you have rejected me and everything I am since the first day we met. You just have to say it with your mouth...or I can say it for you." I state while wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.I hate crying over shit!
"NO!please don't ,, I really promise to change, I swear on the Goddess that I will change ." There it is, that fucking Goddess! Her name dances on the tongues of all even those who I find to be evil. It is her fault that I am in this shit hole.
" I am tired. We will talk tomorrow. Please leave!." I command him with a stone face.My voice sounding drained and hoarse from the tears I shed a few seconds ago.
"Okay, just don't do anything stupid okay!..I will come back tomorrow with your family...I am really sorry Akky. I will leave now...I am so sorry." He says repeatedly before he vanishes into the hallway. I am left alone with my dark thoughts. I don't know what to do. I just know that I don't want to be here anymore.
Later that night, when the last nurse came to do her rounds, she properly checked me and said I am good and that I can go home tomorrow. That is good, but I don't want to go back to that place. I pick up a notepad book from the drawer next to my bed and I start writing two letters. One for Leon and one for my family. I am going to take a short trip, I might die on my way out but I would rather die out there than in this shitty place, too many bad memories.
This is what I wrote for each:
DEAR MUM,DAD AND KILLIAN
Mum don't freak out, I am okay. I went out for a bit. I will be back in time for my exams. Please don't try to find me. I am okay. I love you all soo much , please take care of yourselves while I am gone. Once again , stay safe.
With caramel ,chocolate flavoured fudge love
Your Akie !
2nd Letter
I LEON CEOUKI REJECT AKILAH MOONLIGHT AS MY MATE.
I don't know if the last trick will work, Leon is a speed reader, so I trust it will. I just hope by the time he does read that note I will be in a safe place. If his wolf already registers the rejection, then I will be feeling it very soon , so I have to hurry out of here.
I take my personal credit cards and leave the ones my parents made for me, I tug them nicely into my shorts and place all my other belongings which included my phone neatly by the bed side. I then transform into my pure grey with pebble stripes wolf and jump from the second floor of the hospital building. There is no going back now, I don't even howl to let out my distress. The moment my paws hit the ground. I start running.