Asta William

After breakfast, I didn't go to my classes. I went back home and I was searching for my diaries. My diaries which I have written long back. Before I met with an accident. I really didn't have any idea how I met with an accident and how it happened to me. I checked my entire room and I was not able to find even a single diary which I have written 3 years back.

I rushed to kitchen and checked with my mom about my diaries. She said "You never wrote diary before that accident. You started writing it after only. So we do not have even single diary before". I did not know that habit of writing diary was not from the beginning. Now, I wanted to know how Sheldon was connected to my past. But how would I know that.

Then Some idea popped up in my head and I called Emma and asked her to come to my home. She came to my home with my mini squad and asked what Happened and why I didn't go to classes. I did not have time to explain these. So I directly started my conversation about Sheldon and told them what happened between me and Sheldon during our last two meetings.

Emma did not say anything about Sheldon and she asked me to stay away from him. I didn't understand anything and yeah I didn't know why Emma wanted me to stay away from him. But I cannot blame Emma also. It was kind of warning cause Emma and Sheldon were schoolmates and Emma knew about Sheldon better than all of us.

I asked Emma that how Sheldon was connected with my past. I was not sure about it. Because Emma and I met after my accident in college. That was what I thought before. If Sheldon told her about me before we both met, she would have known bit about me. But I did not know. I did not know anything what happened 3 years before. I didn't know who I was 3 years before. I stopped talking with most of the people after I lost my memory. When people asked me whether I could remember them, I felt bit humiliated and I stopped respond to them. I started avoiding people and shut them down from my life.

I was not sure who all were there with me before that. I really didn't know anything. But what I feel sometime was losing your memory was far better than holding on some painful memories, holding on some shits you really wanted to forget. Not because I really forgot so many things. But because of the people who holding on to something and wanting for the best out of worst.

But Emma did not answer me. She said, "It is always better not to stir up your past. I don't want you to know and no one wants it. It's better for you to stay away from Sheldon and not allowing him to enter into your life".

This was something I didn't expect from Emma. Sheldon was her friend and she was asking me to stay away.

If that was the case, even she had to stay away from him right.

Suddenly my mom came inside and called Emma and told her that she wanted to talk to her. I did not know what she wanted to talk.

My suspicious became more because of my mom and Emma's action. Now, something was really hindering inside me that asking to know about everything.

Could not I remember everything on my own? Should I ask Sheldon about our past? Because he was the one who wanted me to remember my past. Wanted me to remember him.