I’m sorry

Dear Kj,

I know that you might be busy right now, so I will keep this short. I'm thinking of you!

I'm in a meeting with my project senior management discussing our future direction and I just started thinking of you.

That's actually not new for me. Sometimes I just randomly start smiling for no reason. My thoughts are free to go anywhere, but it's surprising how often they head in your direction. This must be how madness starts.

About the last fight we had. I wish I could go back in time and unsay everything I said and called you when you needed me yesterday. I regret my words and I'm sorry. I love you so much. If I begin to tell you how terrible I feel for what I said to you, my apologies will run for weeks, I am sorry for hurting you, my queen. I have weaknesses that I never knew I had but I'm beginning to recognise them, I just hope you're patient enough with me to forgive me when I fall.

I think the only good thing about not seeing you or being anywhere near you is that I get to write you love letters. I just wanted to let you know that I feel lucky to have you in my life.

During my devotional today I realised how much of a positive influence you've had on me. I don't say this enough but you're such an amazing friend.

Once I realised that I'd fallen for you distance became a painful challenge. Being away from you can be agonising. I wonder if you feel this way about your boyfriend.

PS

When I tell our kids this story, I'll add that you were about to break up with me until I sent you a killer love letter and then you came back to me on your knees begging me to come back.

From your Sugar Bear