Inner Desires (16)

*Jonathan*

When Alexis fell, I didn't know what to do. I wasn't sure if I was going to catch her, but luckily I did.

She had closed her eyes, and was clenching her teeth. She looked so afraid, and all I wanted that moment, was to make her feel safe.

When she opened her eyes, she looked surprised. Like she didn't expect me to catch her. The look in her eyes wasn't as usual, wild and eager to talk, but peaceful and comfortable.

I started teasing her as usual, but suddenly none of us had nothing to say anymore. Suddenly I felt an inner urge to stay like this forever. To make her feel safe in my arms.

I didn't realize I was pulling her closer, until she said:

"You know, you can let go of me now..."

I don't know what came over me. I knew it wasn't right to hold someone against their will, and I was about to let her go, when I said the thing I never thought I would say.

"What if I don't want to?"

And we pulled closer, and closer, until there was only an inch seperating us. I wish I had the force to pull her in faster but I couldn't. I had never kissed anyone before. And I regretted not kissing her, because we heard her siblings' steps coming our direction.

We had to be sneaky and run as fast as we could, to not get busted. We entered Alex's room, and she sat on her bed, and so did I.

"Phew, that was close." she said tired.

Unconsciously, she laid in my shoulder and fell asleep hugging it.

Well I couldn't sleep. Again. She said relieved, that was close. What did she meant? Us getting close? Or us almost sharing a kiss?

I was being selfish that moment, thinking about only what I wanted. Mabye the little devil on my shoulder was right. Mabye I had inner desires. Of someone I met DAYS ago. I promised myself to never do this again. Never let my inner desires take me.

What would Alexis think of me now? Would we ever mention the kiss we almost shared? Or pretend it never happened?

Were we still going to be friends? Or would she think I'm the usual playboy type?

I really hoped she didn't, because I was going to lose the only friend I found in here.

I don't know how I fell asleep, but when I woke up, I realized I was laying in the same bed as Alexis, and she was hugging me.

I tried going to the sofa quietly without waking her up, but she was a light sleeper and woke up instantly...And realized what I realized few seconds ago.

"OMG, did we sleep together?" she gasped in surprise.

"I'm sorry, I have no idea how I fell asleep," I got of the bed. "You fell asleep on my shoulder first, and I was just overthinking on my own, and... and I don't know what happened next."

"It's okay, we were really tired laat night." She scratched her head. "And I apologize for falling asleep on your shoulder or making you uncomfortable."

There was a moment of pause between us.

"But now we umm... have to do something so they don't suspect that we..." and she whispered in my ear "shared a bed."

"So what do we do?"

"I don't know, you're the smart guy!" She said desperately. "We have no hope."

"Nah. Hope dies last!" I replied philosophically. "Mabye I can sneak off the window?"

"Won't work. Both Katie and Nicky are in Nicky's room, remember? So there's no chance you're getting away with it." she said desperately. "Ugh. It was easier for Newton to find that gravity exists that for us to not be discovered by my parents."

"Wait. Newton. I think...I GOT IT!" And a little lamp lights up my head just like in the movies. "Alex, you're a genius!"

"What?"

"Remember Newton got knocked out by an apple right? That fell from a tree?"

"Yes and?"

"You don't get it? Knocked out. We could pretend we were so angry and tired, sleep knocked us out." I say excited. "I'll pretend I fell asleep on that armchair right there," I point at it, "while you go and eat breakfast. I'll stay like 20 minutes more in here, pretending I'm asleep, but you must be sure for them to come and check me, otherwise, they'll believe the thing that we want to avoid them believing."

"That's great. That's another reason why we didn't respond the door knocking of Nicky and Katie too."

"Well trying to sound philosophal just like you got us such a bright idea." she smirked.

"Us?" I teased her. "I thought of all the plan..."

"Oh cmon Nattie, don't be such a mood killer." She added. "Going downstairs now, bye, don't ruin this." she said and opened the door.

"I won't" I whispered as I pretended falling asleep on the couch.