Feelings

(Nsfw warning)

I went home. For various reasons I was very happy, to the point I couldn't stop thinking about Skyler.

(Today wasn't a complete failure after all)

I took a shower and went to bed.

(Can't wait for tomorrow)

A few minutes went by when I felt someone touch my hair.

"Hey wake up big boy", said a voice in a sweet tone.

"huh?"

(Someone is in my room but I can't open my eyes....?)

"c'mon…" the voice whispered, moving the hand that was caressing my hair down to my face.

(who is it...?)

It grabbed my face and made me look upwards while hugging my face to its chest.

Slowly I opened my eyes to see who it was.

"Skyler?" I mumbled in a low voice.

It was Skyler, looking right at me under the moonlight, his eyes shining bright as the stars themselves. His hug felt so nice and warm.

"Alex," he said smiling caressing my hair once again. "I'm sorry."

(What is he sorry about? Is he apologizing bout the fight we had in college?)

His hand slowly went from my head to my neck and then to my legs.

"w...wait" I said in a low tone.

He looked me in the eye and took me in a kiss, his tongue exploring my mouth and his hand slipping further down my body.

"wa..wait, Skyler," I said catching my breath.

He slipped his hand inside my trousers and started rubbing his hand on "junior me"

"Ugh, fuck..." I mumbled as his hand rubbed faster.

It felt so good. I couldn't push him away, his fingertips felt so hot.

He then placed his on my body, rubbing his lower self on me.

His face flushed, looked so erotic and hot.

"Fuck...Alex... i'm close" he mumbled as he moaned and panted.

Under the moonlight, this tiny room which felt so quiet and lonely was now filled with our little moans.

"Alex...kiss me," Skyler said catching his breath.

I turned my head to look at him.

(huh?)

His expression was changing as if he was getting choked.

(what is happening to him)

"Alex" he gasped for air.

(what is he saying all of a sudden?)

His hand lightly touched my face.

"Stay away from me," his voice sounded so sad.

"Skyler what are you..."

"Please..." he sounded so desperate.

He was saying all sorts of weird stuff but the thing he said, in the end, made my body shiver.

"I'll jump off this cliff..." he said in a low voice smiling while tears rolled down his neck.

"WHAT NO!"

I woke up with a gasp.

"what…what was that" I panted as I contemplated my surrounding.

It was 5 in the morning. My heart felt like it was about to explode. I couldn't calm down

(I have to look for him!)

In a hurry I grabbed my coat and ran towards the bus stop to get to the cliff, not stopping to even catch my breath.

I knew Skyler wouldn't be there but still, I wanted to go.

(Why am I getting so worried? why do I want to see him so badly?)

All kinds of thoughts came into my mind, but my legs wouldn't stop moving.

I finally got to the bus and reached the cliff.

Of course, Skyler wasn't there.

(What was I expecting?)

I walked and sat on the edge of the cliff looking at the sun rising from the sea.

(I miss him.)

I looked at the sun rising, my heart as heavy as ever.

(I miss him so much...what is wrong with me, why do I feel like this)

"Alex…?" a familiar voice called out to me. I turned around in a hurry, knowing whose voice it was.

(Skyler....?SKYLER!)

I stood up and ran towards Skyler and tightly hugged him.

He looked confused. Even I, myself, was confused.

"Are you ok?" he said with a worried tone.

(Am I ok...?)

(Why am I so happy, seeing him right now? Why did my heart feel heavy? Why did I miss him so much? Why did I have that dream about him and why did I feel so depressed about the fact that Skyler didn't have a good time with me before? Why did I always think he was beautiful?)

I looked at Skyler's face, It looked so beautiful, his eyes shun as the sun rose higher, making my heart beat faster.

All the questions I ever had, all made sense now.

(I like Skyler.)

"Alex…?" Skyler called out to me tilting his head.

Realizing what I was doing I let go of him.

"uhh umm sorry" I apologized and stood straight.

"It's alright … but what are you doing here so early".

I couldn't just tell him I had a wet dream about him during which he said he was jumping off the cliff and made me panic.

"Ugh umm, I was just out for some fresh air" I made up an excuse hoping he would fall for it.

"Oh good! The sunrise looks beautiful from here" he said not investigating anymore.

He walked past me and sat down on the edge of the cliff.

"Let's watch it together," he said looking at me while passing a smile.

I felt a warm feeling rise within me. He truly was beautiful.

He brought some tea with him. We shared it while looking at the beautiful scene in front of us

The cold air and the beautiful scenery, the sound of the sea, the flowers along with the grass, and Skyler being next to me; everything was just perfect.

"So, what are you doing here so early," I asked Skyler.

"Just wanted to see the sunrise. My parents always came here on Saturdays, to watch the sunrise since it was the only day off for my dad."

"Oh is that so"

"Yep...I used to hate waking up early you know, but now it's different"

He had a sad smile on his face.

"Your mom and dad would be so happy looking at you right now don't you think", I said hoping this statement would make him feel better

"I don't know much about my mom but I know my dad is for sure though", He said frowning.

(Bad move. Must change the subject. Hurry!)

"What a coincidence though. We were supposed to meet up later today anyway!" I said trying to change the topic.

"Hmm yeah"

(Awkward)

"So did the blond guy message you?", as much as I hated the topic, this was the only thing that came to my mind.

"Oh yeah he did … I think you will be able to meet him real soon too"

"Me..?", I asked him confused.

"Yep, you," he said sipping his tea.

(Weird why would he introduce him to me? I don't think I would even want to see his face now that I know about my feelings.)

But of course, Skyler doesn't know that. He probably sees me as his only friend and wants me to meet him.

"Well, uhm sure," I said avoiding eye contact with him.

He looked at me smiling and then went quiet again.

This time this "quietness" was not awkward.

The heavy feeling came back rushing to my heart.

(Should I just tell him I like him? No…no way...I can't tell him that.)

Suddenly Skyler got up.

"Well, we already met today so no need to meet up in the afternoon too right?"

His statement made a feeling of disappointment fill me but I couldn't help but agree with him... I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible.

"yeah," I replied.

"Ok then see you on Monday, Alex," he said while brushing the dust off his clothes.

" you're going back ?" I asked getting up.

"Well I promised my aunt to help her do something," he said while walking away.

"uhh umm, Skyler!" I called out to him unconsciously.

He stopped and looked back at me.

(Why did I call him out? What am I supposed to say now!!!)

"umm…see you later," I said waving my hand and smiling at him.

He looked at me with a surprised expression but changed it quickly into a smile.

"Surely" he replied as he waved his hand and walked away.