51 Anonymous

I couldn't sleep. 

I'm sure my eyes were puffy already from all the tears I've shed. I was already tired. I was tired of the issue of my parents death, I was tired of the issue of Lisa, I was tired of the issue of Miles and Nick's fight, I was tired of everything.

Speaking of my parents, it's been months I've visited them. 

I've never felt as lonely as I did right now.

I got up tiredly from my bed and dressed to go visit them.

Although it was already past seven, I really didn't care. I just wanted to get out of this suffocating house.

Minutes later, I was already sitting in the bus, on my way to see my parents.

The time I had in my hands, I used it to reflect on my life.

I'm just a girl who lost her parents at the young age of seven. I was alone, sad, and empty inside. At a young age, I felt destroyed. My life was completely ruined. 

I moved into my uncle's house thinking my life might be a little better but things started to go downhill from there.

My only cousin turned my aunt against me, my uncle turned into a monster and started sexually touching me, my life officially became a mess.

I got a little happiness when my aunt's ex boss came for dinner and offered me scholarship. I met my best friend and was tangled in a love triangle.

Ex friends now turned enemies were over me and I was at cross roads.

I told one of the guy I liked my secret but it later turned into my weakness as he used it against me. Of course my heart was torn into pieces, and I feel useless.

My only cousin who I now hate very much, knew her dad was sexually harassing me, but did nothing about it. She said it served as a punishment for me because I wronged her. 

I feel so angry I swear I could kill her.

She has sworn to make my life miserable, but I'm not sure how my life could get more miserable than it already is now.

The only escape route from all these was death. The only way I could finally find peace was by killing myself.

But doesn't that feel like a very inviting idea? 

Because right now, I'm sure as hell think it's high time I got some rest. It's high time I finally forget everything and be at peace.

Maybe death wasn't really a bad idea.

The bus stops at my destination and I get down.

The breeze was cool this evening and I thanked the stars I had a thick sweatshirt on.

I walked into the cemetery and walked straight to where my parents were buried. 

I got there, sat down in the middle of their graves and sighed.

"It's been a while hasn't it?" I look up to the sky.

"I'm sorry. I've been caught up with a lot of things happening at school. If I were to start telling you everything, tonight wouldn't be enough." 

I rest my back on my mom's headstone and continue.

"But I was given a fantastic idea this evening." I pause. "I was told if I wanted to finally rest, I should come meet you guys." I chuckle. "I'm not sure if I ever thought of it before, but I'm starting to take it into serious consideration. Like everything, every single thing, with the snap of my fingers." I snap my fingers. "Will be gone." 

My phone beeps in my pocket. I bring it out and a message pops up.

It's from Chloe so I tap on it.

"Guess what?! Peter just asked me to be his girlfriend!!!! I'm so happy rn!!!!!" 

"But there are some perks to me sticking around." I sigh. "Like my best friend who's crazy about a boy she likes very much. Her twin who has nice eyes and is always there when I'm in trouble, his ex best friend who is fun to be with and exceptionally handsome, sometimes he behaves crazy but it's nothing I can't deal with. My best friend's parents that are really nice to me." 

"The list goes on, but what I'm not sure is if I really do leave, will they notice my absence? Will they realize I'm gone? And if they do realize, will they remember me as a family, or as someone they once knew?" 

"I wish I had the answers to all these questions, but I get what I get right?" I sigh again and checked the time.

"I better get going." I stand up. "Ever since aunt Mary lost her job, she hasn't even had the time for me. I swear I couldn't be more glad. But that still doesn't mean I should provoke her into doing something I'd regret later on."

Especially after I hit her only child.

"I'll try to visit more often I promise that. But for now, I have to leave." I cleaned a tear that dropped. "I love you guys." I say and walk away.

Although I might've not done much than just said rubbish to my parents, but it still felt nice talking to them. 

It's been months since I last spoke with them, but speaking with them tonight relieved some of the tension in my heart.

And because of that, I managed to sleep well that night.

*******

The next day, my mood became a little lighter. But as soon as I got to school, I knew immediately something felt wrong.

The air was stiff, and the students were chattering among themselves. They were broken into small groups everywhere.

As I walked into the school, everyone stopped what they were all doing and stared at me. 

Again they were whispering but I was as hell sure it was directed to me.

"I heard she even went to him first." I heard some girl whispering as I passed.

One of them gasps. "What a slut. Doesn't she know that's disgusting?" 

What is going on?!

The stares didn't stop but I tried to ignore it, and hurried up to my locker.

"Raven! Raven!!" I could hear Chloe shouting my name.

I turn to her as she reaches my side.

"What's going on? Why's everyone staring at me?" I ask her 

"You haven't heard have you?" She asks me.

"Heard what?" 

"An anonymous post was posted on our school blog and it's about you."

"An anonymous post?" I collect her phone from her and checked what she was saying.

As I read the contents, my eyes widened, my heart dropped, and Chloe's phone fell from my hands. 

My hands which were trembling went to cover my mouth and I fell to floor in shock.

BREAKING!!!!! IT SEEMS ALL WHAT WE SEE ISN'T EXACTLY WHAT IT IS. 

It has come to light that a fellow student, friend, and classmate of ours isn't what she says she is. 

Raven Evans. A student who claims her parents died in an accident when in fact, she killed them. A student who turned her aunt's house upside down and completely ruined her two decade long standing marriage. A student who bullies and treats her cousin like trash, treats her like she isn't human like the rest of us. A student who bewitched two best friends in our school and turned them against each other. A student who seduced her own uncle, and when caught sleeping with him, claimed it was rape.

Now tell me o students, is this less of a human being worthy of remaining a student in this great prestigious school?