91 Accept Me

"Please don't run from me anymore." He places a kiss on my cheek, "Because I am going to make love to you. I just don't want you running or avoiding me afterwards."

I begin to tremble, becoming anxious again.

I know I'm stupid for becoming scared. I know that Lance will not hurt me, he will not try to end my life, or anything of the sort. I hate how words that should make me shiver in anticipation make me tremble in fear!

"Lirael?" Lance looks me over and see's that I'm trembling again. He sits next to me, wrapping his arms around me. "I didn't mean I was going to right this moment. I just wanted to know you're not going to avoid me after the fact, when it does happen. I'm not going to unless you are ready. That's why I made you sleep earlier."

He brushes my hair away from my face as I can only nod to his words right now. Leaning into his arms, I wrap myself around his torso tightly.

"I'll try my best." I whisper, pulling him to lay back with me. We curl up, entwining our bodies together with my head on his chest, his head keeping mine in place. The scent of his skin and coconut bodywash softly invading my nostrils.

"Lance, why do you want to make love to me?" I question him.

Lance's chest rises and falls under me making my head move with it, "I thought that would be obvious. I love you and I see that love is something that you have been deprived of for far too long."

I pull back from his chest and prop myself up to look at him as he continues.

"I try to show you I love you in many different ways. Sex is important to you in different ways, as it is to me. But, sex has never been a way I have been able to show you how I care about you, the way that I have desired to. Our sex is great, but I want us to be on the same wavelength. I want you to know you are safe with me. I want you to understand and feel the kind of emotions you cause to form and bring out in me. I want you to accept them like I accept you. I need you to accept me, all of me..."

His words cause tears to glisten in his vulnerable eyes, making my heart ache, happily. I bite my bottom lip, trying to suppress the smile that tugs at the corners of my lips.

"Lance..."I draw out his name on my lips, my heart and eyes becoming puddles as I don't know what to say to respond to such an open and heartfelt declaration. "I never... thought... anyone would ever tell me..." I fight back a sob and take a breath, "I never had anyone motivate or inspire my desire to want to open up and let someone try to love me like I do with you."

I take a haggard breath to inform him, "And the fact that you accept.." my voice breaks and I inhale slowly as I blink away more tears, " accept me... I feel as if I'm dreaming, that I am going to wake up and this will have all been a dream and that ... that would devastate me to not have you love me anymore." My voice is barely audible at the end but watching Lance's eyes dilate and soften, a joyous glow shining deep within.

Lance cups my cheek in the his warm palm, blinking back his own tears as he declares, "Then I will just have to prove to you everyday, that you are not dreaming. Because I have no plan on leaving or hurting you. All I want now, is to be able to stay with you and love you."

"I would like that." I admit to him, making his smile radiate warmth on me.

He places soft kisses on my cheeks, my eyes, my forehead, the tip of my nose, making me smile through my tears.

"Let me get you a tissue, beautiful." Lance rolls to the bedside table and grabs a couple tissues, letting me wipe my tears away. Once done he pulls me back to his chest, holding me close. I feel the warmth of his body, blanketing me like the warm glow of the morning sun. His heartbeat sets a calming tempo to my own heart, lulling me to sleep with a heart full of emotions going through it, but feeling lighter than I've ever felt before.

I awaken, still wrapped up tightly in Lance's arms, still in the same position we fell asleep in. It's still dark outside, and raising my head up I see it's a little past five in the morning. I lay my head back down on his chest, breathing in his scent, his calming presence that feels my heart with wonder. His heart beat picks up in pace and I raise my head to meet his sleep filled eyes that slowly blink as he smiles at me.

"Good morning, handsome." I grin at him.

"Mmmm... It's a beautiful morning, isn't it." He stretches his body out his muscles flexing and displaying their power, before wrapping his arms back around me. He pulls me up to meet his face, planting his lips on mine for a chaste kiss. He lays there just looking at me after our lips part, a soft smile spread across his face as we don't say anything but bask in each others happiness.

Nature called though, so I get up and take care of myself. Coming back out from the bathroom, letting Lance have his turn, I drink as much water as I can before hopping back in the bed and waiting for Lance to come back. Lances phone dings with a notice, so I roll over and check who it's from. It's from Big Daddy but it is just a text.

I roll back over to my own phone, picking it up and opening it up. I had a few a messages from the girls at work, asking for souvenirs or to bring them back a sun kissed hunk for them to pass around like candy.

Snorting at that image going through my mind, Lance comes back out and asks what's so funny, so I show him.

He shakes his head and goes to his own phone and opens it up.

"Oh good." He mumbles as I set down my phone again.

"What's good?" I ask as he sets the phone down and climbs back in with me.

"Big Daddy called in a favor from his brother, who owns the security business. They're setting your system up today at your house. They wanted to let me know, they're taking care of you, top of the line, hidden cameras and mics in every room, including the garage, front and back yard. All video and audio captured goes to the account cloud, only accessible by you unless the pass phrase is used. IF it's used then staff is alerted and then the police if it's confirmed that there is an intruder and you need help."

"Wow, tell him I said thank you, I really do appreciate everything that everyone is doing for me." I lean in and kiss his cheek, snuggling up to his bare chest and letting him wrap an arm around me.