Chapter 5: You don't deserve my love

"Fear and hate Sometimes I wonder which one is stronger. It's ironic that I used to believe they were both divorced from each other. I didn't realize they were connected until I realized that you can't fear something until you hate it. That is to say, your hatred is the source of your fear. And it will remain if you do not stop hating. That is, if you want to overcome your fear, you must stop hating the thing you despise the most. That sounds pretty noble, doesn't it? But how can a hatred that had built up over a year of torment and had penetrated deep into the bones be stopped with the words "just stop your hatred?" Is that even make sense? " Yin Lan choked hard because of the unbalanced rush of her emotions.

Yin Lan's greatest fear is the men who appear from the shadows, which cannot be described in millions of words. Why is her fear of the person in the shadow so strong? That's pretty simple Because she despises that person the most, and it makes her even shiver with fear.

Why does she hate him so much?

Yin Lan truly loves him because he is the love of her life, but what does she receive in return?

Nothing!

There was not a single ounce of love, let alone a fake smile.

He never managed to give her even his phony smile in her entire life, and in the end, Yin Lan had a bitter death.

When she unexpectedly caught sight of him, she immediately turned her head away from him out of rage and ripped the corner of her lips off while sobbing. She said, "He doesn't give a damn about me and doesn't love me either," thinking that, in the end, despite her best efforts, made her eyes water.

Sadly, closing her eyes in pain, she whispers, "I was making a mistake by waiting for him."

"And even married him. I can't believe what convinced me that he... can give me the love, I've been looking for," she huffed in anger without giving him a glance.

The undying hatred was causing severe exhaustion inside her body.

Silently cursing her poor fate YinLan folded her lips inside, saying, "I should have known. The pattern of the pillow is exactly the same, which he likes. That means it's his room. One of the devils of my life. The one who ruined my life. And this is the person who is standing across from me. "

The person Yin Lan is so afraid of her so-called husband, Fu Liang Chen, the one who let her go through hell.

Even just imagining him can be a curse for her because it disrupts her normal body rhythm and causes mental damage, but now that he is standing alive right in front of her eyes, she can't even imagine how that will affect her.

"I think I've lost my ability to breathe; I can't even breathe normally," she said, breaking into quiet sobs once more.

She was preoccupied with her ailment when she noticed the person standing in front of her start moving towards the bed.

As soon as she noticed the movement, her eyes widened with fear because his body was half-naked with only his pants on, that is, he was standing without a shirt.

She abruptly shifted her eyes, but a stream of fear that was flowing inside her made her look at him again.

She sighs quietly as the lightning flashes its lights within the room, "Someone with a slender body, bulging muscles, and a six-pack over their stomach. And the face, which is encrusted with the allure of handsomeness and innocence. With that kind of physics, which can make anyone fall for him with a single glance, who could have thought he was nothing more than a monster? A monster who does not deserve my love. I had loved him my entire life, but all I got in return was his torment and humiliation." She soon turned away her gaze in anger after glancing at him briefly. But then she found herself feeling calm.

She slowly closed her eyes as the moments of her past life started to flash in front of her eyes. Now sorrow was engulfing her strongly. She wished for his love all of her past life, but she was only miserable in the end for wanting that.

She wanted to shed tears, but her eyes wanted something else. Unexpectedly, she realized that all of her feelings were finally going to rest.

"This..." she felt insulted when she noticed that her eyes were longing to look at him once more. There was some joy within her because of his presence.

Why wouldn't she?

He was the love of her life and she genuinely loved him till her death. Perhaps this explains why she wasn't completely overcome by feelings of love for him in her body.

She felt so much disappointment in herself, but that disappointment was not strong enough to make her eyes not look at him.

Her cheeks blushed as her eyes were unconsciously drawn back to him.

She mutters inaudibly to the sight in front of her, "Yes, this is the type of person that many people wish to marry, and I am no exception. I had such high hopes of having a beautiful life after marrying this guy, but what did I get in the end?" She slightly flickered her nose as her teeth crushed her lips. She yelled in her head as she closed her eyes in despair, "Nothing comes true, and I eventually die without seeing the face of my child. And he remained the same until the end. I really don't understand why I wanted to marry him and how I ended up as Mrs. Fu? "

A voice echoed in the silent room, as she was going through her endless regret.

"I didn't know you were this cunning to get your mean." In the midst of the rain sound, a deep, hoarse, chilling voice covered with mockery wishes to be heard. That voice was so intimidating for Yin Lan to respond.

She had heard those chilling voices many times in her past life, which is why she knows what comes after. She wished to leave the room, but she was paralyzed. in fear. But the fear was not the only source of her immobility. The drug was the reason too.

Her eyebrows furrowed in grief as she grumbled, "Cunning?"

"Me...?"

She sadly looked towards him with unwavering eyes and thought to herself, "He is the same at all, not even changed. He has no idea the person he is calling cunning is nothing but a clay doll that doesn't have its own cast until it is properly molded by craftsmen. He always jumps to conclusions before hearing my end of the story. He didn't let me explain why I disappeared before our wedding day. What exactly happened to me? And who was the guy who sent me home?

Her teeth grated over one another as she sobbed, thinking, "But once he came to look for me, he said the same thing in the same voice, "I didn't know you were this cunning."

"He said exactly the same words as in the past."

Now she felt her heart sinking in eternal pain.

Her eyes flickered unconsciously as her eyes desperately got fixed on him, which was silently asking him, "What right does he have to say those words to me? Just because I loved him, he can say anything he wants. Why? I never said anything to him, then why is he saying those words to me?"

"And why is he not even making an effort to listen to me at all? Is my voice that uncomfortable in his ears that he won't even let me speak?"

She found that her eyes were getting all wet again. but she never changes her sight at all. She wanted only someone to tend to her pain, which she was feeling. She now feels that her heart is being ripped apart bit by bit.

She wanted to cry properly. She wished to cover her face with her hand and wipe all of her tears away. She wished to veil her eyes with her hand so she would not see the sight of him either, but what an irony. She can't even make herself do so either. Her whole body was immobile, so all she could do was remain still like before.

She was really feeling pathetic when her attention suddenly gripped something.

She realizes that those words he speaks are exactly the same as before, like her past life. Then, a sorrowful exclamation leaves her mouth, "I really have traveled into the past."